Friday, November 13, 2009
I cried really badly today.
Gosh, Kezann and Iris are really good people to emotionally dependent on and to cry with them because they know how i feel and not only that, they join in too!
today's like the last day of the class chalet that lasted for 3 days and 2 night. played black jack last night and cried halfway cause the stupid Kezann went to play 'The Graduation Song' and in my heart, i know that i might not be able to meet up or keep in contact with a lot of them which left a hole in my heart.
Well, it feels really empty; my heart. whenever i think about them..
Here are some people I will never ever forget and never stop loving!
Jolene Tan ; my 5 year classmate whom we went thru all sorts of obstacles and yet, we're really good friends. :)
Jian Shang ; my other 5 year classmate whom we were always logger heads at each other. I'm really glad that despite the many quarrels, we're still friends today!
Jason ; met only this year. he pollutes my mind all the time and really change my perspective in many things! many claimed that we never had a proper conversation before cause we're always shooting and suanning each other. I really enjoy the time we had sitting infront and behind each other.
Darryl Angelo ; my very first and best pinoy friend! gosh, i'm really really grateful that he's in my life because of the spices and colours that he brings into my life!
Iris, Kezann, Nelia and Yuting ; my very first clique in school! thanks for accepting me and like totally ignoring each other's flaws :) i love you and will dearly miss you!
Ricky ; i'm rendered speechless when it comes to him. I know him for 3 years and he's the first person who encouraged me during the first day of Sec 3. And he doesn't even know it and i don't think he knows it either, i really love him. he's like my really really good friend from school. close to best friend, since i don't have a best friend anywhere. He does really spontaneous things that just makes me enjoy the friendship that we have. I really hope i am able to continue it. Oh, and he's the main cause of my tears.
Labels: the end of my secondary life
8:48 PM
Monday, October 12, 2009
Right now everyday is moving really slowly and I'm really thankful for that. :D
I'll start with what happened yesterday, super funny!
[Had small group lunch @ e-hub; the 99 cents sushi roll]
Waiter served Jumbo roll.
Deborah : Oooh, what's that?
Barry : Try it, it's very nice.
Debbie : My parents always order that.
Barry : Yeah, very nice right?
[when someone finally took the first one]
Debbie : I don't want the fish roe.
Rachael : I also don't want.
Me : Oh! Give me, I like it.
Rachael : Eh, do you want the Avocado? I don't like it.
Debbie : Okay, give me
*puts it on the plate*
Lydia : I don't want the cucumber
*everyone stares dumbly at it*
Deborah : It's not cucumber, it's Avocado.
Lydia : What's that?
Me : It's like a fruit.
Lydia : [not hearing me] Is it a Chicken?
[We all burst out laughing!]
Today.
Studied with Janice, Ricky, Xin Rong and Chin Long. Then Janice left, and Melvin came, they felt that there wasn't enough space, so they went to sit outside, leaving Ricky and Me; cause he was teaching my Physics. Then SOMEHOW, MIRACULOUSLY, he convinced me to sit outside with all the guys [okay, i really needed his proficiency in physics.] So I went out to sit with the others, then Zhi Xuan came, and joined us.
So picture this,
6 guys and 1 girl studying in 2 table at the No Smoking area.
It was really uncomfortable.
But then again, I got to know them a whole lot better, my Physics improved a lot, like I was pretty amazed at myself, and one could tell at the look on Ricky's face, his ego increased by a 100 since he taught me most of it. So, YAY! today was pretty productive! :D
I really wish the moments I had today wouldn't end or be forgotten by anyone of them, gosh, I love my school mates so much!
Labels: i love my school mates so much
10:48 PM
Monday, October 05, 2009
I think I'm really glad for O levels.
okay, i'm definitely not a sadistic or anything along that meaning.
I'm really thankful for O levels because ,
1) The bond between my school mates and myself is getting stronger!
2) There aren't anymore cliques. [Except for the really childish ones] It's like everyone helps each other!
3) I'm starting to love all my school friends! :D
4) There is no such thing as unapproachable people, cool people or even nerds! Everyone talks to anyone now!
5) I love the stress and tension that I'm receiving from my peers [rarely happens]
6) I finally feel focus and full of concentration. It's a really nice feeling (:
7) I love my seating mates! :D
9:59 PM
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
long time since i blogged..
my results ain't good. sighs, gotta mug like mad!
wish me luck yeah?!
on the other hand, friend ships are getting much much better@ :D
11:03 PM
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
okay, so last week has been a very long week.
Monday - School Study Camp Day 1. followed by Studying with Samantha Wong @ Whitesands macs.
Tuesday - School study Camp Day 2. followed by Studying with Samantha Wong & Samuel Pang @ church. [quite fail though]
Wednesday - woke up @ 13oo, missed school. Went to Run and Swim with the guys.
Thursday - Studied with Shakila @ Whitesands Macs. followed by Tuition.
Friday - Visit my grandma's you-know-the-place-where-people-die-their-ashes-are-placed-there. then visited my great aunt. followed by hanging out @ Amanda Teo's house. PARTY! @Yiying's function room for Daniel Chia.
Saturday - U-Nite AAR. Sick. Studied with Samantha Wong in church.
Sunday - Led small group, Samantha Phua didn't come. Had GROUP 4 OUTING! @ Swensons. Clifton and 123 pounds didn't come.
Monday [following monday] - Prelim; Social Studies and Math. Did the SBQ satisfyingly! Math, easier than Paper 1.
Tuesday [today!] - Prelim; Chinese. hah, let's just move on! followed by borrowing books from the library, and then studying with Samantha Wong [a bit fail]
9:02 PM
Monday, September 07, 2009
C : You are really silly.
L : Everyone loves you.
A : You like to drink.
R : You are fucking crazy.
I : You are great in bed.
C : You are really silly.
E : You are a damn good kisser.
T : You're loyal to those who you love.
A : You like to drink.
N : You like to drink.
Heh, I kinda agree with everything EXCEPT I AND E. 1) I wouldn't know if i'm a damn good kisser cause I've never tried it before. 2) Erm, I think I'm good in bed in terms of sleeping; cause I can't wake up!
Oh, I whole heartedly agree with A and N! I mean, what a emphasize on the fact that I like to drink? :P
A: You like to drink.
B : You like people.
C : You are really silly.
D : You like to drink.
E : You are a damn good kisser.
F : You are dead sexy.
G : You never let people tell you what to do.
H : You have a very good personality and looks.
I : You are great in bed.
J : People adore you.
K : You're wild and crazy.
L: Everyone loves you.
M : You are great in bed.
N : You like to drink.
O : You are an awesome kisser.
P : You are popular with all types of people.
Q : You are a hypocrite.
R : You are fucking crazy.
S : You are easy to fall in love with.
T : You're loyal to those you love.
U : You really like to chill.
V : You are not judgmental.
W : You are very broad minded.
X : You never let people tell you what to do.
Y : Best g/f b/f anyone could ever ask for.
Z : Always ready
11:29 PM
boring, school is very boring..
studied with sam wong and samuel pang at white sands macs!
was a fruitful one (:
10:59 PM
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
From today onwards, I have decided not to share much during Life Group sessions. Because if my Life Group leaders can't respect what I ask or can't have the decency to shut up and not use my past situations to make it a joke and mock me, or be bloody hypocrites on their view of this Life Group when they themselves don't bother with their own, what's the point?
So when I want to share, I have my trusty Life group members to share! I will like go one on one to share stuff with them!
So,
Bye-Bye! Life Group Leader. [Singular]
Hello! Life Group Members!
9:15 PM
Monday, August 31, 2009
funny thing happened!
when i woke up at 8, i thought today is sunday! so i panicked!
but thank God it's a silent panicked, or else, it would have been so embarrassing! oh gosh..
oh, and I didn't go school today :D heh. wanted to stay at home and study, so yeah.
1:14 PM
Monday, August 24, 2009
been a while since i've post I guess..
Chemistry is horrible.
Math is still wonderful.
Chinese is a pain in the ass and a major disappointment.
Physics has been stagnant.
English is my shining light in the darkest room.
POA is improving, i hope.
I shan't even mention Humanities.
3:44 PM
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
yay! yay! yay!
I'm doing well in math!!!!!
WHEEE!!!
SUPER HAPPY!
Hope I can get a A2 OR A B3!! From a F9 score to a B3 score, I am perfectly satisfied!!!
okay, back to practicing more math!
Labels: math
8:51 PM
Sunday, August 16, 2009
I was watching the show Pursuit of Happiness on friday at Daryl's house with the rest of the LG and the way the main character described his life is in sections. So I shall do the same for this post.
This part of my life is called Tired.
Have you ever felt so tired and sick of everything?
You just want to avoid talking to some people for no reason? Don't feeling like saying Hi to other people? Or even be friendly and cheerful? Cause that's what I'm feeling right now.
I guess, I'm just really really tired. Gosh, I really do hope that life gets better or else I'm really gonna be in this state for a while.
Labels: tired
9:30 PM
Saturday, August 15, 2009
today's my dad's birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAY DAD!!
okay, i would show you pictures from my phone but that's if i got around knowing how to transfer pictures in my phone, quite noob with phones, lol. Anyway, the cake is super nice!!! It's like fruits with sponge cake!!!!!!
Crap, I'm gonna get even fatter! ARGH!!!
Labels: Happy Birthday Dad
9:51 PM
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
My brother is a fucking imbecile.
He's wholly unreasonable, without a single piece of brain and disgusting.
He's a bloody rogue.
He should take good care of his fingers, whilst it's still attached.
Bloody insolent.
7:23 PM
Sunday, August 09, 2009
HAPPY 44th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!!
oh, and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BER!!!
so cool right? having the same birthday as the country, lol!
Labels: happy birthday singpore
8:30 PM
Thursday, August 06, 2009
today something cool happened!!!
I just got off the phone with a supplier, like a REAL supplier!!
well, my class is selling stuff instead of paying class funds.
So this are what my class are selling.
M&M Milk chocolates for $1
M&M Nuts chocolates for $1
Fruitty Drink Strawberry for $1.2
Fruitty Drink Blueberry for $1.2
so cool right?!?!?! haha, so if you want to help me, you can buy it too! :P
5:56 PM
Sunday, August 02, 2009
awesome! one week is over!! and it's one more week nearer to the O levels! :D wheee..
anyway, this week schedule :
Monday : Free/detention/studying
Tuesday : Tuition
Wednesday : B.O.F Meeting
Thursday : Nothing at the moment, cool!
Friday : Life Group at Yiying's house!!
Saturday : Meeting/Church
Sunday : Church the whole day!!
9:11 PM
Friday, July 31, 2009
Lg just ended and i'm so tired after this horrid and busy week. so yep! just a random update, i'm gonna watch the show : Why Why Love.
It's gonna be my 3rd time watching it already.. lol, saw it on advertisement and felt like watching it again. lol, tomorrow's FOP! whee... I'm going to go with lg peeps!
So, there are the agenda for tomorrow :
-Group Tuition with Rachel for 4 hours.
-LG lunch
-Band One Fellowship Meeting.
-Dinner
-Festival Of Praise
11:40 PM
Thursday, July 30, 2009
I swear, I LOVE READING!!!
it's so fun! okay, i think i sound like a geek, but i don't care. Reading : Midnighters by Scott Westerfold.
:D
8:00 PM
Monday, July 27, 2009
Song I'm listening to now is :You Found Me by the Fray. Okay, don't ask me why i'm so random putting up this song.
Anyway, I didn't go school today. This is what I intend to do for the rest of today Accordingly :
Math : One paper -done!-
Principles of Account : 5 Questions of Sole Trader -done! however only 2 out of 5 is balanced ): -
English : One Comprehension Passage [it's time to procrastinate..]
Social Studies : Venice [it's time to procrastinate too.. ]
Do finish all the work that I owe my teachers. -done!-
Cool huh? Wish me luck! And I finally know why I want to keep myself busy, so I don't have to feel the pain and suffering I am enduring at Home, Church, School Dm and Friends, this few months is going to be a pretty dark one for me.
So yeah, really, wish me luck (:
Labels: a dark week-months
11:20 AM
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Seems like this week is gonna be another long and busy week, however, hope things get much much better!
Monday - Detention [for last week] / Studying
Tuesday - Tuition.
Wednesday - Band 1 Fellowship Meeting
Thursday - Studying [as for now, nothing is on!]
Friday - Life Group; should be at Rachel Ong's house!
Saturday - FOP!
Sunday - Church, lunch, hang out, meeting!
whee! everyday is busy! i want to pierce my ear this week, sighs.. gotta see when i am free :S
Labels: another busy week.
9:06 PM
Friday, July 24, 2009
this is the longest, most hectic, tiresome, exhausting, busiest, and wholly devastating week in my life!
practically everyday i have something on.
Monday - Band 1 Fellowship Meeting.
Tuesday - Jade's Pre-Birthday cum Girls Night out.
Wednesday - O level Chinese Listening Comprehension followed by Tuition with Rachel. [Jade's Birthday]
Thursday - Benji's Concert
Friday - Life Group [Rachel Ng's Birthday]
Saturday - Tuition with Rachel, Hillsong's Concert.
Sunday - SGl meeting, Band 1 fellowship meeting.
Appalling thing is, i haven't used the computer for the whole week and my itunes is spoilt, my blogger is spoilt!
Besides the computer being spoilt, my FRIENDSHIPS are spoilt! yes, with a capital S. so many friendships are spoilt and ruin.
It has always been my nature to say what i feel like saying especially when i'm mad.
So here's to the person i wish very much to wrench your head off : "If you have manifold problems with me, why didn't you just tell me straight in my face? I would appreciate that so much better. Not that I take much pleasure in talking to you, but didn't you think that I would eventually find out? And that you would have to either be involved in a confrontation or endeavour pretending like nothing happened? I am doing you a huge favour by keeping your identity a secret, and not making it so vastly obvious like you did."
and to another friend : "i'm sorry i wasn't there for you, please forgive me and do not silence yourself from me.."
Labels: the week of my life.
11:42 PM
Thursday, July 16, 2009
i am utterly confused and indecisive right now.
2:12 PM
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
GO FOR THE HOPE FESTIVAL!!!
I SAW SHAKILA TODAY IN HER UNIFORM!!!!
9:36 PM
Monday, June 29, 2009
Okay, today is the end of the school holidays..
So as according to what Barry said of Enjoy my holidays as much as I can and when school reopen, I study as hard as I can, I figured it'll be cool to do up a List of Things that I've done during the School Holidays, so here goes..
Things I've done During the School Holidays :
- Chinese O level paper.
- 10 tuition sessions with Rachel Ng.
- Attended 3 days of Study Camp.
- Attended 2 camps! [Church camp and Media Camp]
- Attended a Music Concert [FIRST TIME WITHOUT MY PARENTS!!!]
- 2 Birthday PARTIES!
- WEDDING LUNCH!
- wore a dress! twice!
- Had a Baby Bash
- Had Dinner with Samuel Pang
- Went on a Date with Darling Rachel Lee
- Had a Shopping and Lunch with Samantha Wong
- Had a One-on-One lunch with Charlotte [thank you!]
- Bought flowers for Daniel Ng and Russell! [Russell is so cute!!]
- [Supposedly] LG Outing : Badminton
- Sharing Lunch with Amanda at IKEA!
- Bought my Brother's Birthday belated gift with Kyle
- Broke up with Benji twice in 3 days.
- Got attached with Benji for 3 days before Breaking up with him. [lol]
- FELL IN LOVE WITH ODD NUMBERS! :D
- SMALL GROUP CAPTAIN'S BALL!!!
Labels: reflection of the school holidays
7:29 PM
Saturday, June 27, 2009
hey girls!
this is the reply to your tag, cause it's gonna be really long to reply, lol.
Debbie : Aww.. wo ye xiang ni!! haha, love you! will be missing your '[who-ever] is so irritating!]
Rachael : Right, I have received your indirect love thru the tag you left, but it would be really nice to not say it anymore please! Anyway, believe it or not, i'll miss you for the whole 2 months and you saying 'April, why you so retarded?' lol
Anne! : I'll miss you like busloads!! [bus bigger than truck right?] and don't give up until you're certain you want to and even if you do right, please tell me first ok? I don't want to hear it from anyone but you! [nobody, nobody but you..] haha, retarded a bit.
Deborah : yeah!! so cool, like the first time it's happening to me!! :D i will miss you tons! you can still accompany me by staying back in church!! and teach me more of the song yeah? love!!
Lydia : haha, i know, but it's normal for you right? lol. we should camwhore on her come again soon!!! :D and please, just ignore what debbie, april and rachael says about you ok? cause you're not! i love you!!! will miss you during the 2 months! love!!!
Labels: replies on tagboard.
12:03 AM
Sunday, June 21, 2009
I LOVE MY SG GIRLS!!
I'll miss you all during the 2 months! I'll be around, so maybe we can have lunch after small group or something yeah?
See you next week for Captain's Ball!
love!
11:49 PM
Saturday, June 20, 2009
I NEED TO GO SHOPPING AT FOREVER 21 BEFORE THIS SATURDAY!!!
Anyway, here's an UPDATE on the 17 things I want to do before I turn 17!
Things I want to do before i turn 17.
1. Go overseas without any of my parents. done on the 7/06/09
2. Pass my Chinese O levels. [B4 at least]
3. Pierce my belly.
4. Dance performance @ Danz People. done on 13/06/09
5. Pass each and every subject for O level. [must be at least B3]
6. Highlight my hair Pink.
7. Go back to COSI!
8. Cut my hair. done on 05/06/09
9. Decide which LG to join.
10. Be a responsible SGL. ;according to ANNE. [iloveyou]
11. Don't hold myself back for anything or anyone.
12. Clear all my debts.
13. Life Group Outing;with everyone there.
14. Having True Friends whom I can trust whole heartedly done on 16/06/09
15. Finish reading at least the New Testament.
16. Be on time, or don't go. [from 21/05/09 onwards]
17. Express my feelings to him, if i still have it.
Labels: update on the 17 things to do before turning 17.
11:50 PM
Friday, June 19, 2009
i hate getting into arguments with friends.
2:42 PM
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
" True friends do not see us changing in ways that are harmful and keep silent. They are willing to be truthful because they care for us. Such friends are rare because it takes courage to speak the truth when doing so ricks our being misunderstood or rejected." -Paul J Wadell
After 6 days of holding it all together, I am finally able to pour it all out. Like the gates of my emotions finally broke free.
What triggered it? ONE SMS. from a dearly loved one.
I never expected something like that from him, it felt so surreal. I thought he was a really good friend, now, I know he is a true friend.
I don't know what I'll do without him, but I'm really glad he's a part of my life.
I hope he knows I'm talking about him when he reads it!
Labels: a true friend
11:19 PM
Saturday, June 13, 2009
1. If your doctor told you TODAY that you were pregnant, what would you say?
Are you serious?!
2. Do you trust all of your friends?
Not at all.
3. Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
No, cause I would be loosing so much more like my family and friends.
4. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
Yea.
5. Can you make a dollar in change right now?
No.
6. Which one of your friends do you think would make the best doctor?
Samuel Cheah! [he got the 'how are you feeling today' look!]
7. Are you afraid of falling in love?
Yes. Because it's a 2-way situation where you would never know what would happen.
9. Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times?
Yep!
10. What's your most favorite scar?
I only have one, but I hate it, so NO.
11. When was the last time you flew in a plane?
9th December 2008; COSI mission trip.
12. What did the last text message you sent say?
No, they didn't sell. Sorry!
13. What features do you find most attractive in the preferred sex?
His height!
, body built, humor.
14. Fill in the blank:
Fill in the blank.
15. What is a goal would you like to accomplish in the near future?
Get less that 17 points for L1R5, Get my life back to normal.
16. If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an extended time who would you call?
The one friend who never gave up on me; if i still remember his number!
17. How many kids do you want to have?
2 or 3. [that's if the 1st one goes through alright]
18. Would you make a good parent?
I hope I will.
19. Where was your profile picture taken? (xanga)
I don't have a profile picture or a xanga account.
20. Whats your middle name?
I don't have one.
21. Honestly, whats on your mind right now?
Truly Grateful to my 3 friends who is on my side. [Amanda Teo, Kyle & Sheldon]
22. If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be?
The whole of the G.R.A.C.E camp.
23. Who will be the maid of honour/ best man in your wedding??
My best mates, whoever they are during the time of my wedding
24. What are you wearing right now?
Sleeping clothes
25. Righty or Lefty?
Righty.
26. Best place to eat?
First thing I thought of was Jack's Place steak.
27. Favorite jeans?
The ones I usually wear.
28. Favorite animal?
None. oh, FISH! they wont survive in air, lol
29. Favorite juice?
Apple!
30. Have you had the chicken pox?
Yeah, when I was a kid.
31. Have you had a sore throat?
D-uh, many times.
32. Ever had a bar fight?
Nope.
33. Who knows you the best?
God.
34. Shoe size?
9 or 10
35. Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?
Neither, Perfect eyesight!
36. Ever been in a fight with your pet?
No?
37. Been to Mexico?
Nope.
38. Did you buy something today?
Nope.
39. Did you get sick today?
No.
40. Do you miss someone today?
Not really..
41. Did you get in a fight with someone today?
Not really.
42. When is the last time you had a massage?
2 years ago.
43. Last person to lay in your bed?
I
44 . Last person to see you cry?
Liang Zhi.
45. Who made you cry?
My remorse guilt.
46. What was the last TV show you watched.
CSI on FX channel
47. What are your plans for the weekend?
Badminton, study, church service.
48. Who do you think will re-post this?
No one.
49. Who was the last person you hung out with?
Kyle.
50. If your significant other asked you to marry them TODAY what would you say?
Haha, you're drunk.
1:19 AM
Thursday, June 11, 2009
9 hours since church camp was OVER!
I reached home and slept for like 3 hours, lol.
This is one camp that I will never forget.
I bunked with Rachel Lee and Jazlyn. [aka the Bimbos] however, don't be deceived by them, I ended up feeling like the Bimbo especially during the last day when I was packing up, gosh, that was like the worst, I HATE PACKING!
CONGRATULATIONS TO RACHEL LEE AND JAZLYN SEET FOR SUCCESSFULLY WAKING ME UP FOR ALL 4 DAYS!
yep, they managed to wake me up, and trust me, it's never easy waking me up unless I wake up on my own. lol
Through this camp, I got to know Debbie and Lydia better!!! :D from them, I learnt and urge other people not to stereotype people just by judging their outer appearance, cause what really matters is the inside.
Oh, oh, I LEARNT HOW TO PLAY BRIDGE!!!! :D :D I think I'm the worst student, cause I had like 3 'instructors' teaching me, Kyle, Liang Jie and Samuel Pang, I think they could have vomit blood if it was just one person teaching me. Haha.
I made quite a few new friends, though I feel like I regret making friends with them, cause I guess they weren't exactly really good influence to me, or like vice versa.
Besides making more friends, I kinda got to know my relatives better, like Aunt Pauline, whom I rarely talk to, I got to know her much better thru the workshop by Pastor Kai Min. Which is kinda cool, cause I don't think I would ever get the chance to do that on a normal sunday.
During this camp, I made quite a lot of huge mistakes, and from that situation, I realized who my real friends really are, The ones that didn't give up on me and actually listen to me explain myself. Also, I realized that friends whom I thought I could trust, just turn their back on me. I felt so chagrin in them, cause they just turn their back on me and stayed away from me as if I had leper.
Sadly, during this camp, I haven't been able to hang out with much of my friends, Sorry!
Thank you Lord, for giving me so much experiences and encounters in these 4 days, and Thank you for showing me who my real friends are. Thank you so much Lord, and I'm sorry for the things that I've done wrong.
Labels: 9 hours after church camp.
12:38 AM
Sunday, June 07, 2009
I know this is super random, but there are 2 things you must know about me before you read this post. 1. I'm a person that is hard for anyone to change my perspective. 2. I rarely type this kind of stuff out, I find it too cheesy or too corny to be said, but there you go :
I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS.
never will I ever stop loving my friends.
what made me write this post?
I have this friend, his name is RICKY. And only today did I realize how much I love him. [as a friend] I think, he is my first guy friend from school I have ever loved, and I've only know him since sec 3. He really made me think twice when I say 'School Friends Never Last'. I really appreciate him for being in my life, and Thank you Lord, for having Ricky in my life. And the funny thing, it's that I can share anything and everything with him. Oh, and he's not the nerdy/stealthy/geeky/loser kind of person. He is the cool, joker, people person and someone people listen to with no hard feelings or what-so-ever. Sometimes I totally wonder, why does he bother talking to me and all when he has like other cooler friends in school, and I guess, he's just a really good and nice guy. Perhaps, he's my first Best Friend in school. Right now as I'm typing this post, I'm filled with zest to know how the rest of this year will be how it'll be next year, when he goes to Poly and I to Jc. I don't think I will ever forget you or what you've done for me.
Because of him, I realize the importance of friendship that I have always taken for granted.
Thank You Lord, for having place him in my life.
Labels: Ricky, the person who changed my perspective in friendship
1:59 AM
Friday, June 05, 2009
I CUT MY HAIR!!!
okay, it's bangs..
it kinda look weird on me, but oh well, i don't really care.
I JUST NEED A CHANGE.
1:51 AM
Thursday, June 04, 2009
from today, 04/06/09, onwards, I am gonna make my own decisions.
I will not let anyone to fucking tell me whether I should do this or that.
This is my life, and I will be responsible for it.
I will definitely not let anyone influence me, persuade me, or even threaten me.
[I swear, the idiot who would threaten me is out of their mind.]
Labels: a personal milestone
12:37 AM
Monday, June 01, 2009
CHINESE O'S IS OVER!!!
I am aiming for a B4 and once I get that, I do not want to retake it anymore.
In fact, as long as I can pass, I am not gonna retake it at all. So yeah, there you go.
I think I did quite alright for Paper 1, yes, all thanks for Kyle for teaching my the no wind no wave techniques. so, THANK YOU!
On the contrary, I felt that Paper 2 was quite a challenge, like the comprehension part was super wth.. It was all major inferring questions, like gee.. I can infer chinese characters..
Well, I'm just glad it's over, I have just gotta look forward for my Chinese Listening Comprehension, [which sucks] and my Oral. So yeah,
whee!
Labels: chinese o level paper
11:34 PM
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
I am going bonkers any time soon.
I have my chinese o level paper in like 5 days time and i'm not even prepared for it and here i am planning a birthday gift/surprised and a lg canoeing trip, like wtf?
And everyone is so bloody hard to please, one person don't want this, another person don't want that and i have to do all the changes like how am i supposed to juggle it all?
then Shaun ask me to plan a lg outing and give him the details by thursday which is impossible because the people in my lg takes like 1 bloody week just to reply me.
No one is giving me a hand at all and i'm supposed to handle it myself, i can't even get my life in control and everyone is telling me to do this and that, like what am i supposed to do?
I'm trying really hard to get it all together and like at least give an impression that i got it all together but it's so tough, it's so demanding and time consuming.
I'm really mentally breaking apart and physically breaking down.
fuck.
8:51 PM
Friday, May 22, 2009
i'm going crazy, seriously.
i'm gonna end up a stealthy, introvert person at the end of this year.
5:52 PM
Thursday, May 21, 2009
this is really random, but I love the number 17. it's not my favourite number, but it's an odd number and there's a magazine called Seventeen, therefore, one of the reasons why I love this number. this year I'm turning 17 at the end of the year, and I've made up a list about what I'm going to do before I officially turn 17 years old :)
Things I want to do before i turn 17.
1. Go overseas without any of my parents.
2. Pass my Chinese O levels. [B4 at least]
3. Pierce my belly.
4. Dance performance @ Danz People.
5. Pass each and every subject for O level. [must be at least B3]
6. Highlight my hair Pink.
7. Go back to COSI!
8. Cut my hair. done on 05/06/09
9. Decide which LG to join.
10. Be a responsible SGL. ;according to ANNE. [iloveyou]
11. Don't hold myself back for anything or anyone.
12. Clear all my debts.
13. Life Group Outing;with everyone there.
14. Having True Friends whom I can trust whole heartedly
15. Finish reading at least the New Testament.
16. Be on time, or don't go. [from 21/05/09 onwards]
17. Express my feelings to him, if i still have it.
Labels: things i want to do before i turn 17
3:51 PM
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
this week is common test week, argh!!!
had math paper today, feel lethargic the whole day after the paper, like my whole mood was destroyed. tomorrow I'm having Chemistry and Physics paper and my Chem teacher have like super high hopes for all of us, and I don't want to disappoint him.. sighs.. Good luck for me man..
12:04 AM
Monday, April 27, 2009
tomorrow's my first paper and the start of my exams.
tomorrow it's English paper and as usual, I want to get over it asap.
I guess right now after going thru this kind of scenario for 4 years, I don't really give much a damn to my English, Chinese and Math papers.
not that I have a super high self esteem or ego or anything else for the matter, I just want to quickly get over it, like asap!!!
I'm so bored of secondary school life, I can't wait to get into JC! :D
11:02 PM
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
ok, good news. my phone is found. [so if you didn't know, my phone was lost for like 3 days.] but I haven't gone to get it back yet.
bad news, this is gonna be my slogan. Loathing Money.
I swear, i hate money. and yes, i whole heartedly agree that Money is the bloody root to all evil. Stupid money. I bet the world would be a better place if we still have the butter trade system.
gosh! screw the guy who created/invented/suggested money. Thank God you're dead.argh!
After i've finally paid off my O level fees, a whole new string of bills comes flooding in. my dad's electricity bill, his taxi's bill, phone bill, class fees, etc. need i go more?
why must the world revolved around money?
if only Singapore is a 'free-world' country, i swear, i would be the first to start a protest or petition.
Labels: I HATE MONEY
9:49 PM
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
I AM SO PISSED OFF!
and with who? JAZLYN.
i don't even want to explain myself, but she's just so annoying!!! OHMYGOSH!!!
i hate her! seriously, who the hell just ditch someone and then avoid all phone calls and then just dont reply anything? IRRITATING PEOPLE!
argh!!!
11:16 PM
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
had dinner with my family last night at Dozo!! 7 course meal that cost each person $60++ it was superb! and a really good experience. Sadly, it's not somewhere i can go all the time, if not, i wouldn't mind at all. gosh, it was so so so good. Pictures will be up soon! :D
9:33 PM
Thursday, February 12, 2009
today's the 3rd day [straight in a row] of not going school.
I'm so sick.
this morning was really bad with all the sweating of cold sweat and my nose felt like dropping out and my cough was horrible.
but hopefully i'll be able to attend school tomorrow. it'll be like my personal record, going school twice a week! woots!
11:54 AM
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
this is gonna be a long post.
i was reading Job Chapter 18, 19 and 20 last night.
Chapter 18, Bildad : The Wicked Are Punished
from verse 4,
You who tear yourself in anger,
Shall the earth be forsaken for you?
Or shall the rock be removed from its place?
verse 5,
The light of the wicked indeed goes out,
And the flame of his fire does not shine.
verse 6,
The light is dark in his tent,
And his lamp beside him is put out.
verse 7,
The steps of his strength are shortened,
And his own counsel casts him down.
verse 8,
For he is cast into a net by his own feet,
And he walks into a snare.
verse 9,
The net takes him by the heel,
And a snare lays hold of him.
I found it interesting that this few verses would make such a huge encouragement to me.
This month, hasn't been a good one. It's only the 2nd month of the year and yet already so many things have been done that has caused me to be emotionally and spiritually hurt. And i've only shared it with Rachel, or rather, only Rachel knows the full story. And she's been really there for me. Thank you Lord for that.
I started reading those verses as words, like it made no sense, it just went in my ear and out the other end. Then i stop, and re-read it. I didn't know why, but i just did it.
And it started to make a lot of sense. That when Marcus said that the book of Job is there to comfort us [okay, not exact words,but yeah..] it's completely true. I can completely relate to verse 4 because of the constant msges that I received all the time. I am constantly filled with rage and anger when I finish reading it and I will feel completely lost and chagrin.
Like, why did God allow this to happen. It makes no sense. And Rachel told me that 'They are Disturbed, they are Empty, they have anger malice and no one is there to help them set it right. These are people God loves too.' I realize i have never thought of it that way before.
BUT, today, i received another msg. I made a short prayer that I will not be angered after reading that message. Which I didn't. And I thought of the verse that I read yesterday, 'The light of the wicked indeed goes out, And the flame of his fire does not shine.' and it comforts me so much to know that the wicked doesn't just walk out without without any punishment. [okay, i know, i'm a very revengeful person. you have no idea how many bad thoughts i had in my mind when i read those msges]
and 'The net takes him by the heel, And a snare lays hold of him.' yeah, this verse makes me feel so much better. :) I'm sorry, I can't help it, I feel satisfied that the person will get his punishment that is awaiting for him.
Thank you so much Rachel, for being here for me. :)
4:36 PM
Friday, February 06, 2009
IT'S FRIDAY!!!!!! TGIF!
i had chinese remedial today after school, can you believe it? Me clarice, going for chinese remedial. well, yeah, i did. and today was composition and we were supposed to write about 300 characters which obviously i didn't. but i think i did about 100-150 characters or maybe more! :)
went home right after that and went to pick up my stuff to swim!!! yeah, it was a really good weather and i sun tan after that though the sun wasn't fantastic. oh well.. but on the bright, there was a really good looking guy in the pool today! :P
went to macs to eat [alone :(] and saw debbie! haha, she cut her hair and look really different, she was really funny when she was showing the difference in her hair.
then took a train from tampines to pasir ris and meet up with ken, leon and jazlyn for dinner and catch up. though i didn't eat, just ken, leon and jazlyn. the catching up was nothing either. cause all they talked was about their trackers. oh well, it was a bit waste of time, but a really long day which i haven't enjoyed for a long time. :)
10:53 PM
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
had group 10 outing yesterday!!!
this time all of us could make it except for Lucas, AGAIN!!!! we were all so disappointed. sighs..
went to the Airport and had Popeye for lunch at terminal 3. it was quite a last min decision cause Chandini's leaving on the 16th of February and won't be able to join for any future Group 10 outing, hence, the lunch. :)
the whole lunch was quite interesting though it wasn't as fun as it was in the previous outing. after lunch, quite a few left, leaving behind, Amanda, Ashley, Clarissa, Chandini, Evan, Kelyn, Marco and i. So we took a sky train to terminal one cause Evan wanted and found that there was nothing there so we went to terminal two to eat ice-cream at swensons. So we had a 'tour' around the Airport which is quite amusing cause airport is like one of the place no one have tours.
Chandini and Clarissa shared an Apple Crumble, Amanda had a total Chocolate ice-cream [super sinful], Marco had a topless 5 [five different flavour ice-cream with no toppings] and i had a Cookie Summit. While, Evan, Ashley and Kelyn went off their seperate ways.
At the end of the day, i can't wait for another Group 10 outing, although it wouldn't be complete with Chandini all the way at Brisbane :(
I'm so gonna miss her like nuts.
12:47 AM
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
this is RANTING TIME!
i shan't name who i'm ranting about but if you know that i'm talking about you, well, CONGRATULATIONS!
firstly, i'm really hoping that i don't like you. i mean, you can be such as asshole at like most of the time!! you know when someone says that 'she feels like she has a hole in her heart or felt her heart drop' yeah, i finally know what it means, cause whenever you say something like 'i'm leaving now.' suddenly or whatever my heart really feels like there's a hole in it or like it dropped a few cm lower. and i feel super gross out that i am actually having this kind of feeling.
secondly, i can't understand you anymore. it seems like what we did before, we can never do it again. i mean, it feels like you're so uncomfortable with me and stuff and i don't understand why you feel that way. and my friend said that you're like a flirt or something cause you only do things when no one is around to judge you or something and i'm considering that maybe it's true. why are you like that?
thirdly, i will do my best to not talk to you and only say hi unless you start a conversation with me first, and if it doesn't happen, then yay! i know that you're really uncomfortable being my friend that you can't even talk to me face to face. you are a horrible friend, and right now, i think it's a mistake to talk to you and be your friend. Do you know if i'm talking about you now? :) cause if you do, GOOD FOR YOU!
7:35 PM
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Had small group outing yesterday!!! :)
yeah, according to Rachel the most successful group outing so far in the year and i totally agree to it! Everyone was there except sam png :(
we had dinner at new york new york and ALL of us were in a dress with exception of sam wong and jazlyn who were in a skirt. so yeah, at least they were in a skirt. Marco came later to join us but quite disappointing, cause he wore neither a skirt nor a dress :/ oh well, after that we walk a long distance to the toilet and went dress shopping at hula&co. saw a really nice dress, i think i'm gonna buy it later!!!
so that's what happened yesterday for our small group outing! :)
and for later, i'm gonna meet Shakila at White Sands to shop for a pink/purple dress for Grace's wedding held tomorrow. So yeah, these few days i feel extremely girlish!!
I CAN'T WAIT FOR 2009!!! Hopefully everything will be much more interesting as compared to this year! :)
I'm so gonna write down my New Year Resolution later with Shakila!
3:51 PM
Monday, December 22, 2008
TOFU AND CAMP LAH WAS FUN!!
haha, and yeah, it was a 80% fun and 20% Godly stuff. i think i really enjoyed myself in camp despite a total body ache and loosing my voice which now i am still trying hard to get it back! through this camp i really learnt to lean onto God for help and to make decisions. I guess being a group leader is really fun and new but very independent. i'm so glad that i got a chance to experience what it is like being a group leader. Also, i think my patience increased like a 100% lah!
oh, and I LOVE MY GROUP!
GROUP 10 ROCKS!!!!!
haha, i wouldn't trade my group for any other group man..
so yep, this camp helped me out a lot, physically, mentally, spiritually and with my patience too
9:22 PM
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
yay!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!
and i have high fever today.
of all days, today! best.
anyway, i wanna thank people now,
thank you,
Ken, Leon, Samantha Png, Jazlyn, Samantha Wong, Amanda, Shakila, Alicia, My brother[who came with me -.-] for celebrating and singing a birthday song for me!
Ken and Leon for being the informers and handing me the first part to my present.
Samantha Png, Jazlyn, Samantha Wong, Amanda, Shakila, Alicia for hiding in a cramp room to 'surprise' me.
Jazlyn, Samantha Wong, Amanda, Alicia, Shakila, Delane, Ken, Leon, Liang Zhi and Samuel Pang for baking the cake! [i still can't imagine all of you guys doing it together.]
All of the people i said, David, Rachel ong, Yiying, Kyle and Daniel Chia.
THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!! i love each and everyone of you.
i guess, my 16th birthday is the coolest and sickest one out of the rest. :S
11:10 PM
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
i miss Cambodia.
i miss COSI.
i miss Aley, Alen, Linna, Polleang, Bopha, Sasa, Ya, Bophan[gangster], Leak, So cheat, Pisey, Ren/Rain, Mark, Brann, Bun, Heng, Jack, Kinar and many more people whom i can't remember your names..
Thank you for making my time in COSI so enjoyable, fun, exciting and teary. I love you all and I can't wait to come back again!
things you will love in COSI:
-the weather; it's never hot.
-the sun set; you can never see it in Singapore.
-the stars; i actually saw more than 8 stars when i climbed up the water tank at night!
-the people! [no word can describe how they are, they are extremely nice]
things you will hate in COSI:
-LEAVING!
i cried when i was leaving COSI like about 1 small bottle of water can be filled. literally. it was the saddest thing to do. And some of the girls cried too. Everyday we would play Captains Ball at 4 o'clock and it would be a mixed group of guys and girls. Unlike Singapore, they don't play for scores but rather for fun. Where everyone would have fun and i swear, they are the friendliest people i have ever met.
the 7 days trip in COSI is the best thing that has ever happen to me.
i sat on a bullock cart.
i sat on a lorry.
i played Captain's ball for 2 hours almost everyday.
i climbed the water tank 4 times. [1 as a group, 2nd time at night with a guy, 3rd with Aley and all and 4th alone to take pictures.]
i sat in a 18 seater bus filled with 30 people.
i met the best people in the whole wide world and i miss them every second even right now.
and there are much more to say but if i were to describe my experience in one sentence,
I WILL NEVER TRADE MY 7 DAYS FOR ANYTHING ELSE IN THE WORLD.
NEVER.
11:06 PM
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
i made a huge mistake.
again. as usual.
Clarice must learn how to be ignorant to people. stop talking randomly to people you don't know. even if that person is super nice or super quiet or super lonely or whatever.
why?
because it always leads to bad endings. such as; strangers, acquaintance, or even just passer by.
and that is extremely bad.
solution?
just stick to the friends that i have. unless of course that person approach me first.
i hope i learn my lesson fast, or i'll suffer the consequences even more.
on a brighter note, i'll be away from Singapore for 7 days from tomorrow, so see you al on the 9th/10th December!!!
Love loads! from Cambodia :)
11:07 PM
Friday, November 28, 2008
i cut my hair today!!!!
haha, it's been an long time i last cut my hair, and i'm totally in love with my fringe. though my parents hate it which isn't surprising.
anyway, tomorrow's powerpoint!! and i'm totally looking forward to it, it's been a long time since the last powerpoint and tomorrow's sgl training, i don't know whether to be excited or nervous. Though i'm sort of looking forward to it. :)
oh yeah, today's my off day and man.. i feel so holiday mood, i guess it's hard to feel like i'm having a holiday when i work almost everyday, so yeah, i went down town in the late afternoon and had a Blizzard!!! [yum!] after that went down to Borders and saw Colleen, we were both quite shock to see each other, lol, talked for a while then i went to read a book.
so that was how i spent my off day, quite sad, but i did have a good dinner with my mum and awesome friends to keep me company through smsing! :D
11:57 PM
Sunday, November 16, 2008
oh gosh, i just realised i haven't touch the computer for like the longest time ever!!!!
haha, anyway, today's a sunday and i totally enjoyed myself. and the sermon today was quite cool i mean, yeah, she spent so much time on the NIV version and the NASB version just to say that one has an 'and' and the other has a ';' but still, it's a long time since a sermon like this.
i mean, these few weeks it's all about john wesley this, john wesley that, i mean, don't get me wrong or anything. i mean, i respect him and like kudos to him for actually being the founder of the Methodist but William Tyndale is so much cooler!
like, hello? he's the one that translated the Bible to English and if not for him, there wouldn't even be a John Wesley and like i have never heard his name in a single sermon until today!
so yeah, Thank you Lord for William Tyndale!
Update on work : Manager suck to the core, considering to quit. [considering the fact that everyone is telling me to quit after hearing how i'm being paid.]
9:15 PM
Sunday, November 02, 2008
i had 2 injections today!!! how cool is that?! i even got a cert!!
the last time i had 2 injections was like in primary 6! lol, it feels so long ago, but anyway, i feel so proud of myself for taking to jabs i mean, if i remembered correctly, i cried like nobody's business when i took the jabs in primary 6 so yeah,
however, my right arm has started to ache, i hope it'll be fine by tomorrow cause i'm working!! ARGH!!!
i'll either like drop a whole lot more watermelon juice or i'll break more glasses or i'll drop soup all over the place. sian..
but yeah, so gonna pray hard that both my arm won't ache tomorrow man..
and ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR O LEVEL SS PAPER!!!!
8:15 PM
Thursday, October 30, 2008
had caroling practice today and i've been looking forward for it since like they first 'advertised' it!
haha, though today was the first practice and it's been 3 years since the last caroling practice, singing the songs reminds me of what Dawn said 3 years ago about the pronunciation, pausing and girls solo/combine. it feels like deja vu!
just that this year there are like many many more guitarist and vivien is playing the guitar!!
jia you vivien!! you can do it! :D
working status : fun [talking to everyone except the senior waitress]
ready to blow my top off [thinking, seeing and talking about/to the senior waitress]
12:35 AM
Sunday, October 26, 2008
i need to scream!!!
i can't believe i actually confide in you all my secrets, well, most of my secrets, but whatthehell?!
you actually considered telling him about 'e' just cause i freaking suan him for like one time in the whole day?!
i mean, what the shit is wrong with you?!
just cause he didn't suan me means i can't suan him? oh, so i'm just suppose to wait for the day where he shoots and suan me like 5 times in a row then i'm allowed to suan him???
go ahead and tell him if you must, sides, i've already gotten over it and it won't affect me anymore. and you know what? your best friend can suan me as much as he wants and i won't be affected cause i know of a way to make him stop without even suanning him back.
6:24 PM
Thursday, October 23, 2008
on monday, 20/10/08,
michael came to jack's place!! okay, he didn't work he just came to visit for like 5 mins then he went off, lol, probably to see his girlfriend but anyway, it was so cool! cause it was like impromptu.
on tuesday, 21/10/08,
i was working 2 shifts and at night, jacko and her parents were dining at jack's place for dinner and they were all extremely shock to see me, lol, vice versa. after that, like 15 minutes later, i saw jonathon [the 19 years old] with his sis and mum entered jack's place to have dinner and celebrate his birthday! how cool is that?! 2 church people i see in one night!
on wednesday, 22/10/08, today,
i had only one shift, at night. and i saw daniel chia and his mum!!! i mean, i didn't see them at first cause i was clearing up the table and stuff, but it's so awesome! it totally made my night! and daniel chia's mum is sort of a regular customer there, i mean, this is my third time seeing her and she's so nice!!!! haha, this week totally rock!
and tomorrow, i have an off day!! which of course i'm gonna spend it with the others celebrating liang zhi's birthday! lol, i didn't expect this week to be so happening! =D
LORD, THANK YOU SO MUCH!
12:51 AM
Sunday, October 19, 2008
OHMIGOSH!!!
GORDON CAME TO CHURCH TODAY!!!! =D
I was like totally appalled and very happy to see him!
today was like an awesome day cause i got to see Gordon and Matthew and they are like not coming back next week. Gordon has to wait till he finishes his O levels and Matthew has to wait till he enters NS then he'll come to church continuously! can't wait for that day to come =D
ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR O LEVELS! TO ALL TAKING O LEVELS TOMORROW!
oh, though there was an extremely sad thing that happen today.
there's this friend, not too sure whether i can consider him as a friend or not, every time he gives me reason to detest him and hate him. i don't understand him and today, he judged me and stereo typed me as one of those people he thinks i try to be.
i mean, if he used to think that way when he was my age, than that's his problem. i mean, doesn't mean that he used to think that way, i have to right? it's no wonder why i avoid everyone one of the guys his age. cause none of them are ever nice.
after all, most guys are all insensitive, how can they ever be nice?
unless they are like jeryl yeo! lol, he's so darn nice.
9:43 PM
Saturday, October 18, 2008
today is the worst day of my working life. and i would swear if i could.
what happen?
i spilled two glass of watermelon juice on a customer!!
like whatthefuck?!
i seriously screwed up the whole night. like nobody's business and i looked and felt so guilty that my manager thought i looked tired and allowed me to leave at 9pm. lol.
it was a total shit ass day.
12:05 AM
Thursday, October 16, 2008
i had a horrible dream, well, it's a nightmare.
i dreamt that i couldn't make it for sec 5 and that i cried a bit and then resign to the fact that I'm going to ite. and that everyone else manage to get into sec 5 except for me.
Extremely shitty.
and then i woke up at 11:40, late for work. so yeah, REALLY EXTREMELY SHITTY!
well, during work today wasn't so bad, i made a few more friends or rather, for some, made better friends so yeah, it's pretty cool.
but back to square one. Wrist aching and feet in the midst of breaking.
oh, and i saw Daniel Chia mum today, haha, she was pretty surprised to see me. and looking forward to see Matthew!!!! and Kang wei. :)
11:47 PM
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Recently, the dark rings around my eyes are getting darker and i look like i've been deprived of sleep for days, lol.
i'm getting really tired these days and i hope with all my heart that i don't fall sick, cause that would be totally meaningless cause i earn the money, and i spend the money that i earn faster than i earn it!
anyway, yeah, the guy is gone. :/
today wasn't that bad but i hope tomorrow will be better. i totally need to learn how to read horrible handwritings man.. it's worse that the doctors!!
12:21 AM
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Michael, aka, the gentlemen guy, is not working anymore! he's last day was on the 11/10/08.
i did the most drastic thing ever in my entire life which i had no idea i managed to do it.
cry.
yeah, i shall make it clear first that i don't like him. but he's so nice to me and he's the nicest to me there, where i'm working. everyone there is so freaking hostile and 3/4 don't speak english!!!
so yeah, i'm really screwed. i guess that's why i cried so i never felt so lost in my entire life.
and today i went for the mission trip training, again i felt so alone. cause i'm going to cambodia with my family and to start of, i'm not very close with my family and amanda lai and daphne will be going and there will also be another family going, but it's like they are all in the same cell group, thus being close and i can't relate to amanda or daphne, i feel like some extra shit-ass person down there.
and i can't even drop out of the mission trip cause my mum says it's too late. whatthefrick.
9:02 PM
Thursday, October 09, 2008
today's my second day, and it felt like i've worked for two months already. the time pass by so so slowly and the workload seem to increase like nobody's business!!
tomorrow, day 3 of work, i'm gonna be working from 12-4 then 6-10. yeah, like what the heck?! it's only my third day! today i got screamed by the lady like a lot more times, even half the people in the kitchen looked over. and i think i looked like i was totally demoralized cause the guy and the other lady asked me if i was alright. lol, i had to say yes no matter what anyway.
oh well, tomorrow i have to do much better!!!
i hope my friend can join me and work so at least i can talk to some one else other than that guy and maybe i have lesser load of work to do :P
haha, it seems like every time i do those extra stuff, everyone else is seated eating or using the phone and stuff. seems quite shitty for me. oh well, i guess i gotta learn everything from the bottom. oh, and i'm crossing my fingers that the guy will come tomorrow and not have an off day cause it's the longest day and i really need someone to talk too!!! Lord, help me please!
clarice, you must not give up!!
10:16 PM
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
today was the first day i worked.
and here are the results.
-ankles literally feel like popping out.
-wrist ache a lot from the tray.
-right foot having a blister.
-dropped an garlic bread today. :/
-got nagged by a lady like three times for setting the cloth on the table too slow.
-got a huge helping hand by a guy who works there. [he's damn strong lah.. and he's like 2-3 years older than me?]
anyway, today i was supposed to work from 11-3, ended up working from 11-6 cause they were short of staff. i think today is like one of the super tiring days of my life. and the shoes i was wearing did not help at all. not one bit. i ended up having a blister!
the staff there were pretty nice. there were 5 waiters including me and excluding the managers. and everyone was so serious.. but after the lunch period, i got to know them much better, yeah, they weren't as snappy or hostile when they were busy. so during dinner time i had to set candles on the table and i couldn't carry the tray cause it was damn heavy, so this guy who was a part-timer like me, carried the whole tray for me!! and yeah, he's damn funny, strong and super gentlemen-like when you least expect it. yeah, when i was introduced to him, he was the only one that shook hands with me! the rest were like cannot be bothered or like just super relieved that there were help. yeah, in short, he's the nicest/most gentlemen guy i've ever seen. i mean, have you seen the guys in church?!
8:23 PM
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
whee!!!! N LEVELS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!! =D
haha, i'll try not to rub it in for those who are still having examinations, but, I HAVE NO MORE PAPERS!!! :P
heehee, anyway, i did my hair today, but i didn't bleach it, so the colour is like not very obvious but i did it anyway, and poa paper one was simple. yeah, i guess i could say it's simple cause i could do like majority of the questions! =D
and tomorrow i start work, i'm having major butterflies in my stomach and i'm hoping the people there are not hostile but very friendly. it's so scary, i don't know anyone!
i mean, in primary school, it's like the whole batch of people in the class don't know everyone but for this situation, everyone knows everyone except for me!!! i feel like i'm going to a foreign place. :(
oh well,
anyway, for those who are still having papers or yet to have their papers, ALL THE BEST! YOU CAN DO IT!!
and thank you jazlyn and barry for helping me with my poa, especially jazlyn for tolerating my nonsense :P and thank you sheldon and jacko for like sternly telling me to concentrate and study well for this paper. =] love!
9:26 PM
Monday, October 06, 2008
tomorrow's my poa paper!! =[
i'm like chioning on my theory for poa paper one.
today i met up with jazlyn at her house and she taught me amalgamation so yeah, thank jazlyn!
ooh, and something cool happen today!
i was sort of job-hunting for part time jobs today cause after tomorrow i'm free for like 2+ months. and i found a job! [like after a lot of rejections]
yep, so on wednesday i'll be starting to work at century square's jack's place! so cool lah..
oh, and the pay is like so much better than McDonald's pay. haha, it's not that fantastic but at least not cheap labour! lol.
10:44 PM
Thursday, October 02, 2008
tomorrow i'll be having two papers, math paper 2 and geography.
and i classify them as fucked up papers.
why? cause i've been doing math papers the whole day and it's filled with like a lot of questions that i cannot do, and if tomorrow's paper is similiar to the ones that i did today, i'll be swearing my merry way through the paper!
and for geog, it's classified as a fucked up paper because i don't have the freaking time to even study it!
so yay!
N levels : screwed the living hell out of you!
6:09 PM
Wednesday, October 01, 2008
i had my physics, chem and math paper on monday and it wasn't well done. i think it was like totally disappointed in myself.
Physics paper was totally tricky and i had rather high hopes for the paper. :(
Chemistry paper was rather surprisingly easier for me. Cause i was expecting to received a tough paper, oh well, i guess i was able to do the chemistry paper better than the physics paper.
Math paper was a disappointment as well for me, i guess cause i did a lot of practice and i was hoping to get high marks. there were some question that i couldn't do. gosh, i hope the moderation works man..
and tuesday i had poa lessons again!!!!
like what the hell.. i mean, i'm seriously considering if me chossing poa was a right choice, i mean, poa is like taking a lot of my time and on saturday, the day after my geog and math paper 2, i will be having poa lessons AGAIN!!!
9:42 PM
Sunday, September 28, 2008
tomorrow's my exam day.
i don't think i feel nervous now but tomorrow before i take my paper, i'll definitely feel the cold nervous feeling.
yeah, and i hate that feeling.
so, tomorrow is physics, chemistry and math.
i guess I'm prepared for math and chem.
i do hope i can like do well for science and math so MAYBE, i can take science, math and english as my best 3 subjects. so yeah,
tomorrow's it man.. i'll either die there or live through it.
and i'm hoping i live through it.
:)
8:57 PM
Saturday, September 27, 2008
something really bad happened today in church to me.
my ipod was gone when we went down for dinner.
yeah, gone. like *poof* gone.
it's so wrong to think that things in church can be stolen but yeah, so i totally don't intend on telling my parents, and i'll just save up my money and get another one.
so, to the person who took it, this is what i have to say to you.
"Have fun using my ipod and do returned it to me soon when you're done with it. If not, i really wish you would listen to the ipod at full blast and cross the road and perhaps get knocked down by a vehicle so badly that you have to undergo an operation which of course it would be successful [like d-uh!] and during the operation, i hope that you would enjoy the companion of my ipod which of course would be then considered as your ipod and the pain of the recovery. And after that, maybe cross the road again and this time, get knocked down by a car and die. So after all the pain, guilt suffering that you have to go through, i hope it's worth it. :)"
9:01 PM
Friday, September 26, 2008
today is a rainy day for me.
shall not go into details, but.
Samantha Phua, Marie and Bertrand [not my brother],
thank you. thank you so much.
10:39 PM
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
school ended for us Normal Academic Students on tuesday!! so yeah, being in Normal Academic has it's benefits.
so much for school ending, i had poa for two straight days since yesterday. so today i had to attend classes at 2pm just for poa again. and tomorrow i have poa lessons at 12pm. thus making it 3 straight days of poa lesson.
and you know what's the interesting part? poa is the freaking last paper!!
and her lessons are like 3-4 hours straight!
like whattheheck!! and i have papers on monday, physics, chemistry and math all in one day! and there is like no time to study for our other papers!
today, she sent us all a message to say that we have to do finish our 5 year series for tomorrow's class and this is the only reason to why i'm staying up doing work instead of enjoying my sleep!
i'm still wondering if i made the right choice last year when i chose poa as my elective subject over art.
11:28 PM
Monday, September 22, 2008
Okay, i didn't go to school today, and i woke up at 3 pm!!
i can't believe i slept for so long.
Anyway, this is the list of thing that should be done by the end of today.
- Clear Room. done! at 1600.
-Study 5 Chapters of Physics
- Finish Chemistry Paper. done!! at 1745
- Finish Doing Math Assessment Book. or at least half of it. done!!! at 2030!
3:07 PM
Sunday, September 21, 2008
YES!!!!!!
I'M NOT GOING TO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!!
YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M NOT BANNED FROM THE COMPUTER ANYMORE!! :D
this whole week has been a total downer.
besides being banned from computer and spending mondays and thursdays in school with no lessons at all, my period arrived this week and i stained my school skirt for the first time and it happened like twice through out the week and i have absolutely no idea how i manage to do that cause I'm usually careful.
anyway, i wrote a card to Jazlyn and Amanda a card that reads like this :
I, Clarice tan, solemnly swear that i will not lay my eyes on anything [books or whatever], boys [especially the cute japan boy] or Samantha's present until my 'N' levels are over.
yeah, quite cool right? so if ever i do any of the above they can remind me by showing me the card!!
P.S I AM NOT A PEDOPHILE!!
P.P.S EVEN IF I AM, WHICH I AM NOT, ONE YEAR YOUNGER DOESN'T COUNT! even if you're the youngest in that one year younger thingy. -.-
8:45 PM
Monday, September 15, 2008
i am not going school on mondays anymore!!
it's like a total waste of time anyway, it's like we don't have any proper lessons!
sides, i only have 1 more week of school till i stop going to school.
damn, i really hope i can go sec five. i'm like only focusing on math, geog and science.
sorry poa, perhaps next year?
oh, and this is a total understatement but, CHEMISTRY SUCK!
like after almost the whole year, i finally understand bromination, combustion, addition. and that's about it. how screw am i? i don't even know how to calculate Mr!!!!
wah!!!!!!!!!
5:25 PM
Friday, September 12, 2008
today is the first day i got scolded from my math teacher.
i mean, thru out the whole year, first time i got it!
ok, if i'm not wrong, first time in like my whole upper secondary school life i got scolded by a teacher. like a teaching teacher and not some discipline teacher that doesn't teach!!!
like what the shit?!
and yeah, by a math teacher. the teacher that gives me the freaks.
i mean, he's not dirty or whatever but he got too much feminine genes. ain't his fault but he so did not have to pull me out of the class with another guy to lecture me!!
ANYWAY,
a really sad thing happen to someone in class. :(
a sitting partner's boyfriend is in trial. and is probably going to jail.
i was totally appalled to hear that.
as in, he went to boys home. came out this year, and he got caught at his friends house with drugs.
i mean, he didn't consumed any drugs, it was at his friends place. and it was a really puzzling on how the CNB Officers would know. unless they were like being followed the whole time and didn't know.
but whatever it is, i don't know the whole story. and it's really scary to hear someone going to jail at my age!!!
i mean, it's like there is so much more to life than being stuck in a prison cell shared with other mates in there. but it's not his fault that he's like that,
i was told that his parents weren't exactly very good examples so yeah, sad.. and his friends weren't exactly the kind who scores full marks for their exams.
well, all the best to you man..
as long as you didn't take any drugs.
and though i have no idea how you look like, i'll pray for you.
8:22 PM
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
oh gosh, ever since school started i felt like i've crap.
i mean, i go school on time but i sleep in class like a pig!
except i don't snort or snore.
i just feel so damn lethargic.
7:40 PM
i think this one week holiday has been quite fruitful :)
i read a total of 5 books.
well, four belongs to a series book by James Patterson and Jazlyn is about to wring my neck if she hears me talk anything else about the book.
i finish reading the book which Jazlyn loan me. the little black dress, and yeah, i cannot agree more, it's an AWESOME book!
and i also watched the show which Jazlyn has been talking about the show called 'Chasing Liberty'
oh, and Jazlyn also helped me with giving up help on a certain someone and if feels like a total burden off my shoulder man..
LOL! i realise that my whole post is about Jazlyn, so creepy. so yeah, THANK YOU JAZLYN!! so if ever you need help with Los Angeles, i'll be here to help you out! [haha, not that you would ever need :P]
12:59 AM
Sunday, September 07, 2008
this post is to SAMANTHA PHUA AND KYLE.
you guys suck.
it's like you guys are forever in cahoots or something. i mean, everytime. EVERYTIME you guys would like take turns and shoot at me.
like whattheheck?!
and kyle, i am SO SURE you have no idea who he is and also, you might as well just type his name out there i mean, you made it look like anyone need 10 years to solve the ****!!!
ok, scrap that.
i rather not the name right out.
and yeah, samantha, thanks for everything man.. you make my life seem so much more interesting. -.-
after today, i realize when i'm around both or you or either one of you, i shall try my best to keep my mouth shut. if not, sure kena shoot 360 degrees.
i feel so sad. :(
12:53 AM
Thursday, September 04, 2008
i don't think i can get a 1 for english anymore... no confidence.
oh well, a 2 should be just fine.
Random thought of the day : Clarice feels like she has lesser friends as each day passes by. :(
11:52 PM
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
GOOD NEWS!!!!
ME AND CHINESE HAVE CUT OUR DIPLOMATIC TIES AT 0900!!! so yeah, i am foreign to chinese. i am not bilingual. :) proud of that.
BAD NEWS....
i won't be able to do well for ss anymore. the topic that i studied wasn't tested on while the topics that i didn't study, all tested! so yeah, a bit screwed.
ok, major understatement. EXTREMELY! screwed.
i guess the only way i can get back my 3 for humanities is to score full marks for Geography or get at least 40+ :(
sian..
and here i am having so many other problems while he, he has practically none.
life sucks so much with problems
9:06 PM
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
yeah! today's chinese day!
and after tomorrow's chinese listening comprehension, i'm SO over chinese!!!! =D
well, until next year, whichever it is, i hope i get a grade 4 or 3!!
i mean, as much as i don't score well, i'll be totally disappointed if i didn't get a 3 or a 4. anyways, tomorrow is social studies. so yeah, hope i really do well for it.
so far, this is what i'm hoping to get when i see my certificate.
English - 1
Chinese - 3/4
Mathematics - 3/4
Science - 2/3 [physics must score full marks man..]
Humanities - 3/4
Principles of Account - 4/5
so if things go nicely, i should be able to get to sec five. of course after tomorrow i expect my humanities expectation to drop like crap. so yeah, i'm so gonna cross my left fingers the whole time.
10:03 PM
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
this is totally random. when i went to elaine's blog and i saw my name there i was like HUH?! yeah, like totally wondering if she meant me. but yeah, whattheheck. i'll just do since i'm bored from studying! :D
1)The person who tagged you is:
Elaine.
2)Your relationship with her is:
Church friend!
3)Your 5 impression of her is:
extremely CUTE! sporty, very smart, laugh very easily and get freaked out by certain guys easily too
4)The most memorable thing she has done for you:
hearing my random ranting about people(s).
5)If she becomes your lover, you will:
freaked out. i'm not a lesbian neither do i think she is.
6)If she becomes your lover, things she will have to improve on will be:
erm, grow taller? :P
7)If she becomes your enemy, the reason would be:
i would have no idea, can't imagine it anyway.
8)The most desired thing you want to do for her now is:
ex-small group outing :D
9)Your overall impression of her is:
Cute!
10)How do you think people around you feel about you?
if it's kai juan, a bitch. however, if it's my friends, it should be un-vague and random.
11)The characteristics you love about yourself:
i love that i love english.
12)On the contrary,the characteristics you hate about yourself:
thinking too much and not having the discipline to sit down and study properly and vulgarities.
13)The most ideal person you want to be is:
hmm. idk? take a bit from everyone!
14)The people that care and like you, say something to them:
thank you
15)Pass this quiz on 5 people you wish to know to know more about you.
Amanda Teo
Jazlyn Seet
Samantha Wong
Samantha Phua
Sheldon Liew [sorry, i can't think of anyone else.]
Labels: Quiz
9:29 PM
Monday, August 25, 2008
i realize that nearer towards the date of my N levels, more and more things will pop up preventing me to study. sighs, i wish things would go smoothly.
8:17 PM
Sunday, August 17, 2008
today has got to be one of the most painful day in my life.
i mean, not that i was beaten up or anything. it was more of a natural disaster-pain.
cramps.
menstrual cramp.
it hurt the crap out of me. i mean, seriously. half way during the singing of benediction, it started to hurt and usually it goes off cause i don't really get cramps but this time it went on and on till i was practically asking everyone for panadol.
yeah, everyone.
even the guys. and i should totally have asked vivien cause she had panadol but no, i didnt get to see her cause she was the last one to come out. and getting the panadol from her was torturous cause she and yiying keep asking me to eat i mean, who the hell would think of eating before taking a panadol when their stomach ache like shit?! madness..
so yeah. yiyng practically forced me to eat despite having the panadol in my mouth and she made sure i didn't swallow the panadol -.- so when i finally had water, my whole mouth was filled with the bitter taste in my mouth!
so yeah, it's a painful day today.
[P.S to myself, i have 16 days left to N levels! woo-hooo! (not)]
7:16 PM
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
today has gotta be one of the days where I'm pms-ing the whole day.
in anyways, tomorrow I'm gonna have a settle-ment with people in my school. Apparently, they have the need to help a friend from my class so the whole gang of them are coming to settle a score with me.
usually, this kind of things are very common in my school. though this time, I'm really looking forward for it cause i am in no wrong here and I'm gonna be surprisingly calm and firm with my words that would hopefully show or tell them what a mistake it is to come in a whole group thinking i would be terrified just by the amount of people they bring and also how low class they are.
of course, vulgarities will not be used by me through out the 'conversation'. unless there is a need, fuck is all i will use.
i find them extremely ridiculous because there is only 19 days to N levels and yet they are bothered with things like this. On the contrary, it'll be entertaining for me to see how they react and i can also take this time to brush up my english for my compo.
i hope i don't sound like a snob to them
8:42 PM
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
i got back my results!!!!!!
well, not all of it, but i'm quite satisfied with the marks i've gotten so far.
starting off with a totally demoralizing tone,
i failed math.
got only 44/100. like super crap, i could have gotten 48/100 if they didnt minus it off due to careless mistakes. i mean, not like i could have pass or anything... but whattheheck man! at least 48/100 sounds so much better then 44/100. :(
on the contrary,
i top the whole level for english!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D
i passed chinese!!!!!!! yeah, C-H-I-N-E-S-E! i mean, it's like something totally unbelievable cause it's CHINESE!
next, i passed science!!!! yep!
Physics - 30/50
Chemistry - 26.5/50
ok, so those who suffered studying with me on sundays would really be wondering how the heck did i manage to pass physics. well, yeah. i did!!! which resulted in lack of sleep and concentration on my chemistry paper which is after my physics paper :P BUT, i still pass chemistry!!!
i still have my humans paper and poa paper to get back. i have a feeling i won't be enjoying much when i look through my poa paper. oh well, i pass chinese!!!!! :D
Labels: Prelim 2 results
9:24 PM
Thursday, July 31, 2008
LATEST UPDATE!
It's 11:45 and I'm awake studying for my science paper which is a few hours away and i already know the verdict.
I'm not gonna pass it.
Nothing is entering my brain right now.
I'm tired.
11:45 PM
today's paper went quite alright.
i think i'll be able to pass chinese for once!!! :D
and yeah, i'll be failing poa again. no surprise there.
and this is a decision i made in 2 seconds.
i am NEVER gonna talk/discuss with my father anything that has gotta do with school.
i find it disgusting to call him my father or dad when I'm piss at him cause i don't treat him like one.
I'm so weird and unfilial. but i don't really care about it right now.
i need to focus for tomorrow's paper!!!! :(
6:26 PM
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
i am feeling very pissed off and annoyed and angry at myself and anyone that ask me stupid questions like sending them songs when i'm in the midst of solving some fucking hard questions.
seriously, this prelim suck.
all the papers that i took so far is like fucking hard despite studying for it and now i'm like doing my freaking ten year series math and the questions in there are like i can't even do it.
how the fuck am i suppose to pass my prelim? let alone N levels. i'm gonna fail my prelims. i'm so gonna fail my N levels at this rate.
it's been 1 full year since i felt like giving up again.
FUCK THE PRELIMS!
8:26 PM
Monday, July 28, 2008
today's day 2 of prelims.
day 1 was on friday, the paper 1s.
anyway, today was geog and math 1. guess what? i flunked the math paper.
the most unlikely questions came out and every question that i didn't expect it to come out, i went like whatthe***k!
however, looking on the bright side, i should be able to pass geog with not much of a problem cause i actually studied for it! yeah, and for once, i didn't leave any blanks on my paper.
tomorrow's social studies and i just realize only today that there isn't any Chapter 4! NO Sri Lankans and NO tamil tigers!!!!!
ARGH!!!!
Now i'm stuck with crappy chapters of Deterrence and Diplomacy and Governance in Singapore!
i mean, how the heck can i study all these in one night?!
it's just nuts.
8:17 PM
Friday, July 25, 2008
why do time fly by so fast?
i mean, i can still remember the start of this year when i got into my class which was totally awkward and stuff and now the whole class is preparing for our prelims and N levels which is like on monday and in 39 days respectively.
oh, BATMAN IS AWESOME!
i thought the actor that played the joker did an awesome job though it's really sad that he has recently passed away.
and i realize that I'm not confident of a lot of things.
like, A LOT.
10:40 PM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
so...
i had my chinese oral already and yeah, guess what?
my invigilators were both female china teachers, which is bad.
the passage were filled with chinese characters that i couldn't recognize.
the conversation topic was like on showing care and concern onto other people.
so i did a really lame example about a friend birthday and she don't like chocolate cake while i like and i was suppose to buy it so i would think of her since it's her birthday and we should always think of other people first.
yeah, think about it, it's chinese. and the reason why it's chocolate cause i don't know any other flavor in chinese and birthday and cake is because it adds up to a celebration!
see how pathetic my chinese is?
6:19 PM
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
CHINESE ORAL IS TOMORROW!!! :S
cham liao..
ru guo ming tian bu shun li, wo jiu si ding.
translation : if tomorrow don't go well, i'm dead.
yeah! i managed a sentence!
8:30 PM
Saturday, July 12, 2008
this is the 12th day of the fast and i'm not doing really well.
during the R.A.W Camp, fasting one meal was like easy.
but doing it on a school day felt like crap!
so,
within one week, i've changed my fast like tons of time.
here's the latest one:
- Breakfast
- Meat
oh, and fasting sarcasm is really hard, and so is beating people and scolding. sighs, gotta buck up!!
oh, and 4 MORE DAYS TO N LEVEL CHINESE ORAL!!! :(
11:17 PM
Monday, June 30, 2008
Tomorrow's the 40-Day Prayer and Fast!!! really looking forward to it cause usually i only last the first and last week. So yeah, hope I have the determination and self-control to carry it out and not fall into temptation. So, here's what i'll be fasting :
- 1 Meal Fast
- Sarcasm
- Hitting/Scolding [either or!]
- Unpleasant words
- Swearing in the Mind
- I'll try the Beverage Fast. =D
and i'll have a feeling that my friends will think that I'm weird praying in school with a Bible or they think i'm on a diet and persuade me to eat. die man..
10:18 PM
Sunday, June 29, 2008
after reading Mark, i learnt one thing that i can't learn it on my own. Having such faith that his disciples had when he first approached them. Just asking them to follow with no explanation or persuasion from Jesus, they just followed him obediently. I guess it's something i can't do that easily and i would definitely pray about it. :)
10:09 PM
today's CAMP ECHO!!! =D
had tons of fun today. it's like i finally get a chance to really talk to people who was in the same group with me like laura, debbie, elizabeth, russell and especially kenzi cause i hardly get the chance to see him/her/them! well, i thought that today was really great! first time they had a post camp and getting back and talking to the group that i have been for 5 days, it's brings back good memories!! gosh, if only there was another one after the 40 days fast, it would be SO COOL!
8:36 PM
Saturday, June 28, 2008
today's my cousin's wedding. well, my mum's side. and it's the first non-christian wedding that i've ever attend. In the morning, the first 'event' was torturing the groom and getting money from him after that it was tea ceremony. Similar to the morning part of the christian wedding that i've been too. But it's kinda sad, i mean, there's nothing in the afternoon. Like the coolest part of weddings are not there. It's just dinner and morning tea ceremony. Kinda boring.
Labels: non-christian wedding
8:19 PM
Sunday, June 22, 2008
71 more days to N level.
yes, i shall start the post by demoralizing myself. i thought i had like a hundred days left or something, till i remembered that my papers starts on September and that i have very little time to study. it was a huge realization especially since i haven't been studying at all this year. However, looking on the bright side, i have no time for any shifting of focus or anytime to divert my attention and time on any unnecessary stuff. So, Sam wong, tomato is ALL yours. :)
Labels: days to N level
7:57 PM
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Mark Chapter 8
Mark 8 : 11 really reminds me of like what i am like, always waiting for a sign to appear before believing, so it's like i always thought that a sign would appear and stuff, but looks like there won't be a sign and that i would have to just depend it on my faith in God. :)
11:24 PM
Mark Chapter 7
In Mark 7 : 10, i was like so freaked out after reading that verse. i mean like, if you read the verse, it's not surprising to why i would feel so darn freaked out. cause i ever have cursed-thoughts in my mind on like my parents and after reading this verse, damn. i would never dare to do that.
11:10 PM
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Mark 6
I had NO idea that John the Baptist was beheaded. i mean, the only thing i heard about him is that he baptized Jesus and that Jesus and him are cousins. yeah, that's like all i know about john. so i think the way his life ended was damn sad. i mean, just cause the girl wants it, the king just give it. i think the kind also have like NO BRAINS!
10:58 PM
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Mark Chapter 5
I think that reading Mark is really interesting. Although it's very brief, but it's so cool to know that even the unclean spirits listens to Jesus and begs to be sent into pigs. However, there's one thing i don't understand, why did God allow the demons/ unclean spirits to be sent into the pigs? it puzzles me.
11:43 PM
Mark Chapter 4
the first thing when i saw the title reminded me of Joel and his rap.
i thought that it was really cool how Jesus could use seeds to illustrate how people are. for instance, someone could now start a "What Seed are You?" Quiz to see what kind of seeds we are.
And i hope that in time to come, i be like the seeds that grow on good ground; hearing the word of God and just accept it and bear the fruit instead of the seeds that were choked.
I went to Church today, and i think it was the funn-est so far for this year; going to the youth lounge for no specific reasons. Well, there is always a reason to go there but once i step in, i don't seem to be doing what i was suppose to be doing. like half the time i was suppose to study but i always end up playing games. and today, it was captains ball. How cool is that? i hope tomorrow i can stick to what i plan on doing.
12:15 AM
Monday, June 16, 2008
Mark Chapter 3
I couldn't understand the story on 'A House Divided Cannot Stand' [verse 20-27] I guess it's too confusing.. however, the one that i think i could relate most is 'Jesus' Mother and Brothers Send for Him' [verse 31-35]. I guess cause it's really comforting to know that we are brothers and sisters as long as we do the will of God. I mean, it's not like i don't know or something but a reminder like this is nice.
10:30 PM
Sunday, June 15, 2008
R.A.W CAMP WAS DIFFERENT.
i was placed in a group with little people that i know and i made a lot of friends at the end of the camp, and it's the first camp in which the whole group actually bonded together and encourage each other.
i guess this is by far, the first camp that actually made me interested in reading the Bible continuously, like it was a very interesting story book.
and i love my group PATIENCE! they were like so nice to be with especially when we started to get noisy and stuff, it was really fun especially laura! she's like the quietest and by the 3rd day, she was talking really loudly and openly, and in the previous camp when i was in the same group as her, she just kept quiet! i hope that our group will really be close like in camp on a normal sunday..
the camp ROCKS!
Labels: R.A.W Camp
8:25 PM
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
I WANT THE OLD SHAKILA BACK.
NOT THE ONE WHO ENJOYS BEING FLIRT WITH ANDREW.
the two of you make me SICK.
if the two of you continue being like that in camp, don't blame me on what i'm gonna say or do.
the two of you deserved it.
and honestly, i really miss the old shakila when she wasn't so act cute or love being flirt by a guy.
12:19 AM
Saturday, June 07, 2008
had small group outing today.
well, partial small group outing; samantha png, rachel, jazlyn and me.
we watched NARNIA!!! :D
and then, i lost my wallet. which i realize only when i was about to take my wallet out to see how much money so sam accompany me back to the cinema to check if my wallet is still there.
and it was! THANK GOD!
so, we returned to the clothes shop and we each bout a top at $7.50! how cool is that? and we are all gonna wear it tomorrow!
yeah!
Labels: small group outing.
8:30 PM
Monday, June 02, 2008
my mum bought me a thumb drive!!!! how cool is that?!
best part, it's 2 GB!!!!
ohmigosh, this is great!
and it's the holidays now, kinda bored when i got nothing to do..
so, i'm back to writing the story! :D
everyone tells me i'm suppose to be studying, but whattheheck, i'm giving myself a one week break!
well, although one week has been long overdue. but there is one thing that i'm learning! which is, WORDS!!! [ta-daa!!!!]
yep, learning loads of new words, and i hope i use it correctly! :P it'll be so embarrassing if i use it wrongly!
LOL!
8:09 PM
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
i just realize that bread cost $2.15. i mean, it's such a rip-off to charge bread so expensive! it's like a staple food, wait, it is a staple food. like, what the heck man.. and i wouldn't know if my dad didn't ask me to buy it
9:32 PM
Friday, May 23, 2008
YAY!! i can go for camp with no interference with school during the holidays :D it's like most of my school days are in may and in june it's only the 16th and 18th-19th!
how cool is that? it's like just nice..
oh, and i passed chinese!! :D the best thing that happened, i pass chinese!
3:39 PM
Monday, May 19, 2008
ohmigosh, i am feeling so bloody fucked up! it;s been a damn long time since i've felt like that
whatthefuck man..
and the thing that is bothering me now is the youth camp.
my mum paid for the camp and i have no idea whether i want to go now!!!!!
and why?
cause i'm not having any role in it, so i see no point in going for it anymore i mean like, whattheheck.
like really no point in going already so like i have no idea how to say 'i dont want to go for camp anymore'
and jazlyn is like telling me to keep thinking about it and telling me i should go, but i know i'll like just fucking stone in church cause she's a assistant group leader and sam wont be there half the time and like shakila will be talking to her other friends and i can't tell delane cause it's would be equivalent to talking to a wall and amanda, i dont even know whether she's going.
so like, that's what my friends are like.
i need a life and i need more friends who are more steady.
FUCK!
10:10 PM
Thursday, May 15, 2008
sick. sick. sick.
high fever 39.3 degrees. almost died.
flu. sinus. nose almost came out.
sore throat. couldn't talk.
4:54 PM
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
no one talks to me.
or rather,
those that i want to talk to are never around.
those that i dont, always talks to me which is very irritating.
ARGH!!!!
life is so confusing.
shit man.
and the best thing that rounds it off,
SAMANTHA WONG,
from today, 14/05/08 8:30PM. i have no idea who she is.
8:29 PM
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
how can you be such a humongous bitch and yet all the guys still like you?
it really makes no sense.
you are such a bitch and act so differently in front of guys and girls and that would be equal to a HYPOCRITE.
you would know it's you when you've read it.
7:12 PM
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Bertrand Tan Chang Hui.
I HATE YOU. YOU CAN GO AND DIE AND I DONT CARE. YOU CAN GET CHOKE ON YOUR DAMN FOOD AND I'LL SHED A FEW CROCODILE TEARS AND SAY 'HA-HA SERVE YOU RIGHT' I sincerely hate you. you give me your fucking attitude like you're the boss, from now onwards, I WILL RETURN YOU THE FUCKING ATTITUDE THAT YOU GAVE ME.
8:05 PM
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
I MUST PASS MATH.
NO MORE CARELESS MISTAKES IS ALLOWED FOR THE PAPER.
IF I DONT PASS PAPER TWO, I'M SCREWED.
NOT ONLY AM I SCREWED, I DONT NEED TO TALK TO MY FRIEND, NELIA FOR A MONTH.
AND FOR EVERY SUBJECT I FAIL, SAMANTHA WONG WILL SLAP ME ON THE FACE. SO FAR I THINK I'VE FAILED 2-3 PAPERS ALREADY.
SAMANTHA, GET READY TO SLAP ME.
THIS IS A DECLARATION.
12:01 AM
Friday, May 02, 2008
I can't believe I am awake at this deadly hour of the day.
and guess what I'm doing! GEOGRAPHY NOTES.
total whatthehell man.. I can't believe, I, Clarice Tan Jia Ying, is actually doing notes for geography and staying up just to do it.
I better pass my geog man, if not the next prelim I'm having, i aint gonna go through all the trouble to write notes again. Goodnight.
Labels: turning into a geek.
3:02 AM
Saturday, April 26, 2008
i am so pissed. i wish my dad can just go and die and leave me alone. whatthehell man, my room is messy it's my own fucking problem right? what the hell does it gotta do with you? it's not like you're sleeping in my room right? don't like then don't see lah.. idiot.asshole. i don't wish to see you in the same house when i have my own house. let's just see who will take care of you when you grow old. damn you, bertrand wont take care of you and neither will i. you're like such an ass. this is the first time i'm so bloody piss with you and i don't i will ever get this over. NEVER will i forgive you for what you make me do. bloody arsehole. I H A T E Y O U. you can make me do whatever you want me to do, make me suffer now cause i'm still under your fucking guidance. just you wait, when i'm older, you have no rights over me and then you will see how you will suffer.
10:17 PM
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
I'm crying really badly now. i can't stand it.
why must people leave one by one?especially friends?
i can't stand it.
why must you guys leave me one by one and migrate overseas?as much as i dont tell you all, you guys really meant a lot to me. close friends or not. each and everyone of you. i dont understand, why must you all leave and migrate? i love you all. everyone of you. dont migrate if you have a choice please! i really love you guys too much to not be able to see you every sunday, too much to not be able to call you and talk. too much to not be close to you guys. please if you haev a choice, dont leave. i'm begging you.. if you read this, dont migrate please. just dont.
i'm begging you.Labels: please dont leave
10:13 PM
Didn't go school today. woke up and pulled my right leg muscle which hurts madly, tried to stand up which was fine but hurt like crap and then when to bath. after bathing and changing, i walked to my mum's room which is like just a few metres and the pain to my leg was unbearable so i just flopped onto my mum's bed and call my dad that my leg hurts like crap. and i slept all the way to 12.40pm. which is bad cause i missed all my clases.. sighs.
1:06 PM
Sunday, April 20, 2008
HE IS HOT!
10:30 PM
Saturday, April 19, 2008
this week flew by really fast.
i just realise that i havent study or learnt anything new this week.
which sucks cause exam starts in a week and i havent prepare myself.
i havent talked ot much people this week.
it's mostly hi-bye.
even in school.
i'm such a loner and turning introvert.
no one wants to talk to me :[
maybe one day i'll forget how to talk! that would be so cool!
CLARICE FINALLY WILL FORGET HOW TO TALK ONE DAY!
so to people who find me irritating, you can wait for this day to happen!
it may come soon
Labels: suck
9:17 PM
Monday, April 14, 2008
THE STRESS POEM. - Done by Clarice tan.
today's been a long day.
had poa lesson for the last period, everything was hay-wired.
followed by math mock exam paper 2, met a cool relief teacher, he's christian by the way and he's good in poa, well, he took it for 3 years in secondary school and 2 years in poly, how cool is that?
after that, i stayed back with some of my friends to study and asked them to teach my poa,
brain practically died on the way home,
even with my dead brain,
i still got work to do,
friends asking me how to do when i havent even started.
so screwed.
reach home,
can't even have a proper dinner alone.
brother had to ask me about equations.
which i didnt mind cause equations are fun,
however,
my bro ask me and couldnt be bothered to do.
it was so sickening.
perhaps someone can tell me how tiring a day is and how screwed up i am?
and here's the coolest thing that is happening to me! i love english.i enjoy doing chinese comprehension.i like solving mathematics questions especially angles and equations.i look forward for every physics lesson to learn more stuff.i take down notes and ask the teacher for clarification during humanities.how much of a study geek am i? 100%and my brother has been asking me this question.
"Are you sure you're my sister?" I'm asking the same question myself too.
8:36 PM
Friday, April 11, 2008
Ohimgosh, ifeelsoguilty! like i was queueing minding my own buisness and people kept stuffing money in my hand and asking me to buy from them and like there were quite a lot of people behind me and the hot guy was also behing me and i was so irritated with the person in front of me cause she bought like 7 plates for her friends and he didnt even queue up! so it was so fustrating to be in the position i am in! like GOSH! why do i always end up in difficult position?and up till now, hours after it happened, i still feel SUPER GUILTY!
9:35 PM
Saturday, April 05, 2008
fought in class today,
not physicallly though.
Sadly, the teacher came so like a bit sian can't really say what i wanted to say so it seemed like a total childish talk.. gosh, that girl is a bitch. honestly. a bitch. like wth, she is FAT. LIKE TOTAL FAT ASS. and she walks around in school like a total bimbo and stuff, especially when she goes around telling people that she was compliment being pretty like
PLEASE LAH, LOOK AT THE MIRROR CAN..
wah lao.. i seriously can't believe that this world such a person like her exsist.. screwed up shit man..
11:08 PM
"Friend's come and go."
Damn right it is.
but, for my case, it goes more then it comes.
First, Justin Yeo. Second, Benjamin. Third, Edmond. Fourth, Eugene Woo. and guess who my friends go to?
MY OTHER FRIENDS!
now, tell me. how cool is that? and if you realise they are all guys. i guess i suck at making guy friends or rather, guy friends that last being your friend.
so from now onwards, i wont talk to guys unless i see the need too, or i wont make guy friends in case of having a guy friend end up like the above.
Just the right time, when life is all screwed up, it's gets a whole lot better!
gosh.
10:57 PM
Thursday, April 03, 2008
oh gosh.
my results are so screwed..
all my subjects are dropping prelim one is in like 2 weeks and i'm the least prepared to sit for it.
everyone in class seem to be improving and doing better and i'm still where i am last year.
this is bad.the pressure is heating up and i want to do my best but things just can't get into my brain.
Someone please seat with me and make sure i study..
help!
4:24 PM
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
Happy April Fool's Day! ;D
haha, today's the 'funnest' day of the year so far, i tricked a total of 4 teachers,
10 guys and 9 girls,though i had about 2-3 failures in tricking people, oh well, the fun was still there! Sadly, april fools day last only for one day.. oh well.. i guess that's the fun in it! and the best part of all, i had detention.
DETENTION!!
on april fool's day, how sad man..
after that i had fun witnessing a prank in action! it was so cool, i kept laughing non-stop! haha.. and i got
FOOLED = 1 X [by the least unexpected!]
well, sheldon tried to fool me but it was unsuccessful! :D heehee..
Labels: april fools day
8:14 PM
Monday, March 24, 2008
I went to Popular to buy a pen and a pencil today. i think it's cool to actually buy something from there instead of like just trying the pens out and stuff. Anyway, i bought a pen and a pencil. the pen cost one dollar which was reasonable, and i saw this pencil, it looks sleek and cool and makes you feel somewhat matured when you use it, those kinds. yeah, guess what? it's cost $2.70!!! i have never in my life came across such an expensive pencil lah. okay, i'm either really deprived from stationery shops or the additional 7% gst actually makes a pencil cost so much. In the end, i bought it, cause it looked so cool and i was considering between the purple one and the black one, the purple one looks gay after a while so i bought the black one. And i'm definately not buying anymore pen or pencil for a while.
7:37 PM
Friday, March 07, 2008
i need gaucho pants!!!! looks like singapore doesnt have everything. they do not own gaucho pants!! like that how to go for practice man.. if you know any place that sells, do tell me!
11:09 PM
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
'i will always be here for you.i love you.thanks, i owe you.love you loads.' =
BULLSHIT! especially if it comes from you.
9:53 PM
Friday, February 29, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SILI!
so cool man, you're birthday is like on the leap years so you're only FOUR YEARS OLD! hmm, you must have took your psle at the age of 3 years old. wah, not bad eh, you're so smart:D
today's the 29th february and it's the coolest day of the year is cause on the 29th february, the irish traditions goes that when a girl requests something from a guy, the guy cannot reject! oh well, sadly singapore dont have this tradition.. anyway, we can still follow the irish tradition! so go girls! ask the guy for requests! :P
6:09 PM
Sunday, February 24, 2008
FUSION! it was the
COOLEST and most
AWESOME event that happened this year! though we had loads of practice till quite late, it wasn't futile and our efforts really paid off! i really enjoyed the event and getting to know peeps from wesley! they are like so high and funny it's really fun to be with them as it is fun to be with pmc peeps! :D pictures will come later.
BREAK FREEWould you believe me Would you listen if i told you thatthere is a love that makes a wayAnd never holds you backSo wont you break free Wont you break freeGet up and dance in his love [x2]Who would have thought that God would give His one and only SonTaking a stand upon the crossTo show us perfect loveSo wont you break free Wont you break free Get up and dance in his love[x2]Love never endingThere's no escaping the truth No mistaking it's YouGod forever we'll get up and danceThere's no escaping Your lightNo mistaking Your lifeAcross the world we will get up and danceGet up and dance and praise you Now is the time to takeThe freedom that has come our wayOffer our lives to seeThe glory of Your NameSo wont you break free Wont you break free Get up and dance in his love[x2]Love never ending There's no escaping the truthNo mistaking it's YouGod forever we'll get up and dance and praise youThere's no escaping your lightNo mistaking your lifeAcross the world we will get up and danceGet up and dance and praise youAll for all our daysWe are holding on holding onTo all your waysWe are holding on holding on To all you've said and you've done We are holding on to Y0ur loveNow we will danceSo wont you break freeWont you break free get up and danceWont you break free [x4]Love never endingThere's no escaping your truthNo mistaking it's youGod forever we'll get up and dance Get up and dance and praise youThere's no excaping Your lightNo mistaking your lifeAcross the world we will get up and danceGet up and dance and praise you
5:34 PM
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Ok, i give up now. If you dont want to go and study and wish to go to ite, go ahead, i dont care or give a damn anymore, just dont make so much noise in class that the teacher can't even teach. thanks.
SOCIAL STUDIES COMMON TEST TOMORROW!!! THE LAST PAPER!! WOO-HOO! :D
Usually, the last paper is the toughest paper, oh well, shall chiong now and score well! cause i screwed up my geog paper and like pulled my total marks down if i dont score high for social studies! :D ok, wish me good luck!
11:25 PM
Monday, February 18, 2008
shit. this is common test week. feel so damn lethargic. and i'm like getting more and more homework everyday. man, this is so different from sec three. i miss my sec three class and all my sec three clasmates. i think that was the best year of my secondary school life. :(
and to my platonic friend ricky and good friend bryan,
PLEASE, do not go ite. not that i have any grudges against ite.BUT. you have the freaking potential to go SECONDARY 5 and you dont want to go, like whattheheck. and like one of the reasons why my sec three life was so awesome is cause i met you guys and you guys literally brought colours into my life. Although we are in the same class now, it's TOTALLY DIFFERENT. like we have distant away quite a bit and you guys made a few new and closer friend, i really dont want you guys to go ite. i want you guys back for sec five. you guys should go poly where you can do much better stuff. it's not worth you guys going to ite. i might be wasting my time writing all these stuff here, but i really hope you come back for sec five and we can be in the same class again like last year and this year. i dont want to loose such a great friend like you. i really dont.
9:33 PM
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!
Have awesome results this year[for students] and an awesome ratty year ahead![for like everyone else]
gosh, chinese new year house to house visiting is SO TIRING!
but,
collecting ang pao isn't! like d-uh!
haha..
i'm so lonely, when i'm not visiting, no one is online or like free to talk.
and the love ones i want to talk are either forever not online or only for like 10 seconds.
and i message them like chinese new year greetings, like only one reply.
like whattheheck man.
i'm NOT gonna message them anymore!hmph!
oh,
and congratulate me.
I haven't sweared since chinese new year started! :D
9:10 PM
Sunday, February 03, 2008
i think it's time to let go.
i mean after reading his display name, i feel totally demoralized.
seriously.
it's just unexplainable.
i guess for this situation, i can only be moralized if nothing happened and everything stays the same or something really nice happen to me.
ahh!!
i don't know.
and the point is, i feel super demoralized and i dont have a single clue on what to do or what not to do.
actually,
i do know what to do.
NOTHING!
Labels: letting go.
8:25 PM
Saturday, January 19, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BELL!
i'm sick today.
down with flu and sore throat.
still thinking of him and wondering why i'm so stupid to do that.
can't seem to get him out of my mind no matter how hard i try.
i really wish i could turn back time.
i'll pretend he didn't happen.
i'm stressed.
i'm scared of N levels.
1:13 PM
Friday, January 18, 2008
i sweared 5 times and i felt guilty twice.
that's just the ratio.
Parent's-Teacher Conference happened today.
while waiting the whole afternoon for it to happen, i think i irritated someone really badly.
someone i shouldn't have.
he is really important to me.
i feel so stupid.
it took me a long time to be friends with him,
and 2hrs to make a bad impression.
now, i think i lost him.
but i really liked him.
someone, just knock some sense into me.
11:41 PM
Sunday, January 13, 2008
it's been a long time since i blog. i think i'm gonna continue blogging a lot. i still can;t believe that i'm sec four this year and i'm taking my N level's this year. it's so scary. sighs.. i'm suppose to be studying already. but i guess i just cannot bring myself to believe that i'm taking N levels.. sighs.. all of my loved ones look so un-stress so fine and fun and i'm here thinking so much everyday that i think more then i do. damn, i need my ten year series! so i can start doing assessment. it's so boring now a days, i don't even know who you guys can like read this. well, now that to many my blog is dead, i can start crapping here and bitch all i want. oh yeah,
NICHOLAS! I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU TODAY! YOU FINALLY MADE YOUR STAND.YOU STOOD UP FOR YOURSELF! ALTHOUGHT IT AIN'T THE RIGHT PLACE TO DO IT CAUSE THERE WERE A LOT OF PEOPLE, BUT I THINK SHE DESERVES IT. SHE HAS BEEN STEPPING OVER YOUR HEAD FOR SO LONG. HOPE YOU READ THIS. KEEP ON STANDING UP FOR YOUR OWN RIGHT! :) that'll be all for now! will be keeping you updated on the recent things that will be occuring in my school which totally suck. seriously, when i say my school suck and when i say it really often, it means that my school is way undescribably. not that i want to 'boast' or be proud that my school suck cause i don't think that having a school that suck is something to be proud of. ta-ta.
11:20 PM
Sunday, December 02, 2007
sick. of all days i'm like sick on a sunday! and all the sickness came from tofu. WOW! wonderful tofu. damn.. i just hope that i didnt miss anything much today.. sighness..
5:11 PM
Friday, October 19, 2007
this is an update on how freaking screwed i am.
i failed all except english for my end of years.
there are aproximately 41 people in normal acade who is in the retained list.
mdm leong [form teacher] says that i should be able to get into sec four which i really don't see how unless they help me moderate my marks, which is highly impossible cause i've like asked the teacher.
mdm tan [chinese teacher] says that she will help me get like 2 more marks from my holiday assignment and stuff.. but i know she wont cause she never remembers stuff and i dont think she will do it.
miss liza [math teacher] i dont know if she will help me.. i mean, she's nice and all but i failed her subject by 10 marks! that's the lowest score man..
My Scores
English 58/100
Chinese 48/100 [2 MORE MARKS TO PASS!!]
Math 40/100
Science -Physics 52/100
-Chemistry 42/100
Total for comb science : 47/100 [3 MORE MARKS TO PASS!!]
Social Studies 42/100
Principles of Accounts 44.8/100 [5 MORE MARKS TO PASS!!]
AT THIS RATE, I DON'T THINK I HAVE A CHOICE OF CHOOSING WHETHER I WANT TO RETAIN OR NOT.
3:18 PM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
damn. i don't want to retain.
why do schools have to do all these retaining and stuff?! why?!
seriously, loads of students will be darn happy without the promotion and moderation thingy.. so darn irritating! i swear, the goverment is screw loose!
9:23 PM
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
it's a long time since i last post.. darn.. i've got exams in like 1 day time and i'm like freaking out cause i've got so much to revise.. and i'm like not confident in any of my subjects cause after being in this school for 2 darn years.. i realise that the mid-years and common tests are like nothing compared to end of years.. gosh.. and i didnt exactly do very well for my mid-years.. so i'm literally screwed. or in other words, i'm in a bad state. oh, did i mention that i screwed up my english paper one.. and i still dunno how i manage to screw that up.. but yeah.. i just did.. oh wells. well, one good thing is that i'm having social studies instead of geography for end of years examinations.. argh! anyway, i'm back to mugging more.. i'll probably update one mroe time later when i'm burning my midnight oil. good luck for your papers!
6:21 PM
Friday, September 21, 2007
oh, and i just realise one more thing. i have no one that i feel damn bloody comfortable telling him/her everything. NO ONE. gosh.. that makes my life even more screwed up.
10:32 PM
i hate you guys. i swear i do. i dont really love you guys though i just say it. you are FOREVER not confirm or cannot. and you would always give this damn bloody irritating whiny tone that it's not your fault cause it's your parents that dont allow. the hell i care! and you would rather go watch tv, have your beauty sleep then hang out with your friends or whatever, you are such a loser. i swear. you are. you only know how to talk. say you will make your stand during the meetings and stuff. but you didnt even do like 1% of what you are gonna say. you only know how to talk and it's damn stupid. i dont even know why i hang out with you. you take your damn time walking and deciding things which is damn irritating. you think the whole world can wait for you issit? sorry, but let me tell you something. the time do not wait for you. you loser! you are like freaking blur and dramatic and so fucked up and you are forever saying, 'I HAVE W CLUSTER MEETING!!! " like fuck you lah.. so much for telling all of us "DON'T WORRY! WE WILL INVITE YOU.. FOR SURE.. " and look what the fuck happened. oh, i'm so damn bloody sure that you are inviting us! you bloody areshole! hypocrite. i swear, i would never ever trust you again. damn it. i loathe you for eternity. only know how to act cute. you think that it's your job to make people happy and for you to be happy. but get this straight, no one askes you to be straight. stop being a dog following people where ever they ask you. and stop acting like you're so nice and everything. show your true self damn it! you suck.
9:54 PM
Sunday, September 16, 2007
oh man.. i think something is wrong with me.. real wrong.. i'm like watching shows and getting all emotional when they play those real sad clips.. and i can feel like droplets of tears coming out and like the next second when they show a different scene, i'm like fine.
and i think i'm HOMESICK! it's like all of a sudden, i dont feel like going to school.. it's like i feel like i'm in primary one, when i cry in the morning before i go school cause i dont want to leave my parents and once i step into school, i dont want to go home.. and it carries on for like a week then it's alright then when it comes to holiday, the feeling comes back.. and even though the one week holiday was like a week ago.. [i didnt feel homesick one week ago] i'm like feeling it now.. maybe cause i'm so in love with the weekends cause it's like the only time i get to hang out with my church friends and stuff.. but yeah.. even though i know that this week will go by real fast.. i cannot wait for the next friday to come.. cause it's like the last day of school.. which i'm so looking forward..
Actually, the one thing that i'm really looking forward for is my end of years examination paper.. cause once the paper starts.. i know that my holidays are coming really fast even though i have like Extra-Enrichment Classes during the holiday which i received it like last year.. truth to be told.. i was really shocked that i received the schedule.. cause i have like 2 more years to go and besides that, my school teachers hardly gives us homework, well, except for my math teacher and we dont have remedial.. like none at all.. and the only day i need to stay back is on thursday cause i have cca.. which i dont need to attend anymore cause last thursday was the last day.. and during the 'major' holidays, i dont even need to go school.. like not one day.. so normally, like any other student, i was really appalled that they gave us Extra-Enrichment Classes.. which also means, i cannot dye my hair on the 28th October.. i can only dye my hair on the 7th of November after my enrichment classes cause the next day is deepavali and on friday, i can try my best to hide my hair colour:D
okay, i realise this post is damn long and random.. but i'm like typing down what i feel cause i really dont feel like going to school tomorrow.. part of me knows that i will definatly be late.. and the other part of me dont wish to see the teachers and the attire check the whole week.. gosh.. i feel like a cow.. lazing on the pastures..
Labels: home-sick post, long, random
11:47 PM
Thursday, September 06, 2007
long time never blog already!!!!!
gosh.. my internet connection is sucky man.. so my mum sort of help me re-format my com and my i-tunes are GONE!!! OH NO!!!! my i-tunes.. it's like all my music.. ARGH!!
so anyway, here's my results.. like official results..
Subject Test 1 Grade
English Language (SYLL A) 76.0 1
Chinese N(A) 16.0 U
Mathematics (SYLL A) 18.0 U
Science (Phy, Chem) 54.0 5
Combined Humanities (S,G) 67.0 3
Principles of A/C 51.0 5
ok, that's really sucky.. i guess.. i'm only satisfied with my english.. alright.. i need to jia you!
Labels: common test results
8:11 PM
Friday, August 24, 2007
so, here are my common test results which by the way i did really badly:
English : 66.6/100
Maths : 15/100 [ok, it's damn pathetic]
Chinese : not yet out
Science : 60/100 [physics] 38/100 [chem] sigh.. so dissapointing man..
Social Studies : 66.6/100
P.O.A : test on tuesday
Labels: common test results
10:59 PM
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Why do people now a days have problems being so steady and coming out of the damn house anytime and anywhere? It’s so fucking irritating lah… it’s like you want to go out with some fucked up people and at first they agree with you then they bloody fucking hell go and say that they cant make it anymore.. like what the fuck is wrong with them lah! Bloody fucking chee bye.. gan ni nabe cao ci bai
If you are not happy. You can always go to a different blog. I don’t need your opinion on what I say or whatever. It’s the same like you don’t want me to care about what you are blogging.
Labels: fucked up people
10:43 PM
Monday, August 20, 2007
Common test are over already, got back a few of my results and if not for shakila telling me to update, i wouldn't be bothered and sides, it's been a long time since i last post! ANYWAY, English - 20/30 Math - 9/50Physics - 16/30 Social Studies - 20/30 i'll just keep my fingers cross for my chemistry results and my poa test coming up soon! Labels: common test results part 1
10:04 PM
Monday, August 13, 2007
when to macs today, and for the first time, i saw 3 people from church! Rachel lee, like d-uh! i always see her in macs.. Clarissa with her friends and Shui min alone using his laptop.. after that Clarissa left. then shui min taught me poa and rachel asked me for her mp3 player before she left and then went back together with shui min.. i thought it was so cool and wierd lahh.. i mean it was like in kovan! KOVAN! and i see like people who dont really stay there at all! so wierd and cool! yay! and i FINALLY figure out my Trading and Profit and Loss Account! THANKS A LOT SHUI MIN! Labels: i saw three youths in kovan macs
9:09 PM
Monday, August 06, 2007
i'm so BORED!!! yeah.. i have no idea why.. but i'm just simply bored!! ANYONE! SOMEONE! PLEASE ENLIGHTEN ME!!Labels: bored..
8:28 PM
Friday, August 03, 2007
i kinda realise that now a days most of my post are like full or anger but it's not my fault. i swear it's not my damn fault.
there is this guy who thinks he is my dad and i have like damn huge difficulty just calling him dad because he is some asshole thinking that everything he does is right. yeah.. so right that up to today he is in like some bloody dept still thinking that we should listen to his damn words!
HE IS SO SCREWED UP AND HE IS BLOODY HELL DRAGGING US DOWN!
he is like being some dumb 24/7 damn guard.. always looking at what the hell we are doing.. it's so damn irritating!
you know, the urge in me is increasing day by day! i just want to scream at him! he is such an asshole! i feel so damn embarressed when he think he is so cool doing something so damn stupid!
ARGH!!!!
I RESENT HIM!
MY ANGER TO HIM WILL NOT DIE DOWN SO EASILY. HE IS AN DAMN ASSHOLE!
Labels: I RESENT THE GUY I HAVE TO CALL 'DAD'
7:44 PM
Thursday, July 26, 2007
this whole week has been pits! yeah.. PITS.
lets start from monday.
MONDAY.23/07/07.
had chinese spelling.which i obviouslt know that i would fail. usually it would be like nothing much.. but today, something went wrong.. ever since i knew that i would fail my paper, my whole mood went down.it's like it meant so much to me.. what the shit.
TUESDAY.24/07/07.
CHINESE COMMON TEST.so screwed up.made my whole day so shitty.
WEDNESDAY.25/07/07.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUI MIN!
have fun being one year older! :D
fuck. some asshole went to teach my friend to smoke.. and now he is like some fucking addict! and i told him that i dont like ot be friends with smokers, and some asshole in my class says "wah lao, you say until like that.. like you alson never.." and he didnt continue.. obviously he meant that i was/is a smoker! damn it.. what the hell is wrong with him!
THURSDAY.26/07/07.
late for school.shit.went up to class straight away and didnt report to the teacher cause my math class was ending already and i'm like currently in love with math cause i understand it much better! and i totally forgot about it and went for my next lesson and then the teacher i/c went to look for me and went to call my mum and went to exaggerate like nobody's damn buisness and says "Clarice's hair is ALL OVER THE PLACE, [like what the shit lahh.. how on earth can my hair be ALL OVER THE PLACE?] and she ALWAYS talks back to teacherS [what the shit?!] how would she know whether i ALWAYS talks back to teacherS? i mean, she is the only teacher who i talk back cause she keeps picking on me! and my form teacher too, cause at times, she REALLY condradicts herself real badly. and what the shit lahh! she is really retarded! and she gave me 6HOURS OF DETENTION! what the hell! i dont ever get detention in my whole life and the first time i kena was 6HOURS! WHAT THE HELL MANN?! and just trust me, tomorrow will be bad! i can so forsee it.
Labels: my week sucked.even more
6:24 PM
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
alright, i cant believe but yeah, i'm complaining about the weather.. its so cold! or rather its so chilly! IT'S COLD AND I LIKE IT YET I'M COMPLAINING! I'M CUKOO! AND ITS SO COOL!
YAY!!
9:03 PM
Friday, July 20, 2007
today, is a very tiring.irritating.fuming.fucked.hot day.
this is the first time i am freaking tired after coming back to school, and seeing that my dad bought me vegetarian food which i hate or resent A LOT. and being in a very fucked up and tired mood. i just skiped my damn dinner.. and i have to do this fucking book review for my column, i have to read this fucking Harry potter and the goblet of fire book which is damn thick and Jean Ure crappy book and the Meg Cabot Teen Idol by next thursday..
i'm damn fucked up and irritating.. i can never be more paranoid and irritated and feeling ucked up then now.today.
ARGH!
FUCK YOU!
7:54 PM
Monday, July 16, 2007
long time since i last post.if you want to know what happen? this is gonna be a long post.
this few days sucked.yep. sucked as a matter of fact. i not only used a lot of vulgarities even though i tried so hard, but a lot of obstacles and irritating people getting onto my nerves and testing my patience and all..
like say,
yesterday, my fucking cousin, jacko, screamed at me in the youth lounge cause i was shouting for gordon.. i mean, what the hell is her problem mann.. it's not like i am shouting at her or something.. and she was like shouting so fast, i couldn't even understand a single word that is coming out of her damn mouth.all i heard was something "considerate, people want to study" i mean like what the shit lahh.. it not like she would be able to pass or get good points for her O levels even how hard she would try.. she's a female dog.
OR
through out the whole week, people have been like fucking teasing and all and my duty in school to protect this girl sitting next to me from this guy who is like fucking stalking her is causing me to use more damn words which didnt even mean to say it.
OR
stupid damn people keep taking my damn stuff and view it, and while viewing, they can't keep their damn mouth shut.. like some damn losers and still dont want to return my stuff
OR
irritating teachers who keep asking me to tuck my damn shirt in.. like wtf.. what is wrong with them mann.. i mean, it's my shirt.. why should they care whether i want to tuck in or out?
MY WEEK(s) SUCKED! BIG-TIME!
Labels: my week sucked.
9:37 PM
Sunday, July 08, 2007
YOUTH SUNDAY!
today is FINALLY youth sunday! i have been looking forward for today because it's really irritating to see every sunday people stoning even after promising to the promise during camp. i mean, yeah, i'm one of the victims. but i guess the only reason why i didnt like jump or anything is cause no one was doing it and it's very wierd to do it alone. yes.very typical. always following people and not doing what you feel like doing.. i hope that i keep doing that..
ANYWAYS, i'm so happy i can finally jump like on a normal youth service! :D i guess this time the 'stay-back' worship is really different.. i mean it's the first time i kneel down and prayed on a normal sunday which feels very different. A LOT DIFFERENT then just praying every day or even during camp. i guess cause only during camp we do a lot of stuff which we dont do every week. so i guess, just the kneeling down praying alone makes a big difference to the whole 'stay-back' worship!
Labels: youth sunday
8:49 PM
Friday, July 06, 2007
New Diet Plan
1000 calories a day MAXIMUM.
No bread.
No pasta.
No sodas.
No chocolate.
No snacks.
LOTS of vegetables.
LOTS of fruits.
LOTS of meat like fish.
LOW salt and sugar intake.
Exercise Plan (6 days/week)
Daily Plan.
Breakfast : Whatever that is stored at home.
Recess : Skiped.
Lunch : Rice with one veg and one meat.
(walk home from school.no elevator.)
Dinner : Fasting.
So.. what do you think about it?
Labels: Diet plan.
11:41 PM
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
today is such a screwed up day.
Question : Why?
Answer : I have a crappy hypocrite form teacher. i have a pair of boring and sucky parents who ALWAYS sides with the teacher. my stopping of vulgarities went well until i was paired with a sucky chem partner which sprayed acid onto my elbow because he can't aim into the jar which cause me to say 3 vulgarities which i ain't very proud of and i feel like having an unpleasant arguement with my form teacher tomorrow cause i'm really not happy with her hypocrisy during today's attire checked. which obviously will not be carried out cause she is after all a teacher and what can a mere student say anything? well, technically, NOTHING. so all i can do is just vent my fustrations here which makes me sound like a complete fool, will the teacher can just screw us with her shouting and screaming in class and we can't say anything. like what the hell. ( 5marks )
Question : What else happened during the remaining day?
Answer : It went perfectly well considering the fact that my above answer covered almost everything that happen during the day and there weren't very much 'remainding'. Oh and 'surprise suprise', i'm still postive! what the hell.. ( Infinity marks )
Labels: 03-07-07, Q and A section
11:04 PM
Monday, July 02, 2007
Met him in the doorway,
awkardly introduced her to him.
Walked past him gracefully,
not letting the fallen face be known.
Smiling brightly and laughing in pretence,
felt him glance at me time and again.
Offered him delights,
only to be declined coldy.
Received a text message,
'Lunch after gathering?'
the answer was obvious.
Silence filled the awkardness as we walked.
The mind was blank.
The body was Numb.
The Heart was beating furiously.
The meal ended unexpectantly fast.
Bought our beverages and
headed back to our 'humble abode'.
Silence was overcomed with smiles and small talks.
In a few minutes,
He left.
He left with a good feeling in my heart.
It was called, 'Friendship'.
A mere Friendship that mended the heart.
Labels: Friendship that mended a broken heart.
12:17 AM
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Blazing heat from the sun shoned down on us.
Stuck among tons of people sweating and perspiring.
There he was,
sitting there so quietly that anyone would miss.
Playing his guitar and concentrating so diligently.
Suddenly, our eyes met.
For a split second or two.
Heart beat furiously as he called,
fickled whether to turn around or not,
he called again.
There was no visible route to escape.
He looked so eager,
he talked,
he tried to start a conversation.
He did it so badly that he gave up in the end.
Seconds,
Minutes,
Hours,
Days,
Weeks,
Gone by, and the heart is crushed, full of tears.
All because of one mistake.
Ignoring him.
Labels: Ignoring Him
9:45 PM
Thursday, June 28, 2007
1. Fell in love - 15
2. Lost someone close to you - nope
3. Drank alcohol - 14
4. Smoked - nope.
5. Got kissed - nope
6. Went to the hospital - infant
7. Got your heart broken? - 15
8. Lost a pet - nope
9. Got arrested - nope
10. Broken a bone - nope
11. Got a job - not yet
12. Got cheated on - nope
13. Rode the city bus alone? - 10
14. Went to a concert/pub? - nope
15. Got a cell phone - 12
16. Snuck out of the house - nope and this shows what good girl i am!
17. Drove a car - nope
18. Fought in school? - 14
19. Your 1st brutal fighting?? - 14
20. How old are you now - 14 years and 6months and 28 days old
NOW REPOST THIS WITH THE TITLE... "How old were you when u first..."
Labels: Quiz
10:57 PM
ARGH!!! it's so irritating!! you know today, the whole day i was like anti-vulgarities until before the last two periods or something luthfi (my classmate) used a rubber band a placed a glass in between the rubber band and shoot at my direction, it hit right in front of me and it shattered into pieces. turn around and i scolded him "fuck lahh.." then i went shit! the whole day, i didnt say it but then just because of that, i said it. GOSH!!! WHY DOES THE DEVIL BE SO FREAKING IRRITATING?! WHY CAN'T THE DEVIL BE NICE FOR ONCE? DOSENT HE HAVE ANY CONSCIENCE? wait! i forgot! he is the devil! he is mean and evil guy! he dosent have anyu conscience! cause he is meaness and evilness has taken over his conscienceness!
HE(THE DEVIL!) IS A SUCKER!
Labels: the devil is a sucker
10:46 PM
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
got this from azalea blog.A: Loves to flirt but in a way of joking
B: Popular with all types of people
C: weird
D: Has one of the best personalities ever
E: freaking beautiful
F: People wild and crazy adore you
G: Never let people tell you what to do
H: Easy to fall in love with
I: Loves to laugh
J: Freaking rowdy
K: Really silly
L: Best smile
M: makes dating fun
N: One of the best damn gf/bf anyone could ask for
O: loved by everyone
P: popular with all types of people
Q: a hypocrite
R: Good bf/gf
S: The best person anyone could have
T: Great kisser
U: Get hugs
V: Not judgemental
W: very broad minded
X: never let people tell you what to do
Y: Is a freak when it comes to parties
Z: Lives life for fun
C: weird
L: best smiles
A: loves to flirt but in a way of joking
R: good bf/gf
I: loves to laugh
C: weird
E: freaking beautiful
Labels: Quiz
11:05 PM
Monday, June 25, 2007
today was alright.
started the day with a tiff with my mum.
reached school late but was let in without any form.
listen to 7 teachers making their 'speech' with 2 speeched each per teacher.
went back to class to fold HUNDREDS of plastic bag and staple a flyer to a plastic bag for 'Love Our Community Day'.
let go for recess late.
had 1 free period.
1 math period.
1 physics period.
school ended at 2pm
went to macs for lunch.
quarreled with someone on sms.
studied a bit.
went to kovan to checked out the presents for classmates whose birthday's were in June.
left kovan at 4 plus.
on the way home, i forgot to checked out something for vivien.
shit.
today was a really nice day! :)
Labels: happenings on the first day of school
8:54 PM
Sunday, June 24, 2007
tomorrow school starts! yipee! ok.. that was really wierd and positive.. but anyways.. had small group lunch today.. i wasn't really looking forward to go but i went in the end cause if not i wont have a place to go for small group, and the others were in their small group. It wasn't that bad after all! surprise! surprise! had macs then sam treated us to Swenson's! :D yumyum! school's starting tomorrow.. argh! so far all my first days of school went bad. oh well.. wish me luck!
hope that tomorrow will go well..
Labels: school starts tomorrow, small group lunch
9:33 PM
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Went out with Samantha wong, Jazlyn and Matthew. Had lunch at Long John Silver.. met Bertrand there..the fish and chicken is like getting smaller each time we come.. anyway.. after that we bought tickets for a movie called 'Nancy Drew'.. yeah, matthew watched it too.. can't believe it right? after that we went to Life Bookshop then G2000 then Giordano then Op then B.U.M then SURF 'N' SKI and i bought a pair of new Billabong Slippers cause the previous one which wasn't very old either was like history during Ignition camp, so i bought a new one.. it cost like $19.90 which was quite worth it for me cause its so pretty! anyway, after that we headed to the Cinema cause our show was about to start. I bought a Medium Ice Lemon Tea and Cheese Hotdog! after the movie, i bought the Planetshakers CD Pick it Up and i really like most of the songs or rather all the songs that i am familiar with! cost like $22.90 which is quite worth it for a Christian Music! :D
Nancy Drew is worth watching it ONCE. and for a high school girl, she is one darn daring girl!
i tried forgetting you slowly,
bit by bit.
but it didn't work.
now, i'll cut all strings attached from you and i.
you have hurt me time and time again without realising it.
i've had enough.
this time,
i'm not letting you hurt me anymore.
i need to stop thinking of you.
everything i do,
you appear in my mind.
leave me alone
break my heart.
let me give up on you.
it's the easiest way.
Labels: went out with samantha wong.jazlyn.matthew today.met bertrand there
3:54 PM
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Ignition Camp
13th-17th June '07
For me, it was the longest camp i have been so far. Not only that, this camp has been the most meaningful one. Through out all the camp's i have been, i think this is the only camp which i cried everynight and received 7 blisters on my foot!
I am really glad for this camp because i think for me personally, this camp has woke me up.literally. I mean, before this camp, the first 6 months have been very negative, problematic, blur, lie. It's been very negative because every morning, the first thought that comes to my mind is "I DONT WANT TO GO SCHOOL!" and it isn't really the best thing to think to start the day. Its been very problematic because ever since i had a few problems, i would think negatively straight away that i'm a magnet that attracts the problems to come to me, which i found out that its just me thinking that way.. It's been blur and a lie for the past 6 months because every sunday i go church and i see my friends giving me fake smiles and fake 'highness' and i do that to them in return.. so its like all lies on sunday. I just realise something, on sundays when you are looking sad and stuff.. you are termed "emo" when you are not sad you look happy, you are termed "high" if you are in the middle, you are termed "stoning".
During this camp, i think that it really gave me a wake up call. I mean, before this camp, for the last 6 months, during worship, when songs like Open the Gates or Tell the World that Jesus Lives, NO ONE JUMPS. I mean, its not like a compulsory thing to jump but everytime during camp or TOFU or other stuff.. EVERYONE JUMPS! but not during normal sunday service which is really sad.. but this time during camp, Daryl Neo made us sort of made us commit that we will not only worship God the way we worship him in camp only.. but on EVERY SUNDAY! WOO-HOO! well.. on sunday it did went well.. i mean we were like jumping and stuff.. i just hope that it would stay the same every week..
Anyway.. During camp, i think that i slept quite little considering the fact that when i reach home, after the Father's Day dinner.. i slept at 8pm all the way to 1.30pm the next morning! which is like 13Hours worth of sleep! yes.. and i find that this year the game is quite tone down but the games that were played were VERY meaningful.. Especially Day 2 LOL![Lots of Love] The Name was Definatly inventer by Shaun Sng cause he thought that LOL was Lots of Love.. and on the second day, Truth Min was invited to host Worship... and it sure was an Interesting one! Especially the MTV thingy between Vanessa and Darryl Sng!
I think that the One thing that is very meaningful to me was the washing of feets.. Vanessa my Camp Group Assistant Leader... She came up to me and wash my feet.. I started crying when she was washing my feet cause it was the day where i had a lot of blisters and she was holding my feet so gently that she was afraid it would break. I cried bitterly cause i felt that i was not worth to let my feet be washed by her. She told me its fine, which to me wasn't when i sat down at my seat crying, samantha png was the first one that came to be comforting me saying that it's fine and all.. but i really felt very unworthy and felt that it is very hard to forgive myself even though vanessa said"you must forgive yourself first" so that night, i went to samantha png for ministering and ask her to pray for me to help me forgive myself..
Day after each day, i went to samantha png asking for the same thing, asking her to pray with me to ask God to help me forgive myself first and at the last day, i asked samantha png if she is willing to be my accountibility leader and she didnt mind.. I'm really glad that she agreed to be my accountibility leader because i think that even after school starts, no matter how positive i think or do things.. i still need to share with someone. someone whom i trust with and is comfortable with.
I think this camp, I really let go at least Half of my Problems through tears. I didnt really let it go through prayers because whenever i think of what to pray.. it just dosent come out right.. or i just get stuck and dunno what to say anymore.. so during camp, I let go like at least half of my problems through tears. the funny thing is that after crying and asking for prayer.. I feel quite drained and yet feel much better..
I'm grateful for this Camp. It really changed my perspective of things to see things in a more positive note and let me be more confident in worshiping God! it's really a wake up call which i have been wanting to have which i ddint realise only after i received it!
All i can say is that This Is A New Beginning For Me!
Labels: a new beginning, Ignition Camp
7:04 PM
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
a few more hours to go before i go for the youth camp for the next 5 days.. dont miss me yah? haha.. ego high already..anyway.. i jsuit finish packing.. and i do realise it is very late already.. its like 0336 am now.. and i have like only 2 more hours to sleep before i have to wake up.. if not i'll be late.. which isnt very nice to be late on the first dayso yeahh.. see you soon! i'll be taking pictures and camwhore the whole time.. so will be back with loads of pictures!
Labels: last post before camp
3:37 AM
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
I LOVE GOOD CHARLOTTE - WE BELIEVE! OMG!!! the song is so nice! the lyrics to the words is so so inspiring.. i have no idea why but it just does!! oh mann.. if i have the song in my ipod, i would listen to it like every second.. more then dark blue! omigosh!! i'm in love with this song!!! *gasps!*
Labels: i love good charlotte-we believe
4:01 PM
Monday, June 11, 2007
today was a very tiring and expensive day..
i was suppose to meet azalea.justinng.justinyeo.jerylyeo today to get presents.. and we were suppose to meet at 12.15 when i reached at 12.30.. azalea and justin ng were already at cineleisure which i didnt know how to get there so i just walked alone there and found my way there in the end.. i took about 10 mins from orchard mrt to cineleisure which azalea and justin claimed that it was too fast to walk.. and they kept saying that i sprinted there like wth.. -.- anyway, the yeo brothers came at around 1 plus and we were at pasta mania eating our lunch which was only justin ng and me.. so knowing me i took so long, they claimed i took one hour which i so do not believe.. then when we reach 'the heeren' they left when we haven't even get the presents yet.. so anyway.. azalea, justin ng and i continued shopping.. got a present at action city and then went our way shopping.. we went to this shop at the heeren and tried on like 4 pieces each and azalea ended up buying a 40 odd bucks white shirt.. which she obviously didnt pay for it.. yeahh.. you can figure out who paid for it.. so anyway.. after that we went to paragon (i think) which was beside it.. we went there to shop which has like NOTHING much there.. so we went out and went walking along the 'underground shops' we went in like at almost every clothes shop.. and ended up not buying anything which then we went to the underground pass and went to orchard mrt which has a popular on top.. i can tell you that THAT POPULAR IS THE HOTTEST POPULAR IN SINGAPORE! the aircon there could be removed and no one will notice cause its damn hot!
anyway..
after that we went to wistma.. went to topshop for a very long time because justin and azalea were like so tired.. so i went walking around looking at the clothes.. we wanted to change but the changing room is like damn crowded and the queue is damn long!! and i mean LONG! so we went to G2000 in the end.. i got a shirt for like 16bucks which was on sale.. can you believe it? its like so damn ex.. oh well.. now we know that sale or no sale.. its still very expensive! after that we went to takashimaya and bought food! yay! after that we sort of left.. cause it was already 7pm..
which concludes that we have been walking for 7 hours! my feet are so sore!!
oh ya! something interesting happened at G2000
justin, clarice, azalea:
(walking into the shop)
clarice: (seeing the poster of a model with her lips parted in a cardigan) ehhh! her jacket nice leh!
clarice: (goes up to crabby old G2000 assistant) excuse me, do you have that? (points at poster)assistant: (looks at poster of girl, and of poster BEHIND, which is of a guy)
assistant: which one? the one of the guy or the girl?
three of us: (turn to justin, burst out laughing)
clarice: that one! the mouth open open one! the girl! do you have that jacket anot?
assistant: -.- it's called a cardigan.
(gestures at row of cadigans metres away)
clarice: (walks over to PILE OF TANKTOPS LABELLED TANK TOPS next to row)
WHERE??
yep! that's what happen!
and all in all.. we went to 6 different shopping malls!
oh! i ended up getting only a orangey-bright reddish shirt and a purple colour slippers for camp! wanted to get a jacket from flash imp.. but they didnt have the design i like..
Labels: a whole day of shopping
7:50 PM
Sunday, June 10, 2007
WTH!
9:38 PM
Saturday, June 09, 2007
hey! this post covers the past two days including today! i have been in the sunday school camp to help decorate the church.. and took a few pictures! the kids were adorable! i guess i need not say that.. but.. yes, they were
ADORABLE! took a few pictures! :D have fun looking!
1. Bryant 2. Sky! (yiying's brother!) 3. Ryan Goh (my darling!) 4. uh-oh.. cannot remember his name.. but he is damn cute! 5. Amanda, the girl who never looks at the camera.. (Kyle's Siter) 6. Peter, the boy who never like to look at the camera too.. its candid by the way.. He is SO ADORABLE! 7. Jarad! 8. My Brother with fake stuff -.-
My Art Master Piece!
can you believe it? snooze time is only 10 mins!
CANDID SHOTS!
CAN YOU GUESS WHO THIS IS?Labels: pictures, sunday school kids camp
9:50 PM
Thursday, June 07, 2007
TOMORROW IS THE SUNDAY SCHOOL CAMP!! or rather, A FEW MORE HOURS AND IT'S THE SUNDAY SCHOOL CAMP! [anyway..] whee! finally! can't wait.. today felt so long!! it was like a drag.. why? cause i didnt do anything useful.. sigh.. anyway.. TOMORROW'S THE SUNDAY SCHOOL CAMP! can't wait to help out!! :D tomorrow gotta wake up at 0630am! like a school day.. cause i gotta be there early.. can't afford to be late! anyway.. will definatly be taking loads of pictures in between and stuff! and camwhore with jazlyn! :D can't wait..Labels: Camwhore, tomorrow is the sunday school camp
12:48 AM
Sunday, June 03, 2007
this june holiday is PACKED! yeahh.. damn pack! well.. today's the 3rd of June ALREADY!! its like so fast! so here's like the rest of my schedule for this month.. sigh.. its DEPRESSING just to see it..
4th June 07 - Nothing Much at the moment
5th June 07 - Help Decorate Church for kids camp
6th June 07 - Nothing Much at the moment
7th June - 9th June 07 - helping out in the SUNDAY SCHOOL CAMP!
10th June 07 - CHURCH! Comm Meeting
11th June 07 - Nothing Much at the Moment
12th June 07 - Nothing Much at the Moment
13th June 07 - i have FREAKING SCHOOL IN THE MORNING TILL NOON! wtf..
13th June - 17th June 07 - IGNITION camp!
17th June 07 - Break Camp :( Small Group Movie!
18th June 07 - Onwards till holidays ends - Nothing at the Moment!
So as you can see.. its like quite pack until after camp.. but then it will be very sad.. cause that means school holidays are ending soon already.. :( well.. at least holidays wont be like the ones last time! cause the busier it is, the more worth while the holidays are! thats what i think.. :)
Labels: holidays, schedule for this month of holiday
9:51 PM
this is like the part 2 of sunday's post.. didnt really wanted to joint it together with the previous one cause it would be like so random.. ok.. i'm making no sense.. so never mind.. anyway.. spent the whole day in church! my favourite place! :D it was a wierd sunday cause everyone was somehow seperated.. like the people we have lunch with every sunday just.. dissapear.seperated.
Samantha Wong - Malacca
Azalea - Went home
Delane - Have lunch with her mom and bro
Justin Ng - Went to the Youth Lounge for i dunno what reason
Bell - had small group lunch
Justin and Jeryl yeo - had small group lunch
so it was like shakila, jazlyn and i left.. which was like pathetic? i mean.. it's so quiet and wierd.. but anyway.. we decorated the remaining rooms needed which was a lot! and then we took pictures of the stuff in the youth lounge! and i took a video of shakila doing a dance in a "grass skirt"
1. Shakila and me 2. Jazlyn and me
Labels: pictures, whole day in church
8:19 PM
Saturday, June 02, 2007
when to help to decorate the church for the sunday school camp again! we were suppose to be there at 1100 when i reach there at about 1107 there was like no one there.. which is very suprising cause usually by the time i reach there, almost everyone would already be there.. so the first instint would be to call shakila.. tried calling her handphone.. couldn't get thru so i called her home phone since i do not know any ladies number there.. around like 1145, FINALLY! aunty gloria came together with maryanne. straight away we were ordered with special mission! which was to go and find aunty priscilla and get soem 'special agent' book to print certain pages.. in the midst of it.. i saw jazlyn! [cause we were at the church office] and i asked her if shakila is here.. but instead of answering my question.. she said
"i have a surprise for you!" and i was like
"what surprise?!" as usual.. knowing jazlyn she wouldn't tell me.. so i quickly went up to see.. i thought it was like azalea last minute able to go or something.. so when i went there.. the first person i saw was michelle! and i scream!!
"OMG!!! you're here! HALLO!!" then after that i saw yan kit then i screamed even louder
"OMG!! YOU ARE HERE!! DO YOU STILL REMEMBER ME? OMG.. YOU ARE SO CUTE!!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE!! [not exactly a question] WHEE!!" yes.. that was my reaction.. i know..
cukoo right? haha.. but yeahh.. after that he followed me down to the office and find more pictures in the internet to print it and paste it on the wall! it was so fun! he was like sitting on my lap and choosing and talking baby talk to me!! OMG!! its just so adorable!! you gotta see it for yourself.. but anyway.. here's some picture i took with the short amount of time he was there.. cause after lunch he went for the sponge bob square pants live show.. so sad.. he didnt invite me..
you know what was the sweetest thing? michelle told me that on the way here.. she told him that i would be there but she wasnt sure and he said "why don't you call the church to see if she is in church?" SO CUTE RIGHT?!?!? and he remembers my name!! muahahaha.. he remembers my name!! ok.. i am so in love with this boy! he is my 7 years old boyfriend! 1. yan kit smiling 2. yan kit and i 3. yan kit was suppose to do a funny face but i guess he felt it was too funny too! 4. AHHH!! 5. michelle and i take 1 6. michelle and i take 2
Labels: i love kids, i love michelle, i love yan kit
9:52 PM
Friday, June 01, 2007
today has been a long, tiring, fretting, freaking and scary day.. long and tired is cause i spend the whole day in church again decorating for the kids camp and I'LL BE HELPING OUT IN THE
KIDS CAMP!! WHEE!! anyway, fretting, freaking and scary is because when i dont do anything or if i'm not busy enought, i think. i think.ALOT and i've been thinking almost every day or second or minutes of my life about someone on sunday.. which is a very bad thing.. but yes.. its scary and freaky and very fretting.. didnt take any pictures today but yeahh.. i'm gonna go help again tomorrow and i hope everything's fine. :)
I LOVE YOU AZALEA AND SHAKILA!
Labels: freaky, helped decorate church for kids camp, i LOVE you, i'm helping out in the kids camp, long, scared, tiring
10:34 PM
Thursday, May 31, 2007
when to church today around 1pm to decorate the church for the kids camp again.. when i arrived.. maryanne quickly brought me to shakila and aunty margret who were at the mph painting the worldmap we did yesterday after that we quickly went back to the room and continue of justin's console.. we had to rush cause after that was the gala dinner.. and the whole day was full of gala here and gala there.. even in the lift when we were about to leave church.. we were listening to the ladies talking about the gala dinner.. anyway.. while we were continuing justin's console.. we used the 'gun glue' which need to be heated.. then the small young girl came and took it from me and played and she accidentally hit the freaking hot metal part onto my wrist so it was like burned.. and my skin kinda got melted and left a scar there.. the way the scar was position was in a damn nice place mann.. anyway.. today we were like hurrying through out the whole console thingy.. amazingly we left at 1615 which is 4:15pm.. and i amazingly ran to the bus stop while shakila ran her way home.
Labels: Camwhore, Gala Dinner, helped decorate church for kids camp, pictures
12:26 AM
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
spend the whole day in church today to help decorate the chuch for the kids camp. It ended at about 9 plus and i came at 2 plus. Was quite fun and depressing also cause azalea, shakila and i were talking about stuff and i mean a lot of stuff. shakila and i went to the mph and traced the world map onto it the large piece of paper flashed by the visualiser zoom like dunno how many hundred time.. it was quite hard and we had to stand back to see how badly we did.. haha.. so we paste/combined a lot of paper together with a lot of double-sided tape and bluc tac and at one point time.. we were stuck with a sticky situation cause we taped the four paper together and it kept falling.. sigh.. oh well.. in the end we did it! so for the two of us.. it was quite a sucess and my left shoulder is hurting a lot cause we had to keep stretching it real high and all just to trace it.. oh well.. it was a success and that was all we care!
anyway here are some pictures
1. in the process of making the world map paste on the canvas sheet. 2. still in the process 3. finishing.. 4. DONE!! FINALLY! 5. the mess we made in the room the whole day 6. the food that was 'supplied' 7. Azalea,Shakila and I when we went down on the way home
Labels: helped decorate church for kids camp, i LOVE you, pictures, shoulder aching real badly, whole day in chruch
10:33 PM
Monday, May 28, 2007
everyone says "i'm always here for you." it's all lies. no one will be always there for you. that i would know.. talk to tons of people in the end "i've got to go sleep" or "hey, i cant talk to you now i've gotta eat or do wadever shit then filled with sorrys" it just sucks.. when people think you are emo, they say "why dont you share to your best friends" or "you can always share with me" its all bullshit! why dosen't anyone think whether they can really be always there for you before they say it and they just keep hurting people without knowing it? why don't they ever think whether there are even people to share with before they keep saying "why don't you share it with your best friends?" ?why don't people think whether they have the time to actually listen to someone's problem and not multi task when your friend is telling you her problem and you are of no help?don't they know that people who want to share need their full attention and not that they are attention seeking? do they ever consider if whatever they say to someone can actually mean a lot even if they are just joking? Do they? what do they even think about when they do all this things? Labels: life is full of lies and bullshits
10:18 PM
don't you find it funny and interesting when someone or a handful of people keep telling you that you are emo or depressed or in denial when you don't find that you are?
well, i do. Many a times, people or friends tells me that i am emo and when i deny, they keep insisting that i am emo.. Do you know how many times i feel like shouting at them
"How the hell would you know i'm emo? you are not even me!" but obviously knowing myself better, i would never do that. But thats what i really feel when people keep insisting that i'm emo. When i ask them
"Why do you keep insisting that i'm emo?" they say
"you look emo." then i start to laugh and ask myself this
"Since when does emo have a 'look' ?" Nevertheless i still keep it to myself and not ask them.
Sometimes, i may be emo but when i am really emo, i wont 'look' emo, i keep it to myself as much as i can. So if you ever think that i 'look' emo, i'm not emo. not that i think i'm emo.
And if you ever think or tell that i am distancing from you or whoever, you should know that i do it for a very good reason. which allows me not to hurt anyone in what i do or would do. so please understand.
the reason for this post is because there is no way i am gonna tell anyone straight in the face unless that person is pissing me off real badly which no one has.yet. so if you have read it, please don't keep insisting i am emo.. etc, etc
Labels: about being emo, emo
8:07 AM
Sunday, May 27, 2007
today was so fun!! we took care of kids in sunday school below primary one!! they were so cute!!!! i saw my niece there!! she was so cute.. she wore like all pink and tied her hair in two pony tails!! we were suppose to talk and play with the kids! i played with loads of them.. and justin ng.edmund.jery yeo.justin yeo kept telling the kids bad stuff about me.. :( but! the kids didnt believe them! hah! see.. that shows teh kids prefer me to them! :P then when it was their worship time.. we had to do the actions with them and it was so cute!! shakila took a very nice picture of the guys and a few kids doing the actions!!
delane.jazlyn.bell and i were like so lost for the first few actions haha.. but yeahh.. we SLOWLY got it. after worship was a hula hoop game! it was so cute! they were suppose to pass the hulahoop but so many of them wanted to swing in the hulahoop! haha.. after that was the movie time!! natalie was sitting on my lap!! and the other thought i was seriously a philofile [if thats the right spelling] yeahh.. i dunno why.. but can't they just understand i love kids! after the video it was colouring time! i coloured with them.. we were suppose to form like groups of 6 so i was the extra person yeahh.. i coloured with them and i made two new friend today! it was a adorable guy called yan kit and a girl called kai en they were like my besties in that whole group of people! it would be like so cool if they were my god siblings! oh well..
oh ya! jingyan can be a good father next time mann..he has potential!
Pictures:
1. my masterpiece [with the disastrous help from delane:P] 2. see the cute boy in blue hawaii shirt? he is yan kit! 3. random shot from the side view 4. see the girl in yellow and black strips? she is kai en!! wasn't able to take the shot from the front :(
Labels: helped out the sunday school kids today, i love kids
8:06 PM
Friday, May 25, 2007
SCHOOL ENDS TODAY!! the day i have been waiting for has finally arrived! the HOLIDAYS!!! whee!! this holiday is gonna be fun! no doubt!
crap! having poa lessons on the first day of church camp! of all days to choose, has to be on the 13 june.. wth!
Labels: holidays, school ends today
10:08 PM
Thursday, May 24, 2007
if anyone askes me how i am during this year and i said i'm fine or great or whatever positive stuff.. i'm lying! why? cause this damn year is bloody shitty! my aunt ended up in the freaking hospital today.. she feel down the stairs and hit her head.. of all freaking places.. her head! what the hell.. this year, nothing great or good happen this year.. so to many people i'll definatly be lying to you guys..Labels: this damn year is bloody shitty
9:35 PM
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
teaser for fellow shitheads ;D
1. Go to google.com
2. Click on more
3. Sroll down and click on Maps
4. Click on "Get directions"
5. From New York
6. To Paris
7. Read line # 21
8. If you laugh, repost this.
4:49 PM
i've finally watched spiderman3!! sorry shakila, the show was nice.. except the fact that there were 2 small noisy indian kids making so much noise through out the whole show.. anyway, the ending was so sad yet nice! its kinda sad that harry died.. hah! the stupid camera man died! what an ass.. he's hot though.. :P i went with my parents for the 2130 [930pm] movie.. it was quite long cause we ended at ten pass midnight.. which was why i didnt go to school today! whee! haha.. yeahh.. i didnt go school today cause i reached home around 1 plus.. and i couldn't wake up and besides, my dad allowed me to stay at home and sleep! besides, even if i go school..i wouldn't be doing anything!
ihavefatarmslegsandthigh! :(
Labels: spiderman3
4:05 PM
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
the worse times of the year always come around this time.. why? i got back all my mid-years results.. its always scary and finger trembling when we wait for the arrival of the teacher to arrive the hall with our papers.. here goes..
English - 20/30, 20/30, 46.5/80. PASS
Math - 28/80 (paper 1), 21/60 (paper 2) 41/140(total) = 29/100. FAIL
Chiense - 46/100 quite close though.. my highest fail. FAIL
Science - 51.5/100. PASS
Geography - 26/100. FAIL
POA - 41.1. FAIL
2 PASS AND 4 FAIL. as you can see.. if this results were the one of my End of Years.. i would just retain.. this is my worse results lahh.. i mean usually it would be 2 fail and 4 pass.. my results are disgusting.. i have no idea how to face the music.. shit.
Labels: mid-year examinations, results, worse time of the year
5:16 PM
Monday, May 21, 2007
PLEASE GET WELL! we are all scared for you.. please get well.. don't lose faith in him like i did.. you will get well. if anything you need, i''m just a phone call or sms away.. dosen't matter if its during school hours.. you know my phone's on and i'll be there.. don't keep things to yourself.. like after so many days then you tell us.. we are very worried for you.. you have no idea what shakila and i just did.. please take care! we will be praying for you! get well soon then we can hang out like old times.watch movie, hang out, gossip, sleepover, church camp, laugh like no one's buisness.. please get well.. we love you!
i'm scared.. i'm getting all my papers back tomorrow.. i have a really bad and sinking feeling that i flunked all my papers except like 2 papers only.. shit! this is bad.. and i can definatly wait for friday to come cause i'm getting back my report book.. and i can't wait for the holidays to come!! shit! this is confusing.. tomorrow.. the school hall is gonna flood with either tissue paper or tears.. shit.. after friday, i'm gonna be a geek.. start studying and all.. argh!! i need to score better for the next common test or end of year test.
Labels: geek, i'm scared, mid-year examinations, please get well, we love you
1:00 AM
Sunday, May 20, 2007
today is the best!funniest!!first biology class ever!! had badminton today from 2-4pm at the tampines sports hall together with jazlyn.shakila.felicia.sharon[felicia's friend].kyle.justin and shaun a.k.a the monkey! yep! it was fun alright.. full of laughther and all.. after that we sort of had an earlier dinner at subway. there, we had a very interesting and funny class taught by felicia.justin.shakila on biology[you should know what topic] as you can see, i'm like the most innocent one there.. don't understand why people say i'm so not-innocent.. oh well.. and during that lesson.. we sort of own the WHOLE SUBWAY.. ok.. so MAYBE the subway isn't very big.. but yeahh.. we were laughing our head off.. and i assure you that you do not want to know what we were talking about.. it was like FULL OF RANDOM STUFF and its really VERY random! so yes.. if you are still very innocent like me 8 hours ago.. which i still am quite innocent, SAVE YOURSELF FROM THEM!! haha.. JOKING!!
so here's some picture taken at subway[which i stole from shakila's blog]
felicia and me and justin ng
shakila and justin ng and me
Labels: badminton, biology class at subway, pictures
12:47 AM
Friday, May 18, 2007
my english teacher is BLOODY bias.. she gave this girl name jolene tan top in class for english when the whole world knows that she dun deserve it.. ok.. so MAYBE the teacher loves her cause she's the class known as teacher's pet and her compo do not deserve such a high marks.. ok.. so you may think i am angry or jealous.. wadever.. but she do not deserve to be the highest in class for english.. i dun care.. the teacher can give her damn good marks now and even for N levels.. but i swear i'm gonna beat her for O levels!
other then that.. the day went well cause i made a 'timetable' on what subjects to study so i really hope that by the time my next common test arrive, i'll be ready!
Labels: buyers teacher, mid-year examinations
6:48 PM
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
have you ever had a fuckiest day where every fucking thing when wrong and every fucking person you go to just fucking hell shut you out?! cause today is my fuckiest day ever! all the fucking people i talked to, why dont you just go and fuck off?!
i trusted you but you broke my trust.
don't ever think i'm ever fucking hell talking to you again.
fucking hell called you but you fucking hell rejected my call and dun answer that fucking phone
ask you whether this fucking saturday you free? you just fucking ignore me
WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?! YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE!
guess what?! from today onwards.. ITS THE BEST FUCKING DAY OF MY LIFE!!! I HAVE NEVER FELT THIS FUCKING GOOD IN MY LIFE!
ALL THANKS TO YOU! THE MOST FUCKED UP PEOPLE IN MY LIFE!
FUCK YOU!
this is one post where there is so many fucking word in thereLabels: fuck
8:14 PM
EXAMS ARE OVER!! FINALLY OVER!! YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAPPY I AM!! so back to quiz mode
| Your French Name is: |
Manon Bombarde |
| You Have Your Sarcastic Moments |
While you're not sarcastic at all times, you definitely have a cynical edge.
In your opinion, not all people are annoying. Some are dead!
And although you do have your genuine moments, you can't help getting your zingers in.
Some people might be a little hurt by your sarcasm, but it's more likely they think you're hilarious. |
| Your Extroversion Profile: |
Sociability: Very High
Activity Level: High
Cheerfulness: High
Friendliness: High
Assertiveness: Medium
Excitement Seeking: Medium |
| You Are Iceman |
You tried to live a normal life, but it just wasn't possible
A bit of a slacker, you rather tell jokes than cultivate your powers
Powers: turning self and others into ice, making ice weapons, becoming nearly invisible |
| You Probably Look Younger Than Your Age |
You live a healthy lifestyle and know how to take care of yourself.
You'll probably have a youthful glow for many years. |
| Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ESFP) |
Your personality type is playful, charming, open minded, and energetic.
Only about 7% of all people have your personality, including 9% of all women and 5% of all men
You are Extroverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Perceiving. |
Labels: Quiz
2:03 AM
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
EXAMS ARE OVER!!! i am so RELIEVE!! HAPPY!! sad thing is that i dun have a day off tomorrow.. :( finished school at 0913am today..
quiz mood today!
| You Are 28% Girly |
You are a pretty hardcore tomboy, and a very free spirit.
Gender roles be dammed, you like to do things your way. |
I'M NOT THAT BOYISH!!!
| Your Hair Should Be Red |
Passionate, fiery, and sassy.
You're a total smart aleck who's got the biggest personality around. |
Really? i was hoping pink colour!
| You Are an Okay Student |
You know how to get by school, but your heart isn't always in it.
Motivation is a problem for you. Maybe you need to study something more exciting! |
WHAT?! THAT AIN'T FAIR! I'M STILL A GOOD STUDENT!
| You Are An ENFP |
The Inspirer
You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.
You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.
Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.
You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller!
You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist. |
what is ENFP?
| You Are More Mild Than Wild |
You're confident, and you really aren't concerned with how "hot" you are.
Other people's ideas of what's sexy don't concern you. And this is exactly what makes you attractive. |
| Your Ideal Relationship is Polyamory |
You're too much of a free spirit to be tied down by a traditional relationship.
You think relationships should be open and free, with few restrictions. |
| You Are 50% Extrovert, 50% Introvert |
You're a bit outgoing, a bit reserved
Like most people, you enjoy being social
But you also value the time you have alone
You have struck a good balance! |
this is appaling
| You Are 64% Peaceful |
You are a very peaceful person. All is good in your world, no matter what's going on.
Occasionally you let your problems get to you, but you generally remain upbeat.
Your inner strength is inspirational - much more so than you may realize. |
see.. i'm peaceful,not a public nuisance
| You Are 55% Impulsive |
You're quite impulsive, but you never are reckless.
You qualify as a very spontaneous person, but you still know how to honor your commitments.
And while responsibility doesn't come easy to you, having fun does! |
| You Should Be a Film Writer |
You don't just create compelling stories, you see them as clearly as a movie in your mind.
You have a knack for details and dialogue. You can really make a character come to life.
Chances are, you enjoy creating all types of stories. The joy is in the storytelling.
And nothing would please you more than millions of people seeing your story on the big screen! |
| What Your Favorite Color Purple Says About You: |
Intuitive --- Seeking --- Creative
Kind --- Self-Sacrificing --- Growth Oriented
Strong --- Very Wise --- Rare |
i'm NOT barney.. and i DON'T like barney
Labels: mid-year examinations, Quiz
10:52 AM
Saturday, May 12, 2007
still have 2 more papers till it all ends..
PHYSICS.CHEMISTRY.I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT TO END! gonna cut hair on either monday or tuesday!! then all the stress will be gone.. cause faith[tam] has this philosophy which is.. whenever she is stress.. she cuts her hair.. which i think its quite useful cause now a days i cut my hair when i'm stress or emo so yeahh.. her philosophy worked!!! haha.. so yeahh.. this monday or tuesday i'm so gonna cut my hair! yeahh..
i just realise something.. if i dun study or get high or talk to somebody special.. like my special friends.. i get emo. i guess cause they are hardly online.. take delane as an eg. she
HARDLY comes online or shakila, she HARDLY comes online and when she does.. she hardly talks.. so yeahh.. i get emo.. which is sad:(
Labels: cut hair, emo, i can't wait for exams to end
10:10 PM
Thursday, May 10, 2007
8th May to 10th May 2007 its been a long and stressful week.. up to today.. i've only completed my English Paper 1.2 Chinese Paper 1.2 POA paper 2 Math Paper 1 Geography. in the next 3 days i will be having my Comb Science papers, POA paper 1 and Math Paper 2.
tomorrow i'll be taking my POA paper 1 and Math Paper 2 tomorrow and i kinda have a good feeling about it.. i have no idea why but i do..
8th May 2007had my Math paper 1 and Geog paper.. the math paper was amazingly alright for me.. usually i would like barely be alive after the paper ends.. i guess i have to thank god for letting the MOE let us be the first batch to use the calculators for our Math Paper 1! if not i would probably fail.. hope tomorrow's paper wouldnt be a killer paper.. as usual.. my Geog paper was a killer one.. i did study but i guess the questions that came out were like
wtf kind of questions.. didnt really expect it to be so hard.. cause the common test paper was like much easier so i guess i thought it would be that easy.. guess i was wrong!!
MUST STUDY HARDER FOR GEOG!!! 9th May 2007SCHOOL ENDED AT 0945AM!! woo-hoo! i had only English Paper 2 haha.. went straight to macs and booked 6-seater seat and a 4-seater seat for Rachel and Rachel's lee friends! its kinda fun! like ever since i started studying at macs.. which is like on the 7th, i've been studying with rachel and her friends.. well.. i made new friends!
woo-hoo!! and all thanks goes to rachel!!
10th May 2007of all the papers combination..
TODAY!!! ALL THE FAILING PAPER!! Chinese paper 2 and POA paper.. thats just great.. i'm so gonna fail.. unless! tomorrow.. the POA paper 1 i do better in it which i feel a slight bit of confidence that i'll do much better then my paper 2.. oh well.. Wish me luck!
Labels: mid-year examinations
9:51 PM
Friday, May 04, 2007
i'm starting to like linkin park
I can't believe i'm starting to like it.. its known as a 'screaming band' which i think is what i need now!!
SCREAMING!!
yeahh.. tomorrow i'm going to borders.. can't find someone to go with.. oh well.. looks like i'll be studying alone there[at the starbucks]..
i can't wait for my mum to come back!! which would be in like 5 days time.. i think there is something wrong with me.. i'm like feeling COLD EVERYDAY! in class.. i need a jacket with me everywhere i go i guess..
these few days have been a drag.. no one to talk to.. all are having exams.. and i can't seem to concentrate on my studies.. though i do realise that i need to start.. oh mann.. why don't they invent some tablet for students like me who have difficulties to concentrate to be able to concentrate better? oh well.. that's a suggestion..
Mother's day is coming soon, i think.
I'm not really sure.. i dun even know what to get for my mum.. i haven't got a single clue..
Music.
I think i need to stop listening to pop/emo musics.. i gotta start listening to christian music.. and my damn ipod is sort of spoiled.. i have no idea how.. but yeahh.. tomorrow i gotta send it for repair.. sigh.. its so troublesome.. sigh.. i hope the repair dosent cost as much as getting a new one..
ARGH!!
everything's spoiled or went wrong or going to go wrong or everything is falling apart.. what the hell mann.. suddenly it feels like every friday is friday 13..
Labels: Cold day, emo, everything is falling apart, ipod spoiled, mother's day
10:35 PM
Thursday, May 03, 2007
tomorrow my mum's leaving for Macau then to China for some convention.. its kinda sad.. oh well.. looks like i can't ask anyone for help if i can't find anything.. she will be back on the 9th may.. its so long!! i mean.. the number of days seems long.. but as days passes.. i guess it isnt that long.. oh well.. COME BACK SOON!! so that i wont be stuck with my dad for so long.. sigh..
Labels: mum leaving for convention
9:31 PM
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
today has been a VERY COLD day for me.. seriously.. i dunno why all my friends claims that its hot.. but i'm like freezing at my seat the whole day.. oh well.. but i sure do hope that it keeps on raining.. i rather be freezing in my seat and know that the plants and crops out there is living then melt in my seat and let the plants outside die of dehydration.. and do me a favour.. i saw this poll.. thought that it's quite cute! so here is one..
Get your own Poll! Labels: Cold day, Quiz
6:16 PM
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
3 piece of news. I AM GONNA RE-PAINT MY ROOM!!! ok.. not exactly re-paint my room but i'll be having painters painting my room!!!
I AM HAVING BLOODY PAINFUL CRAMPS THE WHOLE DAY!!! of all days.. i have to have a very painful cramp on a holiday! can't it be on a school day so i can go home to rest cause i'm having stomach cramp.. I AM NOT PIERCING MY EAR.. ok.. so after very little consideration but having quite a few people telling me not to pierce and one is enough.. yeahh.. i guess i shouldn't pierce anymore.. (:
Labels: i am gonna re-paint my room, i am having bloody painful cramps, i am not piercing my ears
3:58 PM
Monday, April 30, 2007
these few days have been very overwhelming though i dunno why.. i mean.. come on.. if all your life you come home and you feel fine.. not tired and suddenly for the past 2 weekdays i have been coming home early and i feel so tired.. i have no idea why.. so i guess i'm overwhelmed which makes me feel pathetic cause i do nothing which will make me overwhelm by any chance.. Anyway.. i have this problem.. on wednesday, i'm going to pierce my right ear at the 7th position.. and i am having A LOT of doubts.. i mean as usual my classmates would ask me to go for it.. and i have only asked one person in church.Felicia. she says that one is enough.. hmm.. i'm not sure.. well.. come to think of it.. what have i ever been sure these few weeks? Nothing. and thats pathetic.. at the end of this post.. i'm gonna really feel really pathetic
GOTTA BE MORE POSTIVE!! I'M NOT PATHETIC.. I'M GLAD! yeahh.. thats the word.. glad! [oh mann.. i'm lying thru my teeth..]
this is totally random but Mockingbird - Eminem, is the only song i know that is sort of the things that is happening except for MOST of the parents problems.. Everything is falling apart..
Labels: doubts, everything is falling apart, glad?
9:12 PM
Sunday, April 29, 2007
have you ever been scared of going to school on the first day of the school after a whole load of fun weekend?
well.. for my case.. i think sunday is the only fun day of the weekend.. anyways.. monday is always so intimidating to me.. not because i did anything wrong or whatsoever.. its because monday to me is called english day.. cause we have the most number of english period on that day and reading period on that day too.. cause before reading period is our english period and the english period would always drag and we will always be late for reading period.without fail. and i can definatly wait for monday to come but after monday.. i can't wait for friday to come! yeahh.. that's how i usually look forward for my weekdays.. because this way is somehow quite fast yet slow at times.. Do i make sense? i hope i do.. oh mann! i can't wait for the june holidays to come! then i'll have like a whole month free from work and i can dye my hair! thats if my school dun require us to come back.. i really hope not because i am not the kind of students who loves the school to the extend i am willing to come back during the holls.. i rather be grounded at home then go back to school.. but for church, its totally different.. cause thats where i can finally see my chruch friends for after like 1 whole week.. yeahh.. i'm more of a chruch person then a school person.. like d-uh!
Labels: holidays, i don't like school, i love church people
10:52 PM
just had my dinner/supper after the prayer concert.. i swear it will be the last time i am ever having dinner/supper with them.. they made my prayer totally useless.. and they made me so pissed that i have never in my entire life been pissed before.. i shan't name names.. trust me.. i am NEVER gonna talk to them.. and if they don't back off.. i swear you will never see me for service ever again.. if i ever go again.. i would wear a jacket and look damn emo for that would be the real me.no matter how much i deny.
Labels: pissed
12:00 AM
Saturday, April 28, 2007
its been quiet a while since i last update.. since the last time i updated to like now.. quite a lot of good and even more bad stuff happened.. its quite surprising for me cause its like only 6 days only..
on the 24th was my Aunt's Birthday..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KOH KOH RUBY!
25th - i stop.
26th - mugging for exams
27th - i start.mye english and chinese paper 1, finally started on my paper-cut which i don't have much time left..
28th - sitting here in front of my computer listening to shakila's blog music which i have been listening everyday because the songs there actually makes me feel emotionless which is good cause i wont be emo!
I LOVE SONGS IN SHAKILA'S BLOG!!!
Labels: happy birthday.
4:00 PM
Sunday, April 22, 2007
i have been emo the whole day.. not the right day to be emo.. but neverthe less i was.. tomorrow is going to be a LONG day.. having POA extra lessons till 5.30 from 2.15. i am so glad that at night i wasnt as emo as the afternoon.. thanks justin y.! yeahh.. thats all for now.. mann.. i am so gonna have a pretty hand on next sunday to keep away from questions.. looks like i gotta stop on wednesday.. oh well.. night!
Labels: emo
10:21 PM
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
i swear that this year, even though it's much better then last year in terms of problems in school created by classmates, this year the problems that is stuck with me has increased! and guess what? no one caused my problems! it just sort of flew there.. amazing right? haha.. i guess i allow it to enter without myself knowing.. the amazing thing is that i dun even realise that it flew to me until i start throwing out my feelings and emotions on my blog and when people start to tell me that i am emo. i guess thats when i realise..
MID-YEARS ARE COMING! In 10 days! i can't believe its so soon already.. but yeahh.. first paper is English Paper 1 then 10 days later my paper 2 will start.. Actually, i'm quite glad that its so soon cause that means this year will be ending soon and then next year i will be in sec 4 which means i am getting nearer to the 'N' levels which i have been waiting for cause i can only work with stress!
my only request would be the people in my present class whom are the unpleasant people would just retain so that we wont have to see them in next year class!
9:56 PM
Sunday, April 15, 2007
i guess all i need is a friend whom have actually gone thru what i am going thru now and is willing to listen to me and not only listen to me when i seem to be going overboard.. i guess thats all i need to open up.. but there seem to be no one who have gone thru what i am going thru now.. oh well..
Ahh!! MID-YEARS ARE COMING!! in like 11 days!! can you belive it? ok.. so maybe that's only the english paper 1 and then 10 days to stress myself with all my subjects!! i have no idea why.. i dun usually stress myself over MID-YEARS all my life.. oh well.. i guess i want to do well for this year..
to ALL my friends, if you EVER see me HAVING FUN this few days, NAGG at me to STUDY!! but the only time i will be going out it to get viven her birthday present and MAYBE catch a movie.. sigh.. there aint much shows that catch my eyes these few days.. anyway.. back to track.. other then those days, NAGG at me to STUDY!! trust me, i will really appreciate that!
10:35 PM
Friday, April 13, 2007
omg.. you are so fickled minded..
how the hell am i gonna tell you things without me wondering whether you would be telling anyone what i told you?
How do i trust you?
It's Difficult to do it.
And to think that I ever liked you.
There is no way i would EVER help you with my friends!
Labels: i hate fickled, i wont trust you
10:50 PM
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
I Clarice tan, hereby declare that there is something very wrong with me. I, do not know myself anymore, I am doing everything not at my own will but at other's. I am troubled all the time and i do not know why. Am I in self-denial? I do not know. Am I depressed? I do not know. Am I possessed? I do not know. What i know is that I am not the person whom I used to be, used to know. So if anyone out there know what i used to be, please tell me because i desperately need to regain my old self.
Labels: help me someone.
10:01 PM
Monday, April 09, 2007
i just realise something..
after reading most of my post.. i just realise something.
SOMETHING'S WRONG WITH ME!!
why?!
- cause i have hardly been posting anymore post.
- i am turning very EMO worse then when i am just emo.
- i find myself sort of introvert-ish
- i feel like MY LIFE IS SO SCREWED UP!!!
Labels: my life is screwed up, something's wrong with me
4:19 PM
Monday, April 02, 2007
hey! i know its been a long time since the last post.. sorry! i was sort of addicted to Roswell! haha.. though its a old show.. its nice!! haha.. anyway.. it was april fool's day yesterday and it was also Late Uncle Colin's B'dae.. its was sadd.. anyway.. taking things on the brighter note.. shakila fooled me!! and i fooled her back! haha!! and today is sadly the start of the day.. and tomorrow is NAPFA 2.4km run at yio chu kang stadium.. sigh.. i am so gonna fail.. never the less.. wiosh me gd luck!!
P.S i finally told nicholas that i am quitting program on sunday.. so i am out of program ministry! [dunno why i feel so free..]
Labels: April Fool's Day, Late Uncle Colin's B'dae, NAPFA
10:54 PM
Sunday, March 25, 2007
1. Is your default picture your natural hair color?No Default Picture 2. Where was your default pic taken?No Default Picture 3. What's your middle name?I dun have a middle name sadly.. 5. Honestly, does your crush(s) like you back?dont have one 6. What's your current mood?sad and emo7. What color shirt are you wearing?BLACK! =D8. What makes you happy, honestly?Being with all my church friends! 9. Are you musically inclined?ok.. 10. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day- what would you be?a squirrel.. kinda cute! 11. Ever had a near death experience?nope.12. Something you do a lot?using the com.smsing.talking to people.13. What's the name of the song stuck in your head right now?Crash and Burn.[yes.. i know.. very old song]14. Who did you copy and paste this survey from?shane15. Name someone with the same b-day as you?Jessica!!16. When was the last time you cried?today17. If you could have one super power what would it be?being able to tell what that person is thinking or what emotion that person i having.18. What's the first thing you notice about the OPPOSITE sex? face20. What’s your biggest secret?it wont be a secret anymore if i say..21. What's your favorite color? brown and black.22. When was the last time you lied?Hmm.. 23. Do you watch kiddy tv shows or movies?both24. Do you have a best friend?of course25. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be? change my attitude of emoness 26. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?water27. Do you speak any other language?malay?28. What’s your biggest regret?piercing my earLabels: Quiz
10:31 PM
in conclusion.. i am out of program ministry.i quit.i guess the reason would be i am not able to commit especially being on time.. so maybe that was the reason why i was suspended.anyways.. i haven't really told nicholas yet but sam wong.jazlyn.delane.shakila.izabella knows about it cause i told them and i **** on sam wong's shoulder.. thanks sam! so yep.. today is a very counselling day cause i was counselled by like what? 4-5 people.. its no joke! anyway.. i will still be meeting the gals during bible study i guess! oh well.. trying real hard to think of the bright side!Labels: bright side
7:35 PM
you know.. i am not sure if it's me but i really dun understand the ministry system.. i mean during ministry fair they said "this ministry fair is NOT like a CCA fair, you dun have to choose right away or neither is it compulsory to choose" ok.. so they said it is NOT like CCA, then why is it that ministries kick people when they are late for more then 3 times? i mean school is like if you dun go for a lot of times they will give you a warning letter then they will call your parents then out you go from that cca.. where as in church.. my ministry head just came up to me and after dinner and told me he wanted to talk to me then he said that he is giving me a suspension until i tell him i can go on time for duty then my suspension is off.. i mean wth lahh.. what kind of suspension is this? at least say like 'oh! you are suspended for 2 months of duty or 2 times of duty' wth.. and the best part is that he didnt even give me a warning or anything and like 'oh!you are suspended!' and he couldnt even tell me in a straight face! what a loser! oh well.. i am gonna be out of program ministry 'frontline' duty for a while.. a LONG while.. i aint talking to him any soon.. the only thing i will miss is the Bible Study on Saturday and then Dinner with my friends to catch up!
12:20 AM
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
emo.COUNTDOWN : 9 MONTHS AND 10 DAYS Labels: emo
11:01 PM
Monday, March 19, 2007
ARGH!!! SCHOOLS GETTING SUCKY AGAIN!!! ok.. this time its not the pupils in the school is MY CHEM TEACHER!.. aparantly he is also me cme teacher and he is also gonna relived the class i am in for 6 MONTHS! and he aparantly knows my small group leader! SAM!! and he told me that they actually CHAT! and i have no idea how their chat had to do with me but yes! he found out that sam's my small group leader and sam found out that he is my chem teacher.. and the worst part is that i dun really behave in his class.. i mean NO ONE actually does behave or pay attention in class.. and i AM paying attention.. which is very gd cause almost eveyone ask me "WHY THE HELL DO YOU EVEN PAY ATTENTION IN CLASS? FAIL.. THEN FAIL LAH" and i just gave them a shrugged.. and now he knows my small group leader.. he even told me her results wth! and he dosent want to tell me what they talked about and how ME came into the picture! well.. he did say that i have to pass WELL then he will tell me.. wtf.. i already pass the common test.. and he told me that this class test he is confident that only 5 people will pass.. what a great motivation for me to pass! -.- Argh!! i dun care!! i am not gonna wait till next monday to let him tell me my results and tell me what they talked about.. i am gonna get sam tell me whether she wants or not.. wahahahah... i am a nice person!Labels: shit
6:34 PM
Saturday, March 17, 2007
today is my mum's birthday!yay!! had dinner at the near by coffee shop[ok.. so you must be thinking.. wth.. birthday at a coffee shop..]the food was GREAT! sadly.. didnt get the chance to take any pictures.. well.. that was the great part.. now for the saddening part.. they found out about my 4th hole piercing.. i mean.. who was i kidding.. how long can i keep it from them? anyways.. what a bad day to find out.. and surprisingly.. all i got was a lecture.. and a long talk with them.. on the dinner table! wth.. well.. thankfully it was today which my piercing was found out... i mean if it was a normal day.. i would have been dead.. i wont receive a lecture ALONE.. anyways.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!
Labels: happy birthday. caught
10:20 PM
Friday, March 16, 2007
ME SO BORED!!
I DO NOT KNOW WHY.. ITS BEEN THIS LONG SINCE I HAVE BEEN THESE BORED!
anyways.. i met sam phua at pasir ris macs today with shakila! studied there.. had lunch then left at 4 odd plus and met up with delane at the macs near my house and had dinner.. sigh.. thats all.. study study study.. what gd gurls we are! anyways.. i found these wedsite.. you can click here to go there.. dun worry.. i wont send you to some illegal website.its my favourite radio blog!
COUNTDOWN : 9 MONTHS 15 DAYS
Labels: bored..
11:25 PM
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Left for Batam today.Back from Batam today.what the trip consist of -2hrs ride on a "ferry-boat"-Stuck with 2 business man through out the trip there.. :( Seperated from my parents :) - 2 stops worth of sightseeing at the waterfront and headed out for a seafood lunch-went for a cultural show right after lunch.. so much for a cultural show, my mum told me to pray for some stuff cause the 'cultural show' is performing about their god they even made a mascot of their god.. LOL.well i was listening to 98.7fm while they were doing their ritual or some stuff.. and the reception was BAD!! well.. the most stunning part is that there is this guy who suddenly came out of no where and use his teeth to ripped apart a coconut even wth teh husk.. they he ate a burning paper [paper literally on fire] and swallowed a broken glass.. took out a tyre on fire and he jumped through it.. IT WAS SO STUPID!! ESPECIALLY THE ENDING!! after the whole thing.. they took out a bucket and ask for donations.. LOL.. how pathetic can they be? He was probably hypnothise by some evil spirit.. [Believe it or not.. this is not even half of the trip yet..]-stop at some 'ma-ma shop'-visit another 'famous' buddhist temple.. i mean COME ON! we already visted 1 temple and we still have to visit another one.. wth..-POLO-t was the next stop.. bought like 2 black shirt.1 dark brown shirt.1 white shirt cause my dad complained that my life and closet is dark.no colours.. oh well.. no comments on that.. i have been emo.. no surprise..-FINALLY!!! SHOPPING!!!didnt really do much though.. the BIGGEST shoping area in batam is only 3 level with nothing to buy or find... so just bought loads of chewing and bubble gums.. -2 hours on the way back.. COUNTDOWN : 9 MONTHS 16 DAYS
10:12 PM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
i was looking at the pictures of last year.. from Shakila's blog video to the Photos of TOFU last year.. and at every picture i look it kinda brought back a nice mermory [so you can imagine the number of mermory i had.. lol..] after looking at the pictures.. i search through my whole room making a mess of it to look for the christmas cards i received for my first christmas in ym since sec one.. and now i feel like i had tons of fun times in ym so far.. but i definatly can't wait for the major holidays because those are the time where i have major fun! like tofu and camp or other activities which is participated by a lot of people!so in conclusion.. I CANT WAIT FOR JUNE AND DECEMEBR HOLLS!!! THATS WHERE ALL THE FUN COMES!!
COUNTDOWN - 9 MONTHS AND 18 DAYS... Labels: mermories i had in ym..
9:32 PM
oh noo!!! i will be going to batam with my parents on thursday.. and i dun want to go!! wahh!!! cause i am neither close to my dad or my mum.. dun even talk about my brother.. and i dun want to go!! its sounds so far yet its not that far.. sigh.. i dun think anything i say will change my parents minds about me not going for these trip.. i can so imagine the trip now.. me with my family on the boat.. me at the side sulking.. parents at the other side looking out happily while i still sulk. what a nice trip huh? oh mann.. i dun wanna go!!! *sobs*
2:35 PM
Saturday, March 10, 2007
yay!! i bought a new bag!!! i am so happy!! just after dinner.. i was walking with my mum to the new 'pasa malam' which was just 'build up' thats why its new... somehow.. anyway.. i was looking at the bag and i saw these bag and i like it! its a imitation of the adidas bag.. which didnt really matter to me.. its green and white!oh mann.. and my mum bought it for me!! i am so happy!!
10:12 PM
Friday, March 09, 2007
I WILL NOT DO SOMETHING STUPID EVER AGAIN!! I TOTALLY REGRET PIERCING MY EAR.. ITS HURTS LIKE HELL!!AND THAT PART OF MY EAR LOOKS LIKE IT WAS BITTEN BY A VAMPIRE!! ANYWAYS.. HERES A TIP! NEVER PIERCE YOUR EAR MORE THEN ONE ON EACH SIDE ESPECIALLY ON THE BONE!
9:25 PM
Thursday, March 08, 2007
OHH NO!!! tomorrow my mum is meeting the HOD department of Chinese for my CLB course.. at the same time i am going to school.. and i have to tie my hair and she will see my piercing unless she is too tired to miss it which is highly impossible by the way.. so after hearing that and being depressed.. i had to visit the IMH.. stands for Institute of Mental Health... the visit there was a great experience! just seeing how happy the people were when we went there ALMOST brought tears to my eye.. ALMOST.. but sadly it didnt.. when it ended which was quite fast cause we werent looking at the time and was having fun there.. the teacher brought us to the cafeteria to have a drink while waiting for the bus to bring us back to school.. my form teacher..[whom i highly dislike.not hate.dislike] approached me and 'inform' me that my mum is coming tomorrow.. i mean like hello? i know my mum is coming tomorrow.. she is my mum for goodness sake! anyway.. she said that she is going to seek my mum's opinion on my hair.. for her infomation again.. she isnt the first teacher who is gonna ask my mum about my hair.. so many teacher already did.. but i can be sure that she will not be the last! so all i am worried about is that tomorrow there is a high possibility that my ear will be caught!wish me luck!
6:56 PM
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
i pierced my ear today.. at the fourth hole.. sigh.. so stress.. it was quite nice though.. tomorrow i might be doing another one at the 7th or 8th hole.. sadly it would be at the boneso i hope it wont be that painfull and i hope i wont make the wrong mistake piercing at the bone.. cause it's said that if you pierce at the bone area in your ear.. it would not only hear but will have sight effect when you are older.. i hope to pierce there.. it would be quite nice i think.. and should be able to get rid of the stress i am in! besides.. the one i pierced today wasnt that painful like after 1 min or so.. so wish me gd luck in my other piercing which i will be doing tomorrow!
10:30 PM
Sunday, March 04, 2007
So far this is my latest list!
Things i want to do before i turn 17 :
-Go to Paris without any parents
-Have 10 sleepovers [oNLY hAD 2 eXCLUDING cAMPS]
-Try American Pizza [dONE]
-Dye my hair[dONE.. wITH tHE 3rd cOLOUR]
-Learn to Forgive and Forget[aLMOST dONE]
-Find a part-time job at Gift a Name or Precious Moments
-Play with dolphins
-Buy a new Handphone[dONE]
-Have friends and no Enemies[fINALLY sUCCEDED]
-Having Fun all the time [dONE]
-Reach on time for ushering duty and church for 1 mth[its going to be impossible]
-Stop using vulgarities and hitting people [dONE]
-Lead a cheerful life [trying..real hard]
1:09 AM
ok.. after talking to 'uncle' the whole day.. i am scared.he said i will be seeing a poser tomorrow...
though i know who he is talking about.. i dun want to see him.. maybe cause i still dun really know the meaning of poser.. but i dun look forward to looking at one.. and the person whom i have been trying to avoid.. hopefully you dun turn up tomorrow.. it will totally ruin my day.. or rather.. if you turn up tomorrow.. DUN TALK TO ME!!! just try to make urself invisible or imagine i am invisible.. cause tomorrow is a nice day.. and i dun want to ruin it! thank you! [and please DO NOT ask me who if you dunno.. if you know.. dun tell anyone!]if that person know that he is the one i have been talking about.. i dun wish to be friends with you anymore cause :
-you are scary
-you are annoying
-you are irritating
-you are wierd
-you are VERY persuasive
-you think highly of yourself
-you keep asking scary questions
-you are scaring a lot of people without realising it
-i regret starting to talk to you and be friendly with you
-you do not know the limits of asking a question or bugging a person!
12:50 AM
Friday, March 02, 2007
SHAKILA!!! I LOVE YOU!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I OWE YOU BIG TIME!!! I JUST HOPE THAT HE DOSENT ANNOY YOU AS WHAT HE DID TO YOU KNOW WHO.. THANK YOU VERY MUCH!! JUST TELL ME ANYTHING AND I WOULD DO.. [within means or nothing stupid!]THANK YOU!! YOU ROCK!!!! LOVE YA!!! LOVE LOVE!!!
SHAKILA ROCKS!!!
today.. school is BORING!! i mean its nothing new.. but i could have stayed at home and watch bleach since i already skip school.. so when i come back on monday.. it really seems like i am sick.. and i decided not to visit the doctor since i already had medicine.. and the teacher would just ignore me!! oh well.. well.. something did happen today.. our class and 3A class[the best class in sec three] had a fight!! like physically.. with a lot of unpleasant older people.. since the class i am in is full or unpleasant people.. i pity 3A though.. cause i have a lot of friends there.. wierd right? its like having more friends in 3A then 3N4 and we are like 7 class different[according to your smartness..] yep.. but school is still boring..
PLEASE CONTINUE TO RAIN!!! LOVE THE WEATHER!! ITS SO COOLING!! IT HELPS THE GRASS AND TREE TO HAVE ENOUGH WATER WITHOUT US SPRAYING WATER AT IT!! LET IT RAIN! LET IT RAIN! LET IT RAIN!
4:49 PM
Thursday, March 01, 2007
YAY!!! IT'S RAINING!!!
quite glad cause its been quite a while seen it rain so nicely.. and i hope the rain dosent end so soon.. maybe a couple more days? :p i am seriously bored here... dun want to disturb the uncle.. still thinking on what to get for my friend.. and looking forward for friday and saturday so i can sleep late on saturday and go badminton on saturday.. thats if i dun oversleep... then maybe i can go out with shakila and delane.. and i hope i can ignore a guy who would be going there every week.. life is so complicating..
3:25 PM
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
today was a boring day and tomorrow will be if it dosent rain.. so please rain cause i do not want to run 2.4km and neither would anyone in my class want too.. today it rained heavily and left school around 3 plus.. reach home at 4pm.. and chat on the phone.. since i am so bored.. i have been bored ever since sunday even though i have been having common test.. but my boredom... can only talk to certain people cause some people i talk too.. i will fall asleep.. but anyway.. i shan't name name's.. oh well.. so i didnt do much today other then talking and reading.. sorry uncle for disturbing you ever since sunday! :/ so anyways.. these is what i had for dinner.. and believe it or not.. its was like the first time i cook rice this year! that shows the great improvement i made after not cooking rice for like 5 months.. i barely remember the amount of water to put in!
Rice!
Something nice.. but i dunno what's it called..
9:46 PM
Monday, February 26, 2007
three days worth of post..
24/02/07
had program ministry meeting and bible study right away after that.. during program meeting we had to choose our team jersey colours and our team chose Lime Green with White words!!during bible study.. i felt that the words that was used was quite chim.. so these are the words that i dunno the meaning.. supple.sacrament.liturgical.eucharist.orthodox.re-emphasis.doctrine.
25/02/07
after lunch when to study with delane.shakila.jazlyn.gordon.felicia.jerylyeo.justinyeo.it was quite fun cause it was the first time when we actually study study... yep so i am having 5 common test in the next few days... [P.S thanks for teaching uncle!]
26/02/07
had chemistry and physics common test today... the paper was like half an hour each and i took like hours to stud.. wth mann.. anyway.. i am revising my math now... geog is a prepared to fail sub.. well.. thats all for now..
9:42 PM
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
its been a long time since i last post! oh well.. time flys..not very fast though cause i feel as if half a year is gone but the second month is not really over yet so i still dunno why i said time flys.. anyway.. its CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!! yay!!! ok.. i know its a bit late but yea!cause i have been visiting a lot so this post is like 4 days late i think.. or maybe its 3 days late.. oh well.. its still late.. i dunno why but these few days i have been having dreams that there would be a new american kid in town and ended up in our class [which is totally impossible cause no american kid results would be that bad to end up in my school let alone the class i am in.. so anyway..] and he is like the tallest guy there.. maybe thats because the guys in my class aint that tall.. and his english is really awesome.. maybe because of his slang...and then.. the stupid alarm clock rang so i woke up off the alarm clock.. when back to sleep.. didnt dream of that dream at all.. dunno what i dream anyway.. and woke up at noon and realise that i overslept and didnt go to school.. what a nice day!
10:23 PM
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
FINALLY!!!! i can go online.. well... only on my bro's com though and unfortunatly i cannot go online on msn cause my bro claims that his com will HANG when online on msn.. which i def dun believe him cause he has been online on msn like TONS of times.. I DUN HAVE TO GO FOR ENGLISH REMEMDIAL!!!!! i am so happy! i dun have to go for english remedial and listen to my english teacher talk nonsense[thats pratically the only thing she does during english period!].. btw.. WHO'S YOUR VALENTINE?!?!?!?! well.. for shakila its kinda obvious but she just dosent want to admit so i shall not make her embaress :p .. YAY! for Hwa Chong! they won The Arena.. its so obvious lahh! i mean hello? the CHIJ Katong Convent gal was like 'could you repeat ur question?' wth mann.. i cannot believe she ask that.. she just totally embarress herself and the indian gal was like'i felt that my team did a VERY GOOD Job!' lols... anyway.. can't wait to find out who is teh Ultimate winner! oh ya! btw.. it was Ruiting birthday yesterday..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUITING!!!!!!!!
till the next time i get to go online! nitez..
10:16 PM
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
i cut my hair! can you believe it? it suppose to be an inch shorter but when i tie it up it looks so short.. oh well.. LET IT RAIN TOMORROW! its a thursday and that means it's P.E day and i am not looking forward.. so please pray that it will rain tomorrow.. sianz.. got to sleep already.. take care and god bless! night
11:30 PM
Monday, February 05, 2007
had AMZING RACE yesterday and i reach home like at about 10-11pm.i was so tired mann.. had to wait for my hair to dry before i could sleep which was about almost 11.30 plus.. these few days i have been having very little hours to sleep like i only manage to sleep for :
Saturday - Sunday = 1.40 hours
Sunday - Monday = 6 hours
and today i have about 5 hours left to sleep? anyways.. when i woke up today.. my ankle hurts alot.. probably from the walking we did yesterday.. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?!? we walk from Lavender MRT Station all the way to Shaw Tower!!! thanks to Shui Min and Clayton who told us to go to drop at Lavender MRT Station.. and shui min said:'when you come out you can see the Shaw Tower.' yea right.. we walked like for almost 40 mins before we are able to find the station masters for that particular station.well.. the good thing was we know more about each other in our group! :D
11:40 PM
Saturday, February 03, 2007
this is quite late but.. YAY!! THE FIRST MONTH IS OVER ALREADY!! HURRY UP! LET THIS YEAR END ASAP!!! WHEE!!! After reading shakila's blog.. i realise that the first month is over!hahax.. i know i am very slow but NO ONE can be happier then me that the first month is over(: anyways.. tomorrow is the Amazing race which almost everyone has been talking about for the past week or so and sadly ruiting is not coming so i shall be like an idiot in the whole group which is not the first time so i am already use to it... cause when you are with a whole group of people who are so darn smart and smarter then you.. you know how it feels to be an idiot!this is for the person whom i know everytime i call you dun answer and you keep saying that you got problem call me and tell me! 'thanks for not answering you phone and i really appreciate you not answering your phone everytime and still keep asking me to call you when i have problems! _l_'
9:40 PM
Friday, February 02, 2007
FUCK YOU!!!!!STOP ASSUMING THINGS CAN?!?!?!?!ITS GETTING ONTO MY FREAKING NERVES! CAN YOU JUST IGNORE ME! FUCKERS!!!! I HATE YOU! it dosent concern anyone
9:43 PM
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
today.is the day where i dread tomorrow because i dun like tomorrow! its the day where i have cca and P.E i mean P.E is not to most relax lesson and i will be having a long day tomorrow!can it rain tomorrow?? pretty please! let it rain let it rain let it rain!!! tomorrow!! IN THE MORNING!so i can SKIP P.E!! whee!!so MUST rain tomorrow!sigh.. can definatly wait for tomorrow to come!i dun want tomorrow to arrive so soon! wahh!! anyway.. i can't wait for exams to come so that i can have things to do! i have like NO HOMEWORK.NO TEST COMING UP.NO EXAMS.NO REMEDIAL.i feel so wierd.. almost everyone in church have like either LOADS of homework or NEVER ENDING HOMEWORK.but i have NO homework and it's NOT GOOD.so can someone do me a favour?ASK ME TO HELP YOU DO STUFF!
10:02 PM
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
so everything when well today with the help of samuel with his ways in speaking in a very extrodinary sacarstic way.went out for lunch with yiting after school then she accompanied me to shops asking if they are hiring any part-timers when to so many shops.. got turn down so many times that if anyone says no to me.. i am fine with it! (: finally after going to so many shops.. we went to mac.the reason we didnt go to mac at first is because i am afraid of injection and we need to have an injection because we are touching food.so aparantly MacDonald[Hougang Mall] is looking for people to work and the pay is $2.80/hr while Long John Silver[Clarke Quay] is looking for people and is paying $3.00-3.50/hr.already told my dad about it and he said we are gonna have a conversation at night.. so i hope my parents allow me to work! (:
4:51 PM
Sunday, January 28, 2007
studying in church rawks!! cause there are like so many people in church that you can ask especially most of them are older then you! :p anyways.. was suppose to do chem but i forgot to bring the work. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?! today during worship they sang a song i still cant remember the title but i think it was MIGHTY TO SAVE.this is my favourite song!so here's the lyrics to it![gzerrel helped me find!i have no idea how he manage to do it!]
Song: Mighty to Save
When everyone needs compassion,
And love that never fails,
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness,
Kindness of the SaviourThe Hope of the nation
(Chorus:)
Saviour,
He can move the mountain,
My god is mighty to save,
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i’d believe in
Now i surrender (and i surrender)
(Bridge:)
Shine a light in and let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
10:08 PM
woke up like about 2pm today cause the night before i was helping my dad with his documents and slept late.. had bible study in church today and we watch a movie during the bible study.. the movie was interesting expecially the topic that they were touching on.after that we were seperated in 5 different groups by counting ourself off from 1-5.during the group discussion the group was darn quiet and nicholas was heading it and i felt very uncomfortable during the group discussion like how i feel uncomfortable during small group session so i went out and drag delane along.. after that i had dinner with a lot of program team members after that i headed home! anyway.. for tomorrow.. i am still planning on where to go while they rest of them are going for small group... wish me luck! i really hope i am doing the right thing..
1:19 AM
Friday, January 26, 2007
finally reach home.. today has been an enjoyable yet exhausting day.. right away after school went to attend for our class ex-co meeting.. so after the short-pathetic meeting i went for lunch and went back to class to decorate the classroom for the upcoming Chinese New Year which is a complet failure cause there were not many materials for us to use to decorate so we use the time to take pictures instead! ok.. gonna have dinner now! ttul!
7:08 PM
Thursday, January 25, 2007
today's weather is so shiok lahh! in class during the break in between our POA n MATH class.. the whole class just slept and the teacher could'nt resist teasing us that we look like we are in a childcare, we everyone sleeps during the nap time!hahah.. sadly i could'nt enjoy the weather cause i had my cca at 03.30 - 05.30.well.. at least our cca is at the computer room! :) today the POA topic was just darn compicating! i am having HUGE doubts that i will pass my POA common test! darn it! oh well.. thats all for today!
7:14 PM
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
hey!i kinda like this poem on friends!FrIeNd iS t0..(A)ccepts you as you are(B)elieves in "you"(C)alls you just to say "HI"(D)oesn't give up on you(E)nvisions the whole of you(F)orgives your mistakes(G)ives unconditionally(H)elps you(I)nvites you over(J)ust "be" with you(K)eeps you close at heart(L)oves you for who you are(M)akes a difference in your life(N)ever Judges(O)ffers support(P)icks you up(Q)uiets your fears(R)aises your spirits(S)ays nice things about you(T)ells you the truth when you need tohear it(U)nderstands you(V)alues you(W)alks beside you(X)plain things you don't understand(Y)ells when you won't listen and(Z)aps you back to reality..Anyway.. i dyed my hair.. the colour was supposingly to be blonde but it turn out to be some light brown colour which was ok.. cause there is a colour! though the colour didnt appear where i wanted it to be.. anyway.. gonna watch tv soon! ta-ta
7:00 PM
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
this is gonna be a long.emo post so you guys shouldnt waste time reading it...didnt go school today.. was too tired and sick to go school...by the time i woke up was about 10.30-11.30 first thing i did was to check my temp and was about 37.60 ºC.. so i went online to check on the TONI & GUY ACADEMY.. aparantly they were looking for models for their students to like sort of practice on ? since both my friend and i want to highlight our hair pink or blue i called them up.. and aparantly we have to make an appointment and we have to pay for them to cut.. its about $8 to cut hair and like $18 onwards for dyeing the hair.. its quite cheap though.. compared to the normal salon.. so i dun mind going there to dye hair..
I DUN WANT TO GO FOR SG!! I HATE THIS YEAR SG I AM IN!!I WANT TO BE IN THE SAME SG LIKE LAST YEAR!!!WHY DO YOU HAVE TO SEPERATE US INTO DIFFERENT SG ?CANT YOU SEE THAT WE WANT TO BE IN THE SAME SG ?SCREW YOU GUYS LAHH!EVERYTHING IS ALSO UP TO YOU!EVEN IF WE HAVE A PETITION IT IS ALSO USELESS! GO AND DIE LAHH! in short.i dun want to go for small group this year.if i am being force, i'll go for the nine or eleven service and no more then that.
4:27 PM
Sunday, January 21, 2007
today i didnt go for service.was like sitting outside the chapel and doing nothing.then i went for small group.i dun even know why i went for small group but i did.it seems like there is no point for me going for small group cause i was just sitting at the corner doing nothing.but stone.i again dunno what has happen to my enthusiam in going for small group and church.just give me time.
6:54 PM
Saturday, January 20, 2007
I HATE THE TWO OF YOU! YOU BROKE YOUR PROMISE AND STILL ASK ME IF YOU WERE THE ONE WHO MADE ME UPSET! I HATE PEOPLE WHO BREAK THEIR PROMISES!I HATE PEOPLE WHO ARE NOSEY!I HATE PEOPLE WHO THINKS THAT THEY ARE SO 'BIG'I HATE BITCHY PEOPLE!I HATE PEOPLE WHO DAO PEOPLE THEN ONLY ASK THEM WHAT THEY SAY WHEN THEY FEEL THAT THAT PERSON IS ANNOYED.HATE PEOPLE WHO I HATE PEOPLE WHO ASK ME NOT TO LEAVE THEM ALONE YET THEY DO THE SAME THING TO MEI HATE ASSHOLES!I HATE PEOPLE WHO GIVE ME A MAYBE OR DUNNO ANSWER!I HATE PEOPLE WHO KEEP ANNOYING ME OR SHOOTING ME!I HATE PATHETIC PEOPLE.I HATE PEOPLE WHO DONT TREAT OTHERS EQUALLY LIKE ME COUSIN.who sucks to the coreI HATE PEOPLE WHO ARE SACRASTICI HATE PEOPLE WHO CHANGE AND THINK THAT THEY ARE THE SAME OLD FUN PERSON THAT THEY USE TO BE!MOST OF ALL.I HATE YOU!all these things is meant to let you know! unless you are not that bright to figure out its for you!i have changed.for better or for worse i would'nt know.but i am not the person you knew days or hours ago.i dunno why.i may seem the same.all i hope is that though my faith in him is weak.it will not be lost.
6:59 PM
Sunday, January 14, 2007
13th January '06FUSION!!!yesterday was fusion!it was so fun!the workshop was fine.i prefer the second workshop better though i was really tired cause the whole event started so early!when it came to the night rallies we were like jumping and jumping like no end.. unfortunatly it came to an end.but for one thing is that i am so glad that ruiting jump!! i mean.. she is a really quiet girl and for a long time she hasn't attend ym for a long time like for months!!so we are really proud of her!and seriously.it has been a
long time seeing everyone in ym jumping for joy.and it's has been a
long time since i jump for the lord! 14th January '06had ushering today.was late cause i overslept since i reach home late last night and i was really tired from the jumping.surprisingly i
had loads of fun and energy ushering today!then when for small group.had loads of fun during small groupand we played a game which was really funny.then
took pictures with
gzerrel cause he is
leaving on thursday :( sadd.. will miss him! then
daniel will be
leaving one week or so after him.wahh!!
everyone is leaving!! *tear* oh well.. must take picture with daniel before he leave!!
to wrap it up.. here is something gloria wants me to say.
FUSION ROCKS!
CHURCH RULES!
GLORIA MADE MY DAY.
6:30 PM
Friday, January 12, 2007
HELP!what the hell is wrong with me!! i feel that everything is
pointless.so
wierd now.blank.no emotion.no feeling.how can this happen to me.suddenly i have doubts in the one and only person whom i have trust all these years!
GOD.i mean of all times and of all people.it has to be me.and it has to be the time where i am at the
lowest point of the
freaking start of this freaking year!I AM SCARED.i am so glad that i still have my friends to guide me thru.i hope that i am not bothering you guys!tomorrow.-fusion.i hope that will help me alot with all my questions.
10:28 PM
Thursday, January 11, 2007
oh mann.. i caught a flu!whole day i have been listening to the nature sound of the rain.oh well.. have been rather down this few days.. emo.finding everything pointless.no feeling.no emotion.i dunno what's wrong with me but.yea.that has been happening to me.i dunno why.but what i do know is that tomorrow i have to go school and it SUCKS!the rest of this week : Friday-School.Saturday-FUSION!!! whee!!!Sunday-Church.
10:12 PM
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
fuck.fuck.fuck.this year sucks!first.suspended on the first day.phone get stolen on the third day.kena see police on the tenth day cause of alot of things.if you want to ask me.. ask me nicely.this year just sucks.and if it's a test from god to test me.it sucks!no offence.besides.so much has happen already i seriously wonder what else can happen to me? since i already find that a lot of things has turn pointless.. i just hope that the most important thing will not be pointless to me.
5:41 PM
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
whee!!! got new number!! and new handphone!!! ok.so here's the deal.i cant bring my handphone to school.which i dun mind.but i can bring to church!well.. was out the whole day.. so tired.but real happy.also because i am taking clb!!ok.so MAYBE it will affect my result cause i am only taking 5 subs.but its better then taking a sub which i ALREADY KNOW that i will be failing real badly so yep.it wont hurt anyway.[though i haven't talk to my parents about it yet.]too tired to talk to them about it.. got until friday to confirm with the teacher.. zZz...zzZ...
10:06 PM
Friday, January 05, 2007
wth.someone stole my handphone.do you know how much i hate this year?
first day.
GOT SUSPENDED for the
MOST STUPID REASON I HAVE EVER HEARD.Conversation :
"Clarice.ur hair QUITE messy arh.go stand infront.hurry up." *walk up infront* *discipline teacher came up.*
"CLARICE.WHY DO I HAVE A HUGE FEELING THAT YOU DYE UR HAIR ?"
*defences myself*[which obviously failed]
*receive pink form*
*walk out of school gate*
thats how i got suspended.
3rd day of school.
when for lunch at macs with friends.when back to school to go for publications meeting then when to do my homework at the canteen with my classmate.was using my handphone to sms then place it on my table.when i was about to leave a couple of mins later.phone gone.engaged.screwed.didnt tell parents but am now saviong up to 230 bucks so i can get the same phone and try to get the similiar number.sad mann.i dun have the heart to tell them.if only i can get a different phone.
10:03 PM
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
ok.
I HATE GOING TO SCHOOL!!!and i have a reason.
I GOT SUSPENDED ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.and the reason i get suspended is because my hair has colour!wth.ok.so maybe i am not the only one who is being suspended i was suspended with about 100 other pupils but my hair colour is so darn
NOT obvious.and i have to
DYE it black.there is like almost
NOTHING to dye
BACK!so just to please my discipline teachers who can see beautiful colours on my hair.i shall ask my mum to dye for me so if they have any problems.they can ask my mum!btw.school sucks!
MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION :
*be on time for Church stuff
*stop hitting people
*no vulgarities.
*no fighting
*learn to argue back with the teachers who wants to suspend me!
4:02 PM
Monday, January 01, 2007
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
whee!yesterday is the first time i attend a WatchNight Service!it was so cool especially since our WHOLE small group agreed on wearing a skirt for the Service! well.i didnt expect to have a countdown in church but there was one.though it wasnt really fancy.. there was a countdown!!as soon as the countdown ended. all of us when hugging people everywhere!!after the service ended, jia jun.gerald.i.we were deciding on whose house to go.either ryan's house or marcus house.cause marcus invited us over and jeremy ask us whether we want to go to ryan's house.so in the end we went to ryan's house.it was so much fun!! though we only played games it was just laughter thru out the whole night-morning.we played Apple to Apples.Pictionary.Munch"somthing".by the time we played the last game i was half asleep.i slept at about 5am going to 6am and woke up at about like 7 plus am.and when i reach home.i slept like a log for i dunno how many hours.ta-ta.
11:41 PM
Saturday, December 30, 2006
Merry Christmas!
28th-30th December 0628th December 06 Believe it or not! i watched
ERAGON! ok.if you know me.you would know that i never like to watch horror shows or shows which involve killing.but i watched
ERAGON!! ok.so Jazlyn.Delane.Charis.me went for lunch at tamp mall macs. after that we took neos and charis and i head off for the movie! while Jazlyn and Delane went to shop for skirts for sunday! well.. the show is alright.kinda impromtu so its
QUITE freaky.
quite only.can't wait for part 2 i heard that its better!
29th December 06finally!! we had our small group outing!! though this year small group outing was qutie short compared to last year's and this time it was held at tamp mall and watched a movie.
Curse of The Golden Flower.it was ok.but the ending of the show was damn retard!! i think this got to be the first time i see chow yong fatt act as a baddie!i think the most embaressing thing that happen today was what i wore cause the night before Jazlyn and i made a deal to wear something that we would
NOT DARE to wear it on a
normal sunday! so when i arrived.the whole small group were kinda shock!! and
Sam Png said :"wahh.i feel so young already!" i feel so
embaressed.cause
without wearing that people double my age already.. i wonder how old people will think i am! so after the movie we had lunch and Sam had to leave.so as my usual self who will not leave early.i head to Charis house for the whole afternoon-evening-night and by the time i reach home was about
midnight plus!!30th December 06when for badminton today!
SORRY SHAKILA!! SORRY!SORRY!SORRY!SORRY!SORRY!SORRY!SORRY!SORRY!SORRY!SORRY!SORRY!SORRY!SORRY!SORRY! badminton is so funny today cause its FUNNY!.lol.well.. met a new friend today! he is
Samuel![ta-daa] and on last monday i met 2 people! they are..
Edward and Daniel! hope that more people turn up for badminton next week then wont be so boring!
5:55 PM
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!
LOVE YA!
whee!! tomorrow going to watch eragon with Charis!having lunch with Jazlyn and Delane if it dosen't pour like today again.i guess after tomorrow i will be so bored again cause we are suppose to have a small group outing on the 29th of December.which i am definatly NOT going.its so retarded lahh.its like from LATE morning to AFTERNOON which will probably be around 11-3 or 4 something and its gonna be held at TAMPINES MALL.no offence or anything but I LIVE IN HOUGANG!! I NEED TO WAKE UP LIKE AT 9 PLUS JUST TO GO THERE FOR LIKE WHAT? LESS THEN 5 HOURS ITS RETARDED LAHH! ok.so maybe i am not the only one in the whole small group who stays in hougang.delane also though i dunno what she feels about it.but i find it RETARDED!!no offence sam! i am so annoyed!
People out of Town :
*Shaun - Jakarta
*Darrel - Jarkarta
*Carmen - Australia
Take Care!
12:53 AM
Monday, December 25, 2006
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
today was so fun!! hope ur Christmas will be a fun and Merry one! the whole day was just running around.giving prezzie.receiving prezzie and meeting new people!! then after that.our Group 5 from camp when for lunch at swensen! whee! but sadly after lunch we had to go seperate ways! ): had a family dinner it was a fun.filling dinner! long time since i catched up with my cousins! yepps! so once again :
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
LOVE YA ALL!!
1:19 AM
Saturday, December 23, 2006
18-21st December 06i LOVE ATC Camp!! it was so cool! i just wished that camps will be longer like a week or something thought the the organizer of that camp will die! but.it will definatly be fun and we will get to know each other better.(: and as usual.the last night of the camp rawks.just that we still have lights out.though the camp is fun.i still apologize to the rooms near the patience room cause after nights out.. our room was still very noisy.. so sorry! i think the best part of the camp is the mid-night games when we woke up like 1 hour after we slept.yepps.and so was the bowling.my highest score is like 77!! i am so happy for me.though.i know if compared that to anyone.it sucks! so yepps.had so much funn!
22nd December 06today was so funny! went out with Delane and Justin.Delane came later cause she had a dentist appoinment which was drag and drag and drag.lol.so we had dinner.met delane.took as lot of pictures which made us laugh so much.the whole night was just so funny.lah.just can't wait for sunday to come!! cause its christmas! which means its time for prezzie and love! whee!! 23rd - Badminton.Bulletin 24th- Church.Christmas Celebration25th - Christmas Day!!! whee! 26th - Open Prezzie! 27th - Anyone want to go out?.i will be bored.28th - When is SG outing ?!?! 29th - whining.dun want to go school.30th - Badminton.Bulletin31st - Church.Daphne's b'dae
12:52 AM
Saturday, December 16, 2006
sigh.so many
UNPLEASANT STUFF
has happened and i feel so
DEPRESSED now.
i mean its HOLIDAYS! why can't i relax ? i am so STRESSED.more then when i was having EOYS.though i dun show the fact that i am stress cause my parents has
NEVER SEEN ME STRESSED.
later i got to meet my parents in town.i hate going that kind of places.don't they know that i hate going to crowded places unless i need to get stuff ?
NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME!
AND THEY THINK THEY DO!
4:13 PM
Thursday, December 14, 2006
whee!! today's TOFU!! we had a meeting in the morning then as soon as the meeting ended.there were youths coming!! so i ushered them to their group leaders.though most of them keep going with their friends, eventually they went back to their groups. the group i was in was so darn quiet.but after a while of "pep talking" and trying to communicate with them.they finally became noisy!! so when it came to the game BLIND MAN'S TRAIL. i was like the only one screaming in my whole group cause jacko went to use her nails and scratch my legs.and i HATE IT! so i kept screaming.then isaac and jacko kept spraying water at me.so as soon as i got out of that maze.gerald told me.do you know that you are the only one screaming in our group and we were like sitting outside listening to you scream.i was so freaking embaressed!!!and thats only one part of the day.the other parts need recallation.update soon!
12:12 AM
Monday, December 11, 2006
hey! here's a little quiz..dunno but it seems fun..if u ever read this...ur either gonna die laughing or ur gonna be shock?
i dunno...so the quiz begins like this...
Name twenty ppl u can think of right now.
Do NOT read the questions until you have named the 20 ppl. At the end of this, chose 5(unlucky) ppl to do this.
THE TWENTY PEOPLE ARE... ... (in random order)
1.Shakila
2.Jazlyn
3.Charis
4.Alyssa
5.Ber
6.Felicia
7.Marie
8.Teresa
9.Ariel
10.Ee Ling
11.Amy
12.Anastatia
13.Shaun
14.Samantha Png
15.Darrel
16.Bertrand
17.Kang wei
18.Yue hao
19.Vivien
20.Sam liew
QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS:
How did u meet #14(Darrel)?
I met him during one purpose camp.
What will you do if u never meet #1 (Shakila)?
i would'nt be happy cause she is one happy-go-lucky person.
What if 9(ariel) and 20(samantha liew) dated?
i would just die laughing.
Would 6(felicia) and 17(kang wei) ?
hmm.who knows.maybe.lol.
describe 3(charis)
she is logical.fun.great listener.
Is 8(teresa) attractive?
this question seems a bit wrong.
Describe 7(Marie)
fun to be with!
12's(anastatia) family members?
she has a dad.mum.younger brother.
18(yue hao)confess to you that he/she likes you?
OMG!!! that would be so freaky cause he's taken.
what language does 15(darrel) speaks?
chinese, english n malay.tts all i think.
Who is 9(Ariel)?
Church friend.same church choir.
How old is 16(Bertrand)?
18.
When was the last time you spoke to 13(shaun)?
yesterday.
would you ever dated 4(Alyssa)?
NO!!! that seems wrong.shes a gal.
would you ever dated 1(Shakila.)?
no! i am not a lesbian.
who is 19(vivien)?
my chruch friend
what is 10's(Ee ling)last name?
ask Eeling
would you be in relationship with 11(amy)?
NEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that is wrong!!
school of 3(charis)?
Cedar Secondary School.
where does 6(felicia) study?
Hai Sing Secondary School.
what's your favourite thing about 5(ber)?
i have no idea.
2:11 PM
Saturday, December 09, 2006
Darrel - Jakarta Jazlyn - Australia Justin - Perth Samantha Wong - somewhere around the worldSamantha Peng - somewhere around the world too Shakila - Phuket 8th of December 06i just found out that i am a hornbeam tree!
here's the list for you to find out what tree are you born.lol.
WHAT TREE DID YOU FALL FROM?Find your birthday and then find your tree.
This is really cool andsomewhat accurate.
Find yourtree below and see what you are like...
Jan 01 to Jan 11 - Fir TreeJan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm TreeJan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress TreeFeb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar TreeFeb09 to Feb 18 - Cedar TreeFeb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine TreeMar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow TreeMar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime TreeMar 21 (only) - Oak TreeMar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut TreeApr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan TreeApr 11 to Apr 20 - Maple TreeApr 21 to Apr 30 - Walnut TreeMay 01 to May 14 - Poplar TreeMay 15 to May 24 - Chestnut TreeMay 25 to Jun 03 - Ash TreeJun 04 to Jun 13 - Hornbeam TreeJun 14 to Jun 23 - Fig TreeJun 24 (only) - Birch TreeJun 25 to Jul 04 - Apple TreeJul 05 to Jul 14 - Fir TreeJul 15 to Jul 25 - Elm TreeJul 26 to Aug 04 - Cypress TreeAug 05 to Aug 13 - Poplar TreeAug 14 to Aug 23 - Cedar TreeAug 24 to Sep 02 - Pine TreeSep 03 to Sep 12 - Weeping Willow TreeSep 13 to Sep 22 - Lime TreeSep 23 (only) - Olive TreeSep 24 to Oct 03 - Hazelnut TreeOct 04 to Oct 13 - Rowan TreeOct 14 to Oct 23 - Maple TreeOct 24 to Nov 11 - Walnut TreeNov 12 to Nov 21 - Chestnut TreeNov 22 to Dec 01 - Ash TreeDec 02 to Dec 11 - Hornbeam TreeDec 12 to Dec 21 - Fig TreeDec 22 (only) - Beech TreeDec 23 to Jan 01 - Apple TreeTREES (in alphabetical order)Apple Tree (Love) -- quiet and shy at times, lots of charm, appeal,and attraction, pleasant attitude, flirtatious smile, adventurous,sensitive, loyal in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful andtender partner, very generous, many talents, loves children, needsaffectionate partner.
Ash Tree (Ambition) -- extremely attractive, vivacious, impulsive,demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent,talented, likes to play with fate, can be very egotistic, reliable,restless lover, sometimes money rules over the heart, demandsattention, needs love and much emotional support.
Beech Tree (Creative) -- has good taste, concerned about its looks,materialistic, good organization of life and career, economical,good leader, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable, splendidlifetime companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, sports, etc.).
Birch Tree (Inspiration) -- vivacious, attractive, elegant, friendly,unpretentious, modest, does not like anything in excess, abhorsthe vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not very passionate,full of imagination, little ambition, creates a calm and contentatmosphere.
Cedar Tree (Confidence) -- of rare strength, knowshow to adapt,likes unexpected presents, of good health, not in the least shy,tends to look down on others, self-confident, a great speaker,determined, often impatient, likes to impress others, has manytalents, industrious, healthy optimism, waits for the one true love,able to make quick decisions.
Chestnut Tree (Honesty) -- of unusual stature, impressive,well-developed sense of justice, fun to be around, a planner, borndiplomat, can be irritated easily, sensitive of others feelings,hard worker, sometimes acts superior, feels not understood at times,fiercely family oriented, very loyal in love, physically fit.
Cypress Tree (Faithfulness) -- strong, muscular, adaptable, takeswhat life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to becontent, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants loveand affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot besatisfied, faithful, quick-tempered at times, can be unruly andcareless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed.
Elm Tree (Noble-mindedness) -- pleasant shape, tasteful clothes,modest demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes tolead but not to obey, honest and faithful partner, likes makingdecisions for others, noble-minded, generous, good sense of humor,practical.
Fig Tree (Sensibility) -- very strong minded, a bit self-willed,honest, loyal, independent, hates contradiction or arguments, hardworker when wants to be, loves life and friends, enjoys childrenand animals, sexually oriented, great sense of humor, hasartistic talent and great intelligence.
Fir tree (Mysterious) -- extraordinary taste, handles stress well,loves anything beautiful, stubborn, tends to care for those close tothem, hard to trust others, yet a social butterfly, likes idlenessand laziness after long demanding hours at work, rather modest,talented, unselfish, many friends, very reliable.
Hazelnut Tree (Extraordinary) -- charming, sense of humor, verydemanding but can also be very understanding, knows how to make alasting impression, active fighter for social causes and politics,popular, quite moody, sexually oriented, honest, a perfectionist,has a precise sense of judgment and expects complete fairness.
Hornbeam Tree (Good Taste) -- of cool beauty, cares for its looksand condition, good taste, is not egoistic, makes life ascomfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life,looks for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner,dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings,mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, veryconscientious.
Lime Tree (Doubt) - intelligent, hard working, accepts what lifedishes out, but not before trying to change bad circumstances intogood ones, hates fighting and stress, enjoys getaway vacations, mayappear tough, but is actually soft and relenting, always willing tomake sacrifices for family and friends, has many talents but notalways enough time to use them, great leadership qualities, is jealous at times butextremely loyal.
Maple Tree (Independence of Mind) -- no ordinary person, full ofimagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud,self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, hasmany complexities, good memory, learns easily, complicated lovelife, wants to impress.
Oak Tree (Brave) -- robust nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting,independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on theground, person of action.
Olive Tree (Wisdom) -- loves sun, warmth and kind feelings,reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant,cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive,empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read and the company ofsophisticated people.
Pine Tree (Peacemaker) -- loves agreeable company, craves peace andharmony, loves to help others, active imagination, likes to writepoetry, not fashion conscious, great compassion, friendly to all,falls strongly in love but will leave if betrayed or lied to,emotionally soft, low self esteem, needs affection and reassurance.
Poplar Tree (Uncertainty) -- looks very decorative, talented, notvery self-confident, extremely courageous if necessary, needsgoodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, greatanimosity, great artistic nature, good organizer, tends to leantoward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnershipseriously.
Rowan Tree (Sensitivity) -- full of charm, cheerful, gifted withoutegoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, andeven complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste,artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.
Walnut Tree (Passion) -- unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts,often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpectedreactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility,difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired,ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.
Weeping Willow (Melancholy) - likes to be stress free, loves familylife, full of hopes and dreams, attractive, very empathetic, lovesanything beautiful, musically inclined, loves to travel to exoticplaces, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is noteasy to live with when pressured, sometimes demanding, goodintuition, suffers in love until they find that one loyal, steadfastpartner; loves to make others laugh.
its just for fun.please don't believe it.
1:23 AM
Friday, December 08, 2006
I AM VERY BITCHY NOW!I AM FREAKING PISS NOW!!! CARMEN.HOW COULD YOU DO THIS?DONT YOU KNOW THAT I HATE THEM.WHY DO YOU STILL PUT MY IN THAT POSITION? I NEED TO TALK TO YOU.BEFORE I GET SO FREAKING PISSED OFF.WHICH I AM ALREADY.OR.I AM GONNA HATE YOU FOR LIFE!!!YOU JUST CHEAT ME!!!GO AND DIE!ALL THE BLOODY ASSHOLES! FUCK OFF! ALL THE ARSHOLE IN THE UNIVERSE.AND JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!
12:02 AM
Thursday, December 07, 2006
ok.today shakila.delane.me.we went to escape theme park.it was fun at first but after a while we found the queue too long and the heat getting hotter by the minute.so we played like each game like twice cause the games were very limited cause most of the games were under construction or not in use.which is so ridiculous.the last game we played was on boat-slide-water-wet-game.i cannot believe that shakila actually talk me into sitting the front seat cause it is a 15-metre ride downwards. i was so freaked-out. i promise shakila that i will definatly kill her but she was like kinda in a rush so we just headed home.didnt really kill her.sigh.today is so funn.and i am so not tired.ttul!
12:30 AM
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
so here are where my friends are all over the country:
*Darrel - Jakarta
*Jazlyn - Australia
*Justin - Perth
*Vanessa - Australia
5th of Decmeber
ok.today went out with Alyssa.Felicia.Rachel. shopping! though it wasnt much of a shopping trip.we were shopping for TOFU materials and we got all the stuff we needed except for the fruits.in case it spoils.so after raiding the ym cupboard.we neatly put the stuff back and went out again.this time to buy 550 chopsticks and 5 rolls of rafia string small ones.went back to church and headed to the youth centre while alyssa and rachel did their homework.i was like an extra watching them do their homework.and the way they stress doing their homework.. i am so afraid to go to sec three in 2007.i am so hoping that this december holiday will drag cause november when by so fast i didnt even know what i did! and i can so wait for 2007 to arrive. tomorrow.shakila.delane.me.we are going to escape! ok.i know it sounds super fun-lame-exciting-cool! [though i have no idea why i find it lame!]but i am so looking forward to it!
11:22 PM
Monday, December 04, 2006
so here is where my friends are all over the country:
*Jazlyn - Australia [come back soon! have loads of stuff to tell you]
*Shakila - Phuket [please be careful!!]
*Marie - Cambodia
*Darrel - Indonesia
*Justin - Perth
*Vanessa - Australia
HAPPY B'DAE ANASTATIA!!!! [def give you your prezzie nest week!]sigh.. lots of things happen this week and i dunno where to start.
2nd of Decembercame late for bulletins.better make it the last time.shakila and i headed down to tampines sports hall for badminton.first time there were so few people there.daryl.victor.samuel.ben.shakila.me.playing with samuel is a suicide match.
3rd of December worse day of my life in church.why? cried 3 times.because of you know who."ren" her for 2 freaking years.and to her its like do whateva she wants.sometimes i just want to said this 2 beautiful words to her! [f**k off!]she is acting like a princess everywhere what an
bitchy-ass.4th of DecemberI HATE PEOPLE WHO KEEP TELLING ME WHAT TO SAY OR WHAT NOT TO SAY! WHY CAN'T THEY JUST LET ME BE WHO I AM! WHY DO THEY CARE? ITS SO FREAKIN ANNOYING! AND WHEN I CHAT WITH THEM, I HAVE TO USE THE RIGHT WORDS.I FEEL LIKE A FREAKING ROBOT.CAUSE I HAVE TO KEEP PLEASING THEM! ITS LIKE I CAN ONLY USE THESE NICE WORDS TO THIS PARTICULAR PERSON AND THESE KIND OF WORDS TO ANOTHER KIND OF PERSON.JUST LET ME BE WHO I WANT TO BE! HERE'S THE BEST PART.I CAN'T TELL THEM CAUSE THEY ARE OLDER THEN ME AND IT'S NOT MY PARENTS WHO ARE DOING IT! WHAT THE FUCK!
3:29 PM
Friday, December 01, 2006
ok.. so here are where my friends are : -Jazlyn : Australia [dunno which part] -Vanessa : Australia [hmm.. maybe they will meet]-Samntha Png : Cruise to i forgot where.. - Samanthat : HK [most probably back already] So now i am stiff bored cause all the people i want to speak on msn either dao me or having projects to do.sigh. well.. i am curently doing christmas cards! decided not to buy.not enough money so dun blame me if its ugly!.lol. my DAMN SPEAKERS ARE STILL SPOILED!! so i am listening to my dad's phone radio 98.0 rawks!! i feel like i am advertising for them.. lol.luckily my dad's phone can listen on loud speaker!! so much for not spending much on christmas.. i went to spotlight today and get some pretty papers for Christmas cards.. guess how much it cost.. $41.30!!! what the.. i was like.. 'i begg your pardon?' and i only bought like only a few materials.. oh well. i just found out that spotlight is very expensive.. well.i think it wont be a waste.after all its CHRISTMAS! - tis the season to be jolly. falalalala...lalalala
1:33 AM
Saturday, November 25, 2006
so today's saturday and i went to play badminton at the tamp sports hall with Felicia, Shakila, Sam Wong, Sam Liew, Vanessa, Shaun, Kyle, Kennis, Samuel and Daryl.. ok.. so this time there are the same number of girls and guy there.. the guys are like SO DAMN GOOD! like kyle and samuel is in their school badminton team.. just playing with kyle is so scary.. carn imagine playing aganist him.. adn after that we had lunch at SUBWAY!!! Its been a darn long time since i ate subway lah.. so felicia and i shared a foot long bread.. which i find that it is longer then the size of a foot.. it was quite filling for like a short while then we went to tamp mall, we wanted to watch step up lah.. but then they didnt show step up.. what a dissapointment! so in the end we went to buy tickets for HAPPY FEET!! its was so adorable.. then a kid sitting the row in front of us started talking to us.. he is so adorable!!! then we talked and talked until we were like the last people to leave the cinema! And when we walked out near the arcade.. a salesperson came up to us and ask if we want to take a picture.. was so RANDOM lah! So kennis, shaun, vanessa, felicia and i took the picture.. and everybody in the arcade was like looking at us.. so embaressing yet so funny so when the lady print the photo out.. we were like looking so ridiculous... today was so fun!! and i need to go already.. bummer! well.. ta-ta
10:31 PM
My computer has been going crazy recently.. so this is for like on the 22nd to the 24thWe went to vivo city on the Wed.. Jazlyn, Shakila, Delane and I for Christmas Shopping! ok.. i am not really a person who like to shop but its Christmas!! So far.. i kinda know what to get already but i need to save every single cent i have if i want to give everybody their prezzie! So after shopping at vivo city i had to go to Ana's place to help them dye their hair.. which was so fun!! sigh.. should have tooken pictures.. On thursday, Ana, Shaun and i we went to bugis to shop for shoes cause the next day ana is having a JC Yr 1 Bash!! After that we went to Ana's house to fixed her Christmas tree! thats like my first time actually setting up a christmas tree! though most of the stuff were done by Shaun and Ana it was so fun! So we h 
